LITMIR.BIZ

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absorbed in the conversation, as if every word spoken is a secret he has to know. And the girls eat it up. He makes them feel special, I can tell. They preen for him. But those girls...they aren’t special to him. I can tell that, too.

      He’s too aware of the world around him, his hand never far from his pocket, as if he has a weapon hidden inside. As if he expects to be ambushed at any moment. As if he wants to be ambushed.

      Anytime the girl looks away from him—which isn’t often—his gaze finds me. He winks. He knows I’m watching him, and he wants me to know he knows.

      His confidence lends him an aura of power and, someone please help me, I admire it.

      Later that same evening, Vans does as promised and arranges my “date” with Killian. The doc is upping his game.

      First, Nurse Ratched delivers a dress to my cell. A pink sundress. Pink. With ruffles and lace. I grimace. I’ll be the prettiest princess in the asylum.

      Her parting words are both a threat (to me) and a triumph (to her.) “You can wear it...or you can go naked. Your choice.”

      A red haze descends over my vision. A choice that isn’t really a choice is a violation of my rights.

      What rights?

      “Wow,” Bow says, looking me over after I’ve changed. “A make-out session would not be out of pity today.”

      “Um. Thanks?” I smooth my hands over the ultrasoft fabric. “I feel ridiculous.”

      “What’s the occasion?”

      As I explain today’s therapy session, her eyes narrow.

      “Son of a Myriad-troll,” she mutters. She’s sprawled atop her bed. “Wonder how much Mr. Flynn had to pay for that privilege.”

      I spread my arms wide. “Because wanting me is completely unfeasible?”

      She closes her eyes as she shakes her head. “Sorry. Sorry. You’re hot. You’re awesome, and I know he craves a taste of you. Who wouldn’t? But he’s a piece of scum, and he always has ulterior motives.”

      A grumbled apology, but an apology nonetheless.

      “You’re forgiven. I guess.” I mean, even I’m wondering why Killian has turned his predatory sights to me. “Tell me your history with the guy.”

      She growls low in her throat. “He sucks. That’s all you need to know.”

      This girl has repeatedly pried open my secrets with a crowbar. She doesn’t get to keep her own. “Don’t you want to help me build extra defenses against him?”

      “Are your current defenses in danger of crumbling?”

      No. Absolutely not. But... “Do you really want to take the chance? There’s something about him...”

      She points a finger at me. “Is that breathlessness I hear in your tone, Lockwood?”

      What? “No!” Me? Breathless? Never! “I’m as hard as steel.”

      She punches her mattress, the springs squeaking. “You want details, fine. He stabbed his best friend in the back—twice! He’s selfish and cruel. He uses girls to get what he wants, and then he discards them.”

      “Are you one of the girls he used and discarded?” I ask gently.

      “No! Gross! I’ve never jonesed for his scones.” She shudders. “It’s just...he’ll sleep with you and leave you brokenhearted in the rubble that has become your life.”

      Bow, who is obviously biased, has probably seen a distorted version of the truth. She’s never seen into Killian’s heart.

      Or maybe I’m making excuses for the guy.

      “If getting down and dirty is his main objective, I’m the last girl he should target.” I possessed the common sense and wherewithal to stop James every time his hands wandered past my shoulders, and I loved him.

      And unlike Killian, James looked at me as if he adored me. He smiled with me, not at me. He whispered beautiful things in my ear...

      So lovely.

      So soft.

      So perfect.

      I’d been as mesmerized as I was flustered.

      “I’ll never say yes,” I add.

      “Famous last words. If you find yourself tempted, remember Killian is selfish in bed,” Bow says, as smoothly as if we’re discussing our favorite kind of donuts. “Oh. And I hear he’s small. Like, micropenis small.”

      I roll my eyes. “Can you tell me something about him that doesn’t have anything to do with sex?”

      “All right. For starters, he’s going into this thinking you’re going to fall for him and do anything to spend eternity with him.”

      “Why does he even care? He’s human. If I sign with Myriad to be with him—” no boy is ever going to factor into my decision, because they don’t come with a guarantee, either “—he won’t be rewarded.”

      She stands and walks over to pat me on my cheek. “Wow. You’re, like, Super Naive Girl.”

      In the back of my mind, I note the temperature of her skin. Like James, she’s too cool, as if she’s incapable of absorbing heat.

      Try to warm me up, James used to say.

      “So... Killian will be rewarded?” I ask.

      “Well, yeah. Everything we do has a consequence. Good or bad. In Firstlife and Everlife.” She tilts her head and studies me more intently. “Who’s your ML?”

      “I’ve always had two at a time. Many have come and gone, but one has always remained the same. Madame Pearl Bennett.” A flawless blonde with a warm smile.

      Distaste darkens Bow’s features. “Madame is the title for a Leader, which is step above a Laborer.”

      “Yes.” A fact I’d pointed out to Madame Bennett as soon as I learned about the different positions. She’d smiled sweetly and said, You, my beauty, are special. I want to oversee your case myself.

      I’d asked what made me so special, and her smile had only grown. You remind me of someone I loved and like her, you’re going to do great things for our realm.

      I’d adored her. Once. She was the one who told my parents to send me to Prynne. I’d heard them talking. At first, my dad resisted the idea. When Madame promised him the experience would toughen me up, help me become the person I was meant to be, and snap me out of my pouty teenage refusal to sign with Myriad, he finally relented. Then he convinced my mother.

      “Well,” Bow says, and I can’t tell what emotion she’s projecting. I only know it’s negative. “You must be as important to Myriad as you are to Troika. No one I know has ever had two MLs.”

      Me, either. But... “Myriad doesn’t have Conduits.”

      “No, they have Abrogates. Those who extinguish the light. The most powerful people in their realm.” She glares at me. “If you sign with Myriad, you won’t only deny Troika a Conduit, you’ll drain the Conduits we do have.”

      I rub the back of my neck. “What would happen then?”

      “Troika would plunge into darkness right alongside Myriad. It’s what the other realm has always wanted. It’s what we’ve always fought.” Bow bites her lower lip. “Are you sure you can resist Killian’s...charms?”

      “Definitely.” His eyes make my blood sing... “Possibly. Hopefully.” His smirking mouth and blatant innuendos make my blood boil... “Definitely.”

      She pushes out a heavy breath. “Do you have any experience with the opposite sex?”

      “I’ve had a boyfriend,” I tell

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