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hand in." His eyes brightened for a moment. "I declare, I believe I've caught it a great deal better. Come and look, Ariel. Doesn't it seem to you that I'm getting it? Those pearly shadows in the flesh--"

      "I'm sure of it. Those people ought to be very proud to have it." She came to him quietly, took the palette and brushes from his hands and began to clean them, standing in the shadow behind him. "It's too good for them."

      "I wonder if it is," he said, slowly, leaning forward and curving his hands about his eyes so as to shut off everything from his view except the canvas. "I wonder if it is!" he repeated. Then his hands dropped sadly in his lap, and he sank back again with a patient kind of revulsion. "No, no, it isn't! I always think they're good when I've just finished them. I've been fooled that way all my life. They don't look the same afterwards."

      "They're always beautiful," she said, softly.

      "Ah, ah!" he sighed.

      "Now, Roger!" she cried, with cheerful sharpness, continuing her work.

      "I know," he said, with a plaintive laugh,--"I know. Sometimes I think that all my reward has been in the few minutes I've had just after finishing them. During those few minutes I seem to see in them all that I wanted to put in them; I see it because what I've been trying to express is still so warm in my own eyes that I seem to have got it on the canvas where I wanted it."

      "But you do," she said. "You do get it there."

      "No," he murmured, in return. "I never did. I got out some of the old ones when I came in this morning, some that I hadn't looked at for years, and it's the same with them. You can do it much better yourself--your sketches show it."

      "No, no!" she protested, quickly.

      "Yes, they do; and I wondered if it was only because you were young. But those I did when I was young are almost the same as the ones I paint now. I haven't learned much. There hasn't been any one to show me! And you can't learn from print, never! Yet I've grown in what I SEE--grown so that the world is full of beauty to me that I never dreamed of seeing when I began. But I can't paint it--I can't get it on the canvas. Ah, I think I might have known how to, if I hadn't had to teach myself, if I could only have seen how some of the other fellows did their work. If I'd ever saved money to get away from Canaan--if I could have gone away from it and come back knowing how to paint it--if I could have got to Paris for just one month! PARIS--for just one month!"

      "Perhaps we will; you can't tell what MAY happen." It was always her reply to this cry of his.

      "PARIS--for just one month!" he repeated, with infinite wistfulness, and then realizing what an old, old cry it was with him, he shook his head, impatiently sniffing out a laugh at himself, rose and went pottering about among the canvases, returning their faces to the wall, and railing at them mutteringly.

      "Whatever took me into it, I don't know. I might have done something useful. But I couldn't bring myself ever to consider doing anything else--I couldn't bear even to think of it! Lord forgive me, I even tried to encourage your father to paint. Perhaps he might as well, poor boy, as to have put all he'd made into buying Jonas out. Ah me! There you go, 'Flower-Girls'! Turn your silly faces to the wall and smile and cry there till I'm gone and somebody throws you on a bonfire. I'LL never look at you again." He paused, with the canvas half turned. "And yet," he went on, reflectively, "a man promised me thirty-five dollars for that picture once. I painted it to order, but he went away before I finished it, and never answered the letters I wrote him about it. I wish I had the money now--perhaps we could have more than two meals a day."

      "We don't need more," said Ariel, scraping the palette attentively. "It's healthier with only breakfast and supper. I think I'd rather have a new dress than dinner."

      "I dare say you would," the old man mused. "You're young--you're young. What were you doing all this afternoon, child?"

      "In my room, trying to make over mamma's wedding-dress for to-night."

      "To-night?"

      "Mamie Pike invited me to a dance at their house."

      "Very well; I'm glad you're going to be gay," he said, not seeing the faintly bitter smile that came to her face.

      "I don't think I'll be very gay," she answered.

      "I don't know why I go--nobody ever asks me to dance."

      "Why not?" he asked, with an old man's astonishment.

      "I don't know. Perhaps it's because I don't dress very well." Then, as he made a sorrowful gesture, she cut him off before he could speak. "Oh, it isn't altogether because we're poor; it's more I don't know how to wear what I've got, the way some girls do. I never cared much and--well, I'M not worrying, Roger! And I think I've done a good deal with mamma's dress. It's a very grand dress. I wonder I never thought of wearing it until to-day. I may be"--she laughed and blushed--"I may be the belle of the ball--who knows!"

      "You'll want me to walk over with you and come for you afterwards, I expect."

      "Only to take me. It may be late when I come away--if a good many SHOULD ask me to dance, for once! Of course I could come home alone. But Joe Louden is going to sort of hang around outside, and he'll meet me at the gate and see me safe home."

      "Oh!" he exclaimed, blankly.

      "Isn't it all right?" she asked.

      "I think I'd better come for you," he answered, gently. "The truth is, I--I think you'd better not be with Joe Louden a great deal."

      "Why?"

      "Well, he doesn't seem a vicious boy to me, but I'm afraid he's getting rather a bad name, my dear."

      "He's not getting one," she said, gravely. "He's already got one. He's had a bad name in Canaan for a long while. It grew in the first place out of shabbiness and mischief, but it did grow; and if people keep on giving him a bad name the time will come when he'll live up to it. He's not any worse than I am, and I guess my own name isn't too good--for a girl. And yet, so far, there's nothing against him except his bad name."

      "I'm afraid there is," said Roger. "It doesn't look very well for a young man of his age to be doing no better than delivering papers."

      "It gives him time to study law," she answered, quickly. "If he clerked all day in a store, he couldn't."

      "I didn't know he was studying now. I thought I'd heard that he was in a lawyer's office for a few weeks last year, and was turned out for setting fire to it with a pipe--"

      "It was an accident," she interposed.

      "But some pretty important papers were burned, and after that none of the other lawyers would have him."

      "He's not in an office," she admitted. "I didn't mean that. But he studies a great deal. He goes to the courts all the time they're in session, and he's bought some books of his own."

      "Well--perhaps," he assented; "but they say he gambles and drinks, and that last week Judge Pike threatened to have him arrested for throwing dice with some negroes behind the Judge's stable."

      "What of it? I'm about the only nice person in town that will have anything to do with him--and nobody except you thinks I'M very nice!"

      "Ariel! Ariel!"

      "I know all about his gambling with darkies," she continued, excitedly, her voice rising, "and I know that he goes to saloons, and that he's an intimate friend of half the riffraff in town; and I know the reason for it, too, because he's told me. He wants to know them, to understand them; and he says some day they'll make him a power, and then he can help them!"

      The old man laughed helplessly. "But I can't let him bring you home, my dear."

      She came to him slowly and laid her hands upon his shoulders. Grandfather and granddaughter

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