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not me

      it’s you

      your foul energy

      your ungodly soul

      does not match my happiness

      you are part of who i used to be

      but today no more

      i shall wash you off

      exfoliate the trauma

      and rinse it down the drain

      i pray for your healing

      hosea 6:1

      god says he can mend, heal, fix, and bring back to life

      what we think died

      so do you think he can revive us?

      intertwined soul ties

      i hear you without you having to speak

      i feel you without you having to spill

      i know you without you having to front

       -i still feel your soul’s spirit everywhere i go.

      alive

      i’m finding myself again

      i’m healing

      i’m loving myself more

      i’m breathing more

      i’m living more

      i’m getting closer to God

      i’m restoring the holes from the roots

      that you ripped out of me

      when you left with your love

      love from a distance

      i prefer my own company

      my solitude is everything

      respect my space

      respect my silence

      respect my distance

      respect my no reply

      respect my healing process

      respect my days off

      respect my bad days

      respect my peace

      know your boundaries

       -please understand i don't owe

       anybody an explanation.

       my boundaries are not for you,

       and they are not meant to

       make you comfortable.

      unapologetically me

      i stopped apologizing

      i started speaking firmly

      i now speak with confidence

      never will i dim my light

      just to make somebody else feel comfortable

       -that’s called insecurities.

      1 corinthians 13:4-8

      i know that if one doesn't love God the way i love Him

      or love others the way God does

      they wouldn’t be able to love me properly

       -if it ain’t a reflection of what God

       says love is, i don’t want it!

      pet peeve

      i wish society would stop portraying growth and healing

      as an aesthetic post cause in reality it’s not.

      it’s the very thing us humans try to avoid

      without even noticing or trying at least once in their life.

      it hurts, really bad.

      and i’m not gonna sit here and try to make it sound softer.

      it’s extremely uncomfortable.

      it will have you lost, confused, anxious, depressed,

      below rock bottom, triggered and sometimes hopeless.

      it’s not just bubble baths, self care, face masks and candles.

      it’s getting up when you don’t feel like it,

      it’s leaving your comfort zone,

      leaving the only things you may ever know of,

      cutting certain people off,

      unlearning some things to learn the right things.

      don’t get me wrong, at the end it’s really a beautiful journey

      and i’m not saying to hate it or despise it.

      i’m just tired of it being tossed around so loosely.

       -you ever had to re open your wounds

       you thought were healed just to fully heal?

      quiet

      strength and peace is when you no longer care about other people knowing your side of the story.

      ONLY 1 HER

      pure, holy, divine, the truth

      a God fearing woman

      her love

      her touch

      her energy

      her soul

      her heart

      her mind

      her voice

      her body

      her laughs

      her femininity

      her beliefs

      her strengths

      her impact

      her legacy

      her loyalty

      her knowledge

      her worship

      her roots

      her growth

      her testimonies

      her story

      i am her

      there is only 1 of me

       -and you will only get to fully experience me once.

      the irony

      too many words not enough action

      too many apologies not enough change

      too many wrongs too much forgiveness

       -love can be such a contradiction

      3

      notice who's always silent. notice who always has something negative to say every time you tell them your vision or tell them about something good that God did for you.

      szns

      the dark season that you're in isn't permanent

      after winter is spring

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