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spring is summer

      after summer is fall

       -change is inevitable so you might as well embrace every moment

       and lesson in each season.

      prayers

      they keep saying i'll see better days soon but i don't know when

      i tell myself to stop writing about you

      but my mind continues to bleed

      God is the only one who can save me

      would you have let him take me?

      i'm exhausted

      mentally

      spiritually

      physically

      i'm praying every day and night to heal my pain

      this shit isn't for the aesthetics

      you'll never get it

      i had to replace my addiction of you with this journal

      so instead of calling you up this would be the closest i'll get to it

      my heart has sunken deeper into my stomach

      the deeper i go onto the surface of this paper with this pen

      they keep saying i'll see better days soon but i don't know when

      so i keep my faith too and i keep asking god, "but when is soon?"

      2 corinthians 5:7

      walk by crazy faith

      not by sight

      don't let your current situation aka what you see with your sight

      determine your faith towards your vision.

      matthew 14:29

      what is faith?

      she was in a boat barely surviving

      in an ocean full of chaos

      God showed up in the midst of it

      he said to her, "come"

      she had wavy faith

      but she stood up

      she stepped out of the boat

      her and god both walked on water

      vibes

      never apologize for your aura coming off "too strong"

      some can't handle it

      some will get intimidated by your confidence

      o.k.

      it's okay to unlearn some things to learn the right things

      there's nothing wrong with reprogramming

      sometimes it's necessary

       -it's all a learning process

       but also a beautiful journey.

      punani makes the world go round

      your femininity and confidence will always intimidate

      fragile, insecure, narcissistic, and misogynistic men

       -don't retaliate, they are sick.

       wish them well and continue to slay.

      be still

      in solitude one can feel most lonely

      but in solitude is where you grow

      no distractions, no outsiders

      just you and God

      in solitude there is empowerment

      you find strength

      you find yourself

      your vision becomes clearer

      you start loving yourself more

      you realize your worth

      you become aligned

      you become wiser

      you learn patience

      it is peace

      it is sacred

       -do not be afraid of it,

       fall in love with it.

      genesis 12:1-3 /my calling

      i was comfortable

      i was happy

      i was living

      then i had to leave everything i knew

      to live in a whole new world

      it never made sense to me

      i was alone

      i was scared

      i was in survival mode

      i used to ask God, “why me?”

      now i know why it had to be me

      i was called

      i was marked

      it lead me to my purpose

       -sometimes we may not understand why it had to happen the way it did. we sometimes may feel like we lost it all, but it was the very thing that causes you to soon have better. you may not see it now, but love, it will all make sense and you will be thankful you went through that season to receive that garden.

      i gave you life without having to go half on a baby

      i gave you life without having to touch you

      i spoke love into your heart

      i planted a home in you

      with the shovel and seed you gave me

      i shared wisdom through the guarded wall that i let down for you

      without saying a word

      we shared God's plan together as 1

      it is deeper than what the naked eye can see

      it is realer than what the perishable and sinful flesh can feel

      use your soul's spirit to listen

      because i'm where it wants to be

      views

      nowadays.. things are different

      the air is different

      the season is different

      i think different

      i speak different

      my goals are different

      my circle is different

      my views are different

      my vision is different

      topic of conversations are different

      life is different when you wake up

      aligned to your inner self and purpose

      nowadays.. we may not relate anymore

      and i'm okay with that

      lost and

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