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he is a particularly sweet child.’

      ‘And not at all wanting in manliness,’ cried Honor, eagerly.  ‘So full of spirit, and yet so gentle.  Oh! he is a child whom it is a privilege to train, and I don’t think I have spoilt him yet, do you?’

      ‘No, I don’t think you have.  He is very obedient in general.’

      ‘Oh! if he could be only brought up as I wish.  And I do think his innocence is too perfect a thing not to be guarded.  What a perfect clergyman he would make!  Just fancy him devoting himself to some parish like poor dear old St. Wulstan’s—carrying his bright sweetness into the midst of all that black Babel, and spreading light round him! he always says he will be a clergyman like his papa, and I am sure he must be marked out for it.  He likes to look at the sheep on the moors, and talk about the shepherd leading them, and I am sure the meaning goes very deep with him.’

      She was not going quite the way to show Humfrey that her heart was not set on the boy, and she was checked by hearing him sigh.  Perhaps it was for the disappointment he foresaw, so she said, ‘Whether I bring him up or not, don’t you believe there will be a special care over such a child?’

      ‘There is a special care over every Christian child, I suppose,’ he said; ‘and I hope it may all turn out so as to make you happy.  Here is your door; good night, and good-bye.’

      ‘Why, are not you coming in?’

      ‘I think not; I have my things to put up; I must go early to-morrow.  Thank you for a very happy week.  Good-bye, Honor.’  There was a shade of disappointment about his tone that she could not quite account for.  Dear old Humfrey!  Could he be ageing?  Could he be unwell?  Did he feel himself lonely?  Could she have mortified him, or displeased him?  Honor was not a woman of personal vanity, or a solution would sooner have occurred to her.  She knew, upon reflection, that it must have been for her sake that Humfrey had continued single, but it was so inconvenient to think of him in the light of an admirer, when she so much needed him as a brother, that it had hardly ever occurred to her to do so; but at last it did strike her whether, having patiently waited so long, this might not have been a visit of experiment, and whether he might not be disappointed to find her wrapped up in new interests—slightly jealous, in fact, of little Owen.  How good he had been!  Where was the heart that could fail of being touched by so long a course of forbearance and consideration?  Besides Honor had been a solitary woman long enough to know what it was to stand alone.  And then how well he would stand in a father’s place towards the orphans.  He would never decree her parting with them, and Captain Charteris himself must trust him.  Yet what a shame it would be to give such a devoted heart nothing better than one worn out, with the power of love such as he deserved, exhausted for ever.  And yet—and yet—something very odd bounded up within her, and told her between shame and exultation, that faithful old Humfrey would not be discontented even with what she had to give.  Another time—a little, a very little encouragement, and the pine wood scene would come back again, and then—her heart fainted a little—there should be no concealment—but if she could only have been six months married all at once!

      Time went on, and Honora more than once blushed at finding how strong a hold this possibility had taken of her heart, when once she had begun to think of resting upon one so kind, so good, so strong.  Every perplexity, every care, every transaction that made her feel her position as a single woman, brought round the yearning to lay them all down upon him, who would only be grateful to her for them.  Every time she wanted some one to consult, hope showed her his face beaming sweetly on her, and home seemed to be again opening to her, that home which might have been hers at any time these twelve years.  She quite longed to see how glad the dear, kind fellow would be.

      Perhaps maidenly shame would have belied her feelings in his actual presence, perhaps she would not have shrunk from him, and been more cold than in her unconsciousness, but he came not; and his absence fanned the spark so tardily kindled.  What if she had delayed till too late?  He was a man whose duty it was to marry! he had waited till he was some years past forty—perhaps this had been his last attempt, and he was carrying his addresses elsewhere.

      Well! Honora believed she had tried to act rightly, and that must be her comfort—and extremely ashamed of herself she was, to find herself applying such a word to her own sensations in such a case—and very much disliking the notion of any possible lady at Hiltonbury Holt.

      CHAPTER III

      There is a reaper, his name is Death,

      And with his sickle keen,

      He reaps the bearded grain at a breath,

      And the flowers that grow between.

—Longfellow

      A letter from Humfrey! how Honor’s heart fluttered.  Would it announce an engagement, or would it promise a visit on which her fate would turn, or would it be only a business letter on her money matters?

      Angry at her own trepidation, she opened it.  It was none of all these.  It told her that Mr. Saville, his brother-in-law, was staying at the Holt with his second wife, and that he begged her to take advantage of this opportunity to come to visit the old place, adding, that he had not been well, and he wished much to see her, if she could spare a few days to him from her children.

      Little doubt had she as to the acceptance.  The mere words ‘going to Hiltonbury,’ had power by force of association to make her heart bound.  She was a little disappointed that he had not included the children; she feared that it looked as if he were really ill; but it might be on account of the Savilles, or maybe he had that to say to her which—oh, nonsense!  Were that the case, Humfrey would not reverse the order of things, and make her come to him.  At any rate, the children should be her first condition.  And then she concentrated her anxieties on his most unusual confession of having been unwell.

      Humfrey’s substantial person was ready to meet her at the station, and the first glance dispelled her nervous tremors, and calmed the tossings of her mind in the habitual sense of trust and reliance.  He thanked her for coming, handed her into the carriage, looked after her goods, and seated himself beside her in so completely his ordinary fashion of taking care of her, that she forgot all her intentions of rendering their meeting momentous.  Her first inquiry was for his health, but he put it aside with something about feeling very well now, and he looked so healthy, only perhaps a little more hearty and burly, that she did not think any more of the matter, and only talked in happy desultory scraps, now dwelling on her little Owen’s charms, now joyfully recognizing familiar objects, or commenting upon the slight changes that had taken place.  One thing, however, she observed; Humfrey did not stop the horse at the foot of the steep hill where walking had been a matter of course, when he had been a less solid weight than now.  ‘Yes, Honor,’ he said, smiling, ‘one grows less merciful as one grows old and short-breathed.’

      ‘You growing old! you whom I’ve never left off thinking of as a promising lad, as poor old Mrs. Mervyn used to call you.’

      He turned his face towards her as if about to say something very seriously, but apparently changing his intention, he said, ‘Poor old Mrs. Mervyn, I wonder how she would like the changes at Beauchamp.’

      ‘Are the Fulmorts doing a great deal?’

      ‘They have quite modernized the house, and laid out the garden—what I should call very prettily, if it were not for my love of the old Dutch one.  They see a great deal of company, and go on in grand style.’

      ‘How do you get on with them?’

      ‘Oh! very well; I have dined there two or three times.  He is a good-natured fellow enough, and there are some nice children, whom I like to meet with their nurses in the woods.  I stood proxy for the last one’s sponsor; I could not undertake the office myself.’

      ‘Good-natured!’ exclaimed Nora.  ‘Why, you know how he behaved at St. Wulstan’s.  No more than £5 a year would he ever give to any charity, though he was making thousands by those gin-shops.’

      ‘Probably he thought he was doing very liberally.’

      ‘Ay,

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