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do you know?”

      “Oh,” said Dawes, “I reckon he spent th' night—”

      There was a good deal of laughter at Paul's expense.

      “But who WAS she? D'you know her?” asked the mutual friend.

      “I should SHAY SHO,” said Dawes.

      This brought another burst of laughter.

      “Then spit it out,” said the mutual friend.

      Dawes shook his head, and took a gulp of beer.

      “It's a wonder he hasn't let on himself,” he said. “He'll be braggin' of it in a bit.”

      “Come on, Paul,” said the friend; “it's no good. You might just as well own up.”

      “Own up what? That I happened to take a friend to the theatre?”

      “Oh well, if it was all right, tell us who she was, lad,” said the friend.

      “She WAS all right,” said Dawes.

      Paul was furious. Dawes wiped his golden moustache with his fingers, sneering.

      “Strike me—! One o' that sort?” said the mutual friend. “Paul, boy, I'm surprised at you. And do you know her, Baxter?”

      “Just a bit, like!”

      He winked at the other men.

      “Oh well,” said Paul, “I'll be going!”

      The mutual friend laid a detaining hand on his shoulder.

      “Nay,” he said, “you don't get off as easy as that, my lad. We've got to have a full account of this business.”

      “Then get it from Dawes!” he said.

      “You shouldn't funk your own deeds, man,” remonstrated the friend.

      Then Dawes made a remark which caused Paul to throw half a glass of beer in his face.

      “Oh, Mr. Morel!” cried the barmaid, and she rang the bell for the “chucker-out”.

      Dawes spat and rushed for the young man. At that minute a brawny fellow with his shirt-sleeves rolled up and his trousers tight over his haunches intervened.

      “Now, then!” he said, pushing his chest in front of Dawes.

      “Come out!” cried Dawes.

      Paul was leaning, white and quivering, against the brass rail of the bar. He hated Dawes, wished something could exterminate him at that minute; and at the same time, seeing the wet hair on the man's forehead, he thought he looked pathetic. He did not move.

      “Come out, you—,” said Dawes.

      “That's enough, Dawes,” cried the barmaid.

      “Come on,” said the “chucker-out”, with kindly insistence, “you'd better be getting on.”

      And, by making Dawes edge away from his own close proximity, he worked him to the door.

      “THAT'S the little sod as started it!” cried Dawes, half-cowed, pointing to Paul Morel.

      “Why, what a story, Mr. Dawes!” said the barmaid. “You know it was you all the time.”

      Still the “chucker-out” kept thrusting his chest forward at him, still he kept edging back, until he was in the doorway and on the steps outside; then he turned round.

      “All right,” he said, nodding straight at his rival.

      Paul had a curious sensation of pity, almost of affection, mingled with violent hate, for the man. The coloured door swung to; there was silence in the bar.

      “Serve, him, jolly well right!” said the barmaid.

      “But it's a nasty thing to get a glass of beer in your eyes,” said the mutual friend.

      “I tell you I was glad he did,” said the barmaid. “Will you have another, Mr. Morel?”

      She held up Paul's glass questioningly. He nodded.

      “He's a man as doesn't care for anything, is Baxter Dawes,” said one.

      “Pooh! is he?” said the barmaid. “He's a loud-mouthed one, he is, and they're never much good. Give me a pleasant-spoken chap, if you want a devil!”

      “Well, Paul, my lad,” said the friend, “you'll have to take care of yourself now for a while.”

      “You won't have to give him a chance over you, that's all,” said the barmaid.

      “Can you box?” asked a friend.

      “Not a bit,” he answered, still very white.

      “I might give you a turn or two,” said the friend.

      “Thanks, I haven't time.”

      And presently he took his departure.

      “Go along with him, Mr. Jenkinson,” whispered the barmaid, tipping Mr. Jenkinson the wink.

      The man nodded, took his hat, said: “Good-night all!” very heartily, and followed Paul, calling:

      “Half a minute, old man. You an' me's going the same road, I believe.”

      “Mr. Morel doesn't like it,” said the barmaid. “You'll see, we shan't have him in much more. I'm sorry; he's good company. And Baxter Dawes wants locking up, that's what he wants.”

      Paul would have died rather than his mother should get to know of this affair. He suffered tortures of humiliation and self-consciousness. There was now a good deal of his life of which necessarily he could not speak to his mother. He had a life apart from her—his sexual life. The rest she still kept. But he felt he had to conceal something from her, and it irked him. There was a certain silence between them, and he felt he had, in that silence, to defend himself against her; he felt condemned by her. Then sometimes he hated her, and pulled at her bondage. His life wanted to free itself of her. It was like a circle where life turned back on itself, and got no farther. She bore him, loved him, kept him, and his love turned back into her, so that he could not be free to go forward with his own life, really love another woman. At this period, unknowingly, he resisted his mother's influence. He did not tell her things; there was a distance between them.

      Clara was happy, almost sure of him. She felt she had at last got him for herself; and then again came the uncertainty. He told her jestingly of the affair with her husband. Her colour came up, her grey eyes flashed.

      “That's him to a 'T',” she cried—“like a navvy! He's not fit for mixing with decent folk.”

      “Yet you married him,” he said.

      It made her furious that he reminded her.

      “I did!” she cried. “But how was I to know?”

      “I think he might have been rather nice,” he said.

      “You think I made him what he is!” she exclaimed.

      “Oh no! he made himself. But there's something about him—”

      Clara looked at her lover closely. There was something in him she hated, a sort of detached criticism of herself, a coldness which made her woman's soul harden against him.

      “And what are you going to do?” she asked.

      “How?”

      “About Baxter.”

      “There's nothing to do, is there?” he replied.

      “You can fight him if you have to, I suppose?” she said.

      “No; I haven't the least sense of the 'fist'. It's funny. With most men there's the instinct to clench the fist and hit. It's not so with me. I should want a knife or a pistol or something to fight with.”

      “Then you'd

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