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      we kept living life trying to find each other in others

      but we couldn't

      you told me we were each other's puzzle piece

      we still are

      rebirth

      her tears were the rain

      that watered her own seeds

      under concrete

      little did she know each tear drop

      represented a new home

      of self love

      happiness

      clarity

      healing

      little did she know

      her tears from the pain would grow her

      into a collection of roses and daisies

      little did she know

      the garden she grew

      would be her heaven on earth

      i just want to know how you're doing

      i know we set out to grow more

      but i'm growing anxious

      i'm dying to hear your voice

      to feel your lips

      to feel your hands

      to feel your love

      i don't want to know about anybody else

      i don't want to know your experience

      i don't want to know if you gave another

      your time, affection, energy, and presence

      cause then i'll know you had intentions of moving on

      cause then i'll know you were still seeking the waters

      while i was seeking to be the best woman i could be

      here at home

      for you

      for us

      for me

       -it hasn't been too long though it feels like forever.

       i want to know how you're doing, but sometimes

       some things are better left unsaid.

      shame, less? mind, less?

      i'm told it's not my fault

      i'm told to distance myself

      i tell myself, "you don't need that in your life"

      i don't

      but what is a daughter without a father?

      i guess you can now say, a woman

      an independent one

      the drastic changes hit

      but the blessings that hit compare to none

      your caller id says your name but is that really you?

      is your mind over the clouds watching the new you take over?

      psalms and songs

      i guess i held onto our psalms

      it was our words of our love story

      that were written and spoken

      that never allowed me to let go

      the blue print was there

      our psalms consisted of endurance

      divinity

      faith

      past eternal love

      truth

      promises

      our psalms were my favorite songs

      that i never wanted to stop playing

      the heavens put their stamp on it

      God created it

      we walked it

      we lived it

      lightyears

      my heart

      soul

      mind

      i feel like i was born in another life

      i'm an old soul in a new body

      or maybe i was meant to be this grown at such a young age?

      luv 2 luv

      you know that love where you just admire your significant other while they're driving?

      where that admiration turns into realization

      that this is your person?

      i adore that love.

      antioch, ca 8:40PM my bed

      our vibe and connection so strong

      we don't even need to say a word

      our exchange of energy

      is as destructive and powerful as a nuclear bomb

      your eyes

      the stars i can count

      the constellation i see in them

      i look into them and know we're meant

      as we hold hands and smile in silence

      i can read your mind

      i'm pretty sure you can read mine too

      don't speak, love

      let our passion take over

       -i know i'm not crazy

       but i want this forever.

      the letter// kehlani

      dear mom,

      sometimes i wish you never left me. sometimes i wish you wanted to work things out. sometimes i wish you would somehow find my number and call me for lunch to see how i'm doing. sometimes i wish i knew what it's like to be held by you. sometimes i wish i knew a mother's unconditional love. sometimes i wish you loved me so that i wouldn't be mean to those who try to replace your love and love me. sometimes i wish things were different between us. then i remember things are different between us because we're too different, clearly. then i remember not to beg for love, especially love that's supposed to come from one who made me. then i snap out of it and remind myself i don't want to ever be the person you are or be around you. i remind myself that if you wanted to be in my life i wouldn't be writing this right now.

      take a look in the mirror

      you want to "protect me" from bad energy

      yet you are the bad energy

      toxic family members

      let's get rid of the norm on the obligation/entitlement to remain in contact with family members, simply because you are "blood." it's okay to cut toxic people off without feeling guilty about it. don't fall for their narcissistic and manipulative ways. for the sake of your peace and healing, do what you need to do. even if it means losing other people that are against you cutting

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