LITMIR.BIZ

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leave. And now with the burden of faded futile flowers I wait and linger.

      The waves have become clamorous, and upon the bank in the shady lane the yellow leaves flutter and fall.

      What emptiness do you gaze upon! Do you not feel a thrill passing through the air with the notes of the far-away song floating from the other shore?

      In the deep shadows of the rainy July, with secret steps, thou walkest, silent as night, eluding all watchers.

      Today the morning has closed its eyes, heedless of the insistent calls of the loud east wind, and a thick veil has been drawn over the ever-wakeful blue sky.

      The woodlands have hushed their songs, and doors are all shut at every house. Thou art the solitary wayfarer in this deserted street. Oh my only friend, my best beloved, the gates are open in my house — do not pass by like a dream.

      Art thou abroad on this stormy night on thy journey of love, my friend? The sky groans like one in despair.

      I have no sleep tonight. Ever and again I open my door and look out on the darkness, my friend!

      I can see nothing before me. I wonder where lies thy path!

      By what dim shore of the ink-black river, by what far edge of the frowning forest, through what mazy depth of gloom art thou threading thy course to come to me, my friend?

      If the day is done, if birds sing no more, if the wind has flagged tired, then draw the veil of darkness thick upon me, even as thou hast wrapt the earth with the coverlet of sleep and tenderly closed the petals of the drooping lotus at dusk.

      From the traveller, whose sack of provisions is empty before the voyage is ended, whose garment is torn and dustladen, whose strength is exhausted, remove shame and poverty, and renew his life like a flower under the cover of thy kindly night.

      In the night of weariness let me give myself up to sleep without struggle, resting my trust upon thee.

      Let me not force my flagging spirit into a poor preparation for thy worship.

      It is thou who drawest the veil of night upon the tired eyes of the day to renew its sight in a fresher gladness of awakening.

      He came and sat by my side but I woke not. What a cursed sleep it was, O miserable me!

      He came when the night was still; he had his harp in his hands, and my dreams became resonant with its melodies.

      Alas, why are my nights all thus lost? Ah, why do I ever miss his sight whose breath touches my sleep?

      Light, oh where is the light? Kindle it with the burning fire of desire!

      There is the lamp but never a flicker of a flame — is such thy fate, my heart? Ah, death were better by far for thee!

      Misery knocks at thy door, and her message is that thy lord is wakeful, and he calls thee to the love-tryst through the darkness of night.

      The sky is overcast with clouds and the rain is ceaseless. I know not what this is that stirs in me — I know not its meaning.

      A moment’s flash of lightning drags down a deeper gloom on my sight, and my heart gropes for the path to where the music of the night calls me.

      Light, oh where is the light! Kindle it with the burning fire of desire! It thunders and the wind rushes screaming through the void. The night is black as a black stone. Let not the hours pass by in the dark. Kindle the lamp of love with thy life.

      Obstinate are the trammels, but my heart aches when I try to break them.

      Freedom is all I want, but to hope for it I feel ashamed.

      I am certain that priceless wealth is in thee, and that thou art my best friend, but I have not the heart to sweep away the tinsel that fills my room

      The shroud that covers me is a shroud of dust and death; I hate it, yet hug it in love.

      My debts are large, my failures great, my shame secret and heavy; yet when I come to ask for my good, I quake in fear lest my prayer be granted.

      He whom I enclose with my name is weeping in this dungeon. I am ever busy building this wall all around; and as this wall goes up into the sky day by day I lose sight of my true being in its dark shadow.

      I take pride in this great wall, and I plaster it with dust and sand lest a least hole should be left in this name; and for all the care I take I lose sight of my true being.

      I came out alone on my way to my tryst. But who is this that follows me in the silent dark?

      I move aside to avoid his presence but I escape him not.

      He makes the dust rise from the earth with his swagger; he adds his loud voice to every word that I utter.

      He is my own little self, my lord, he knows no shame; but I am ashamed to come to thy door in his company.

      ‘Prisoner, tell me, who was it that bound you?’

      ‘It was my master,’ said the prisoner. ‘I thought I could outdo everybody in the world in wealth and power, and I amassed in my own treasure-house the money due to my king. When sleep overcame me I lay upon the bed that was for my lord, and on waking up I found I was a prisoner in my own treasure-house.’

      ‘Prisoner, tell me, who was it that wrought this unbreakable chain?’

      ‘It was I,’ said the prisoner, ‘who forged this chain very carefully. I thought my invincible power would hold the world captive leaving me in a freedom undisturbed. Thus night and day I worked at the chain with huge fires and cruel hard strokes. When at last the work was done and the links were complete and unbreakable, I found that it held me in its grip.’

      By all means they try to hold me secure who love me in this world. But it is otherwise with thy love which is greater than theirs, and thou keepest me free.

      Lest I forget them they never venture to leave me alone. But day passes by after day and thou art not seen.

      If I call not thee in my prayers, if I keep not thee in my heart, thy love for me still waits for my love.

      When it was day they came into my house and said, ‘We shall only take the smallest room here.’

      They said, ‘We shall help you in the worship of your God and humbly accept only our own share in his grace’; and then they took their seat in a corner and they sat quiet and meek.

      But in the darkness of night I find they break into my sacred shrine, strong and turbulent, and snatch with unholy greed the offerings from God’s altar.

      Let only that little be left of me whereby I may name thee my all.

      Let only that little be left of my will whereby I may feel thee on every side, and come to thee in everything, and offer to thee my love every moment.

      Let only that little be left of me whereby I may never hide thee.

      Let only that little of my fetters be left whereby I am bound with thy will, and thy purpose is carried out in my life — and that is the fetter of thy love.

      Where the mind is without fear and the head is held high;

      Where knowledge is free;

      Where the world has not been broken up into fragments by narrow domestic walls;

      Where words come out from the depth of truth;

      Where tireless striving stretches its arms towards perfection;

      Where the clear stream of reason has not lost its way into the dreary desert sand of dead habit;

      Where the mind is led forward by thee into ever-widening thought and action —

      Into that heaven of freedom, my Father, let my country awake.

      This is my prayer to thee, my lord — strike, strike at the root of penury in my heart.

      Give me the strength lightly to bear my joys and sorrows.

      Give

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