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onto the nearest chair and put his head in his hands.

      This was all wrong. All of it.

      He didn’t want to stay in this house any longer; it was like living in a tomb. Or a shrine. Whatever it was, it felt wrong for him to be here now. Memories of the life he’d had here with Jemima were holding him back, preventing him from moving on and finding happiness again. Deep down, he knew Jem wouldn’t have wanted that for him. He certainly wouldn’t have wanted her to mourn him for the rest of her life.

      She’d want him to be happy.

      Like he had been on Sunday night.

      He was in love with Cara.

      Groaning loudly into his hands, he shook his head, unable to believe what a total idiot he’d been.

      Memories of Cara flashed through his mind: her generous smile and kind gestures. Her standing up to him when it mattered to her most. Telling him she loved him.

      His heart swelled with emotion, sending his blood coursing through his body and making it sing in his ears.

      So this was living. How he’d missed it.

      A loud ring on the doorbell made him jump.

      Cara.

      It had to be Cara, arriving promptly at nine o’clock for work like she always did.

      Please, let it be her.

      Tension tightened his muscles as he paced towards the door and flung it open, ready to say what he needed to say to her now. To be honest with her. To let her know how much he loved her and wanted her in his life.

      ‘Max Firebrace?’

      Instead of Cara standing on his doorstep, there was a tall, red-haired woman in a suit giving him a broad smile.

      ‘Yes. Who are you?’ he said impatiently, not wanting to deal with anything but his need to speak to Cara right then.

      She held out a hand. ‘I’m Donna, your new PA.’

      The air seemed to freeze around him. ‘What?’

      The smile she gave him was one of tolerant fortitude. ‘Cara said you might be surprised to see me because you’ve been in Ireland all week.’

      ‘Cara sent you here?’

      ‘Yes, she interviewed me yesterday and said I should start today.’

      He stared at her, stunned. ‘Where is Cara?’

      Donna looked confused. ‘Er... I don’t know. I wasn’t expecting her to be here. She said something about starting a new job for a firm in the City next week. We spent all of yesterday afternoon getting me up to speed with the things I need to do to fulfil the role and went through the systems you use here, so I assumed she’d already served her notice.’

      So that was it then. He was too late to save the situation. She was gone.

      ‘You’d better come in,’ he muttered, frustration tugging hard at his insides.

      ‘So will we be working here the whole time? It’s a beautiful house,’ Donna said brightly, looking around the hall.

      ‘No. I’m going to rent an office soon,’ he said distractedly, his voice rough with panic.

      How was he going to find her? He didn’t have any contact details for her friends or her personal mobile number; she’d always used the company one to call or text him. He could try Poppy, but she’d probably be out filming in the middle of the desert right now and wouldn’t want to be disturbed with phone calls.

      A thought suddenly occurred to him. ‘Donna? Did Cara interview you here?’

      ‘No. I went to her flat.’ She frowned. ‘Although, come to think of it, I don’t think it was her place; she didn’t know which cupboard the sugar for my drink was kept in.’

      He paced towards her, startling her with a rather manic smile.

      ‘Okay, Donna. Your first job as my PA is to give me the address where you met Cara.’

      * * *

      At first Cara thought that the loud banging was part of her dream, but she started awake as the noise thundered through the flat again, seeming to shake the walls. Whoever was knocking really wanted to get her attention.

      Pulling her big towelling dressing gown on over her sleep shorts and vest top, she stumbled to the door, still half-asleep. Perhaps the postman had a delivery for one of the other flats and they weren’t in to receive it.

      But it wasn’t the postman.

      It was Max.

      Her vision tilted as she stumbled against the door in surprise and she hung on to the handle for dear life in an attempt to stop herself from falling towards him.

      ‘Max! How did you find me?’ she croaked, her voice completely useless in the face of his shocking presence.

      She’d told herself that giving them both some space to breathe was the best thing she could do. After leaving his house on Monday she’d tried to push him out of her mind in an attempt to get through the dark, lonely days without him, but always, in the back of her mind, was the hope that he’d think about what she’d said and maybe, at some point in the future, want to look her up again.

      But she hadn’t expected it to happen so soon.

      ‘My new PA, Donna, gave me the address,’ he said, raising an eyebrow in chastisement, though the sparkle in his eyes told her he wasn’t seriously angry with her for going ahead and hiring someone to take her place without his approval.

      Telling herself not to get too excited in case he was only popping round to drop off something she’d accidentally left at the house, she motioned for him to come inside and led him through to the kitchen diner, turning to lean against the counter for support.

      ‘You did say you’d understand if I couldn’t work with you any more. After what happened,’ she said.

      He came to a stop a few feet away from her and propped himself against the table. ‘I did.’

      She took a breath and tipped up her chin. ‘I’m not made of stone, Max. As much as I’d like to sweep what happened on Sunday under the carpet, I can’t do that. I’m sorry.’

      Letting out a long sigh, he shifted against the table. ‘Don’t be sorry. It wasn’t your fault. It was mine. I was the one who knocked on your door when you had the strength to walk away.’

      She snorted gently. ‘That wasn’t strength; it was cowardice.’

      ‘You’re not a coward, Cara; you just have a strong sense of self-preservation. You should consider it a gift.’

      She stared down at the floor, aware of the heat of her humiliation rising to her face, not wanting him to see how weak and out of control she was right now.

      ‘So you start a new job next week?’ he asked quietly.

      Forcing herself to look at him again, she gave him the most assertive smile she could muster. ‘Yes, at a place in the City. It’s a good company and the people were very friendly when they showed me around.’

      ‘I bet you could handle just about anything after having to work for me.’ He smiled, but she couldn’t return it this time. The muscles in her face wouldn’t move. They seemed to be frozen in place.

      Gosh, this was awkward.

      ‘You’ve been good for my confidence.’ She flapped a hand at him and added, ‘Work-wise,’ when he raised his eyebrows in dispute. ‘You were great at letting me know when I’d done a good job.’

      ‘Only because you were brave enough to point out how bad I was at it.’

      She managed a smile this time, albeit a rather wonky one. ‘Well, whatever. I really appreciated it.’

      There

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