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laughed.

      ‘Do you remember where I used to keep my bank-book?’ said he. ‘Torp took it to be balanced just before he went away. Look and see.’

      ‘It was generally under the tobacco-jar. Ah!’

      ‘Well?’

      ‘Oh! Four thousand two hundred and ten pounds nine shillings and a penny! Oh my!’

      ‘You can have the penny. That’s not bad for one year’s work. Is that and a hundred and twenty pounds a year good enough?’

      The idleness and the pretty clothes were almost within her reach now, but she must, by being housewifely, show that she deserved them.

      ‘Yes; but you’d have to move, and if we took an inventory, I think we’d find that Mr. Beeton has been prigging little things out of the rooms here and there. They don’t look as full as they used.’

      ‘Never mind, we’ll let him have them. The only thing I’m particularly anxious to take away is that picture I used you for—when you used to swear at me. We’ll pull out of this place, Bess, and get away as far as ever we can.’

      ‘Oh yes,’ she said uneasily.

      ‘I don’t know where I can go to get away from myself, but I’ll try, and you shall have all the pretty frocks that you care for. You’ll like that. Give me that kiss now, Bess. Ye gods! it’s good to put one’s arm round a woman’s waist again.’

      Then came the fulfilment of the prophecy within the brain. If his arm were thus round Maisie’s waist and a kiss had just been given and taken between them,—why then … He pressed the girl more closely to himself because the pain whipped him. She was wondering how to explain a little accident to the Melancolia. At any rate, if this man really desired the solace of her company—and certainly he would relapse into his original slough if she withdrew it—he would not be more than just a little vexed. It would be delightful at least to see what would happen, and by her teachings it was good for a man to stand in certain awe of his companion.

      She laughed nervously, and slipped out of his reach.

      ‘I shouldn’t worrit about that picture if I was you,’ she began, in the hope of turning his attention.

      ‘It’s at the back of all my canvases somewhere. Find it, Bess; you know it as well as I do.’

      ‘I know—but—’

      ‘But what? You’ve wit enough to manage the sale of it to a dealer. Women haggle much better than men. It might be a matter of eight or nine hundred pounds to—to us. I simply didn’t like to think about it for a long time. It was mixed up with my life so.—But we’ll cover up our tracks and get rid of everything, eh? Make a fresh start from the beginning, Bess.’

      Then she began to repent very much indeed, because she knew the value of money. Still, it was probable that the blind man was overestimating the value of his work. Gentlemen, she knew, were absurdly particular about their things. She giggled as a nervous housemaid giggles when she tries to explain the breakage of a pipe.

      ‘I’m very sorry, but you remember I was—I was angry with you before Mr. Torpenhow went away?’

      ‘You were very angry, child; and on my word I think you had some right to be.’

      ‘Then I—but aren’t you sure Mr. Torpenhow didn’t tell you?’

      ‘Tell me what? Good gracious, what are you making such a fuss about when you might just as well be giving me another kiss?’

      He was beginning to learn, not for the first time in his experience, that kissing is a cumulative poison. The more you get of it, the more you want. Bessie gave the kiss promptly, whispering, as she did so, ‘I was so angry I rubbed out that picture with the turpentine. You aren’t angry, are you?’

      ‘What? Say that again.’ The man’s hand had closed on her wrist.

      ‘I rubbed it out with turps and the knife,’ faltered Bessie. ‘I thought you’d only have to do it over again. You did do it over again, didn’t you? Oh, let go of my wrist; you’re hurting me.’

      ‘Isn’t there anything left of the thing?’

      ‘N’nothing that looks like anything. I’m sorry—I didn’t know you’d take on about it; I only meant to do it in fun. You aren’t going to hit me?’

      ‘Hit you! No! Let’s think.’

      He did not relax his hold upon her wrist but stood staring at the carpet. Then he shook his head as a young steer shakes it when the lash of the stock-whip cross his nose warns him back to the path on to the shambles that he would escape. For weeks he had forced himself not to think of the Melancolia, because she was a part of his dead life. With Bessie’s return and certain new prospects that had developed themselves, the Melancolia—lovelier in his imagination than she had ever been on canvas—reappeared. By her aid he might have procured mor money wherewith to amuse Bess and to forget Maisie, as well as another taste of an almost forgotten success. Now, thanks to a vicious little housemaid’s folly, there was nothing to look for—not even the hope that he might some day take an abiding interest in the housemaid. Worst of all, he had been made to appear ridiculous in Maisie’s eyes. A woman will forgive the man who has ruined her life’s work so long as he gives her love; a man may forgive those who ruin the love of his life, but he will never forgive the destruction of his work.

      ‘Tck—tck—tck,’ said Dick between his teeth, and then laughed softly. ‘It’s an omen, Bessie, and—a good many things considered, it serves me right for doing what I have done. By Jove! that accounts for Maisie’s running away. She must have thought me perfectly mad—small blame to her! The whole picture ruined, isn’t it so? What made you do it?’

      ‘Because I was that angry. I’m not angry now—I’m awful sorry.’

      ‘I wonder.—It doesn’t matter, anyhow. I’m to blame for making the mistake.’

      ‘What mistake?’

      ‘Something you wouldn’t understand, dear. Great heavens! to think that a little piece of dirt like you could throw me out of stride!’ Dick was talking to himself as Bessie tried to shake off his grip on her wrist.

      ‘I ain’t a piece of dirt, and you shouldn’t call me so! I did it ‘cause I hated you, and I’m only sorry now ‘cause you’re—’cause you’re——’

      ‘Exactly—because I’m blind. There’s noting like tact in little things.’

      Bessie began to sob. She did not like being shackled against her will; she was afraid of the blind face and the look upon it, and was sorry too that her great revenge had only made Dick laugh.

      ‘Don’t cry,’ he said, and took her into his arms. ‘You only did what you thought right.’

      ‘I—I ain’t a little piece of dirt, and if you say that I’ll never come to you again.’

      ‘You don’t know what you’ve done to me. I’m not angry—indeed, I’m not. Be quiet for a minute.’

      Bessie remained in his arms shrinking. Dick’s first thought was connected with Maisie, and it hurt him as white-hot iron hurts an open sore.

      Not for nothing is a man permitted to ally himself to the wrong woman. The first pang—the first sense of things lost is but the prelude to the play, for the very just Providence who delights in causing pain has decreed that the agony shall return, and that in the midst of keenest pleasure. They know this pain equally who have forsaken or been forsaken by the love of their life, and in their new wives’ arms are compelled to realise it. It is better to remain alone and suffer only the misery of being alone, so long as it is possible to find distraction in daily work. When that resource goes the man is to be pitied and left alone.

      These things and some others

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