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blouse. They waste some time to take it off together with her bra. And then the previous image of kissing reappears with a difference that the girl sitting on the bed is topless and active one covers more of her body with her caresses. She mostly concentrates on her partner’s belly, but time after time she rises still standing on her knees and moves up to reach the breasts. And breasts are good… They have nice shapes. And they are a little bigger than an average size of a young girl. Then she stands and makes a couple of short steps back, while another girl still rests on the bed. Half-lying, fixedly watching her partner. They both stared at each other, keeping a short distance.

      And the active girl then starts to undress. She takes off everything. Shoes, blouse, jeans, and finally her bra and briefs. She even makes some soft dancing motions like someone trying to repeat after strip-dancer. When she is barely nude, she stands still with her legs a little apart and hands placed on her sides. It looks like she gives an opportunity for the other girl to see her well-shaped body. Fifteen seconds after that, she comes to a girl on the bed making a couple of steps backward. She stands on her knees again and takes her partner’s jeans off together with her underpants. She kisses her legs. At that moment, finally, a passive girl entirely lies on the bed, spreading her hands wide. Then the active one stands and climbs on the bed placing one of her hands on its soft surface. She moves down, now placing her body over the body of her partner and starts kissing and caressing her. She goes a little up and down covering the girl’s neck and the girl’s breasts with her caresses. Then she comes down from the bed, now standing on her knees on the floor again. She looks at the face of a girl holding her legs at the same time. And after some pause, she bends, and her face becomes unseen as she hides it in between her partner’s legs.

      At this moment a video interrupts, and there is nothing else. I don’t know how exactly two of its parts are connected. There should be some clue to tell it. I suppose in the second part there is probably nothing that can give any link. I only can tell that, actually, I forgot about one peculiar thing about the second part of the footage. In the room where two girls met there were big picture windows too.

      Some Notes on Attractiveness of Voyeurism and Peeping. from Dictaphone Record. by Martin

      What makes voyeurism so attractive? Maybe it is the feeling of having some power to break barriers that the others don’t want you to break. That may give a person some position that may look to him as a position of some moderate dominance. And possibly, it is not a privilege over those who are watched, but even more over those who would like to watch, but who can’t join the voyeur being not a part of the club.

      I don’t know what exactly it can be that makes it so exciting about secret voyeurism for others, because me, myself, I would prefer if someone would know. I would like if someone would willingly perform some sexy trick for me like a striptease or something else, maybe even of a more peculiar nature. I mean, it is really nice when someone wants to please you. But what is it when someone doesn’t? And how can you know for sure that someone would be not offended in a case when it all would be discovered somehow? The thing is that the real voyeurs might be not interested in the evident exhibitionists at all. That is why some analysts may classify voyeurism as some paraphilia.

      It is an interesting question. How many people would reject an opportunity for watching someone in some intimate moments, if having the opportunity and knowing there will be no punishment? Modern times evidently provide us with too many reality shows that are too popular to deny the fact that the people like to watch other people doing things. And that may have deep roots. As we know from the legends, particularly from this about Lady Godiva, sometimes even a punishment won’t stop a person from it. Peeping Tom is probably only a fictional character, but it doesn’t matter in the case. People believe that such a person could exist. I mean, that if people believe that a person could cast a glance at the noble women as she rode nude on the horse through the street, even under punishment of death, then it means that the people do believe it is possible for a person to behave in this manner. At least partly. And if it is possible to behave so under strictest punishment, then, of course, many would do it when feeling themselves safe. And also would we like to watch someone noble or no matter whom? Maybe a lot of people would like to watch the celebrities and rich ladies and gentlemen of contemporary in their most intimate moments as they replaced the kings and queens for us. Is it a subconscious desire to destroy their advantage over others and to share their benefits by the gift of secret knowledge? It is difficult to answer these questions.

      Actually, before modern reality shows, there was Playboy magazine that was extremely popular in times before the world wide web as it was a unique chance to see photos of pretty women undressed. They were not of a noble origin, but they were good-looking. And the Lady from Coventry also was supposed to be very pretty as she was a wife of a powerful man. Maybe there is something about possession. Her husband had power, he possessed the lives of people in the land and also her beauty. But when she at least, in theory, provided others with a chance to see her nude, she broke her husband’s dominion. She manifested her own right of possession.

      So, when we talk about why people like to watch, there is a similar question on another side. Many stars seem to want to be exposed or even involved in a sex scandal as it potentially means more of stardom. People today who want to become stars perceive many such spicy elements as a regular part of celebrity life. The truth is that they also understand many other quite uncomfortable things about stardom like this. In this way, you may say that they want it. Some of them indeed will become stars. That means they will accept it as a part of the contract and on another side may even consider many forms of celebrity exhibitionism desirable. And in this case, poor Tom may be regarded not only as a victim but also as a necessary element or even a sort of lover. It is considered that Cleopatra kept executing her lovers just after a single night of love. But there is no evidence that she had no pleasure those nights. So, maybe if we return to the image of the Lady of Coventry, we may suppose that she should’ve expected that someone would watch no matter. And that is what gives a spice to a situation. Actually, for me personally, Cleopatra and Godiva are two different characters. I would prefer the initial version of the legend. I mean one without Peeping Tom as this character appeared in folklore later and made this story more vulgar. Godiva probably is not a person who wanted to kill someone. She wanted to liberate poor people from the excessive power of her cruel husband. And at the same time, she found a peculiar way to break free from him with the help of her sexual attractiveness. She manifested her sexuality. And it was strong enough to direct the power in the entire city. Regarded this way she could have an own motivation for the ride. Yes, it doesn’t diminish her merit. But still, it means she had it. And it’s interesting that in this case, we can’t say who is watching whom. In some meaning. Lady has still more power than a supposed citizen. So, it looks like good voyeurism is impossible without good exhibitionism. Two sides – voyeur and showman are nothing without each other. Like in any interaction, the pleasure of the other improves the experience.

      Maybe the right question about that is not – what is so attractive about the voyeurism? But it is – what is so sexually attractive about the voyeurism? Remember Freud. He once said, at least as it is considered, that culture is repressive to the sexual nature of human beings. And the culture and the civilization probably began as soon as Adam and Eve put on the skins of animals as they were exiled from the Eden. Do we try to reveal more of nature into the others and in ourselves sometimes? Or maybe we are just always searching for the Sacred Garden from which the human race was once exiled?

      I don’t know… It looks like today I am not able to say something really worthy. I don’t know why people do it, but what I know for sure is that the people do it. And they do it quite often.

      Nov, 7. Susan’s Interview Two. from Dictaphone Record. by Martin and Elise

      Martin: We stopped at the moment when you decided, as you called it, to see what the place was. Right?

      Susan: Huh… yep.

      M.: Now, I would like you to tell me what the next thing in this story was. Did you come to see the place?

      S.: Yes, I did. I told Jane I would like to see it and then maybe to decide if possible, of course. I always expected some fun whenever we went to some new place with Jane no matter was it another shop where I never bought a new T-shirt before or another art gallery. Or something. So, a couple

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