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beating these words.

      They climbed the cliff path toilsomely. Standing at the top, on the edge of the grass, they looked down the cliffs at the beach and over the sea. The strand was wide, forsaken by the sea, forlorn with rocks bleaching in the sun, and sand and seaweed breathing off their painful scent upon the heat. The sea crept smaller, farther away; the sky stood still. Siegmund and Helena looked hopelessly out on their beautiful, incandescent world. They looked hopelessly at each other, Siegmund’s mood was gentle and forbearing. He smiled faintly at Helena, then turned, and, lifting his hand to his mouth in a kiss for the beauty he had enjoyed, ‘Addio!’ he said.

      He turned away, and, looking from Helena landwards, he said, smiling peculiarly:

      ‘It reminds me of Traviata — an “Addio“ at every verse-end.’

      She smiled with her mouth in acknowledgement of his facetious irony; it jarred on her. He was pricked again by her supercilious reserve. ‘Addi-i-i-i-o, Addi-i-i-o!’ he whistled between his teeth, hissing out the Italian’s passion-notes in a way that made Helena clench her fists.

      ‘I suppose,’ she said, swallowing, and recovering her voice to check this discord —‘I suppose we shall have a fairly easy journey — Thursday.’

      ‘I don’t know,’ said Siegmund.

      ‘There will not be very many people,’ she insisted.

      ‘I think,’ he said, in a very quiet voice, ‘you’d better let me go by the South-Western from Portsmouth while you go on by the Brighton.’

      ‘But why?’ she exclaimed in astonishment.

      ‘I don’t want to sit looking at you all the way,’ he said.

      ‘But why should you?’ she exclaimed.

      He laughed.

      ‘Indeed, no!’ she said. ‘We shall go together.’

      ‘Very well,’ he answered.

      They walked on in silence towards the village. As they drew near the little post office, he said:

      ‘I suppose I may as well wire them that I shall be home tonight.’

      ‘You haven’t sent them any word?’ she asked.

      He laughed. They came to the open door of the little shop. He stood still, not entering. Helena wondered what he was thinking.

      ‘Shall I?’ he asked, meaning, should he wire to Beatrice. His manner was rather peculiar.

      ‘Well, I should think so,’ faltered Helena, turning away to look at the postcards in the window. Siegmund entered the shop. It was dark and cumbered with views, cheap china ornaments, and toys. He asked for a telegraph form.

      ‘My God!’ he said to himself bitterly as he took the pencil. He could not sign the abbreviated name his wife used towards him. He scribbled his surname, as he would have done to a stranger. As he watched the amiable, stout woman counting up his words carefully, pointing with her finger, he felt sick with irony.

      ‘That’s right,’ she said, picking up the sixpence and taking the form to the instrument. ‘What beautiful weather!’ she continued. ‘It will be making you sorry to leave us.’

      ‘There goes my warrant,’ thought Siegmund, watching the flimsy bit of paper under the post-mistress’s heavy hand.

      ‘Yes — it is too bad, isn’t it,’ he replied, bowing and laughing to the woman.

      ‘It is, sir,’ she answered pleasantly. ‘Good morning.’

      He came out of the shop still smiling, and when Helena turned from the postcards to look at him, the lines of laughter remained over his face like a mask. She glanced at his eyes for a sign; his facial expression told her nothing; his eyes were just as inscrutable, which made her falter with dismay.

      ‘What is he thinking of?’ she asked herself. Her thoughts flashed back. ‘And why did he ask me so peculiarly whether he should wire them at home?’

      ‘Well,’ said Siegmund, ‘are there any postcards?’

      ‘None that I care to take,’ she replied. ‘Perhaps you would like one of these?’

      She pointed to some faded-looking cards which proved to be imaginary views of Alum Bay done in variegated sand. Siegmund smiled.

      ‘I wonder if they dribbled the sand on with a fine glass tube,’ he said.

      ‘Or a brush,’ said Helena.

      ‘She does not understand,’ said Siegmund to himself. ‘And whatever I do I must not tell her. I should have thought she would understand.’

      As he walked home beside her there mingled with his other feelings resentment against her. Almost he hated her.

      Chapter 20

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      At first they had a carriage to themselves. They sat opposite each other with averted faces, looking out of the windows and watching the houses, the downs dead asleep in the sun, the embankments of the railway with exhausted hot flowers go slowly past out of their reach. They felt as if they were being dragged away like criminals. Unable to speak or think, they stared out of the windows, Helena struggling in vain to keep back her tears, Siegmund labouring to breathe normally.

      At Yarmouth the door was snatched open, and there was a confusion of shouting and running; a swarm of humanity, clamouring, attached itself at the carriage doorway, which was immediately blocked by a stout man who heaved a leather bag in front of him as he cried in German that here was room for all. Faces innumerable — hot, blue-eyed faces — strained to look over his shoulders at the shocked girl and the amazed Siegmund.

      There entered eight Germans into the second-class compartment, five men and three ladies. When at last the luggage was stowed away they sank into the seats. The last man on either side to be seated lowered himself carefully, like a wedge, between his two neighbours. Siegmund watched the stout man, the one who had led the charge, settling himself between his large lady and the small Helena. The latter crushed herself against the side of the carriage. The German’s hips came down tight against her. She strove to lessen herself against the window, to escape the pressure of his flesh, whose heat was transmitted to her. The man squeezed in the opposite direction.

      ‘I am afraid I press you,’ he said, smiling in his gentle, chivalric German fashion. Helena glanced swiftly at him. She liked his grey eyes, she liked the agreeable intonation, and the pleasant sound of his words.

      ‘Oh no,’ she answered. ‘You do not crush me.’

      Almost before she had finished the words she turned away to the window. The man seemed to hesitate a moment, as if recovering himself from a slight rebuff, before he could address his lady with the good-humoured remark in German: ‘Well, and have we not managed it very nicely, eh?’

      The whole party began to talk in German with great animation. They told each other of the quaint ways of this or the other; they joked loudly over ‘Billy’— this being a nickname discovered for the German Emperor — and what he would be saying of the Czar’s trip; they questioned each other, and answered each other concerning the places they were going to see, with great interest, displaying admirable knowledge. They were pleased with everything; they extolled things English.

      Helena’s stout neighbour, who, it seemed, was from Dresden, began to tell anecdotes. He was a raconteur of the naïve type: he talked with face, hands, with his whole body. Now and again he would give little spurts in his seat. After one of these he must have become aware of Helena — who felt as if she were enveloped by a soft stove — struggling to escape his compression. He stopped short, lifted his hat, and smiling beseechingly, said in his persuasive way:

      ‘I

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