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months ago.”

      Ever observant, he guessed, “And is still feeling a little down about being uprooted to Laramie County, I take it?”

      Kelly added cherry tomatoes, carrot sticks and cucumber wedges to the divided lunch containers. She closed them with a snap and slid them into insulated lunch sacks. “That’s what the other teachers think.”

      “But you don’t buy that?”

      Kelly knew what it was like to be a little kid of a single mom and an only child, at that, who was sad or worried. It really cut deep. But, not wanting to divulge that, she merely said, “Well, a move is always scary and unsettling, especially at that age, but...the preschool is a cozy, safe place, and she’s been welcomed by the other kids. The staff has gone out of their way to make her feel comfortable, too.” Their hands brushed as she handed him a bottle of sparkling water.

      Dan made no effort to move away. “Yet she remains isolated.”

      “Yes.” Hand still tingling, Kelly slid the lunches into the fridge.

      Dan surveyed Kelly thoughtfully. “Are there any learning difficulties?”

      “No.” Because that would have explained a lot, too. “She’s able to pay attention, color within the lines, answer questions and follow directions when she wants to.”

      “And yet...she just usually doesn’t want to?”

      “That’s just it.” Kelly handed Dan a package of chips. “Some days she does. She’ll come to school with a smile on her face and participate. And other days, it’s like she’s deeply worried about something, and she remains withdrawn the entire time.”

      He continued devouring his sandwich. “Any signs of abuse or neglect?”

      Deciding it was silly to stand there when he was sitting, Kelly came around the island and took the stool next to him. “None that I can see.”

      He swiveled so they were facing each other. “Have you talked to her parents?”

      Kelly sighed. “Shoshanna’s dad died almost a year ago, rather suddenly I understand. I’ve asked her mom to come in for a parent-teacher conference, but Sharon Johnson keeps rescheduling. Work issues at the auto dealership where she works as the new financial manager, she says.”

      Dan opened the bag of chips and offered her one. “Think she’s avoiding you?”

      Kelly took one and munched on it. “Maybe,” she said as the salty deliciousness melted on her tongue. “But maybe she’s just settling in, too.”

      He finished his sandwich, stood and carried his plate to the sink. He looked ready for action.

      His brow furrowed. “What would you like me to do?” he asked gruffly.

       Besides kiss me?

      Flushing, Kelly said, “Be...discreet.”

      * * *

      HER REQUEST SUDDENLY had a slightly shady ring to it. One he had heard before. “Discreet,” Dan repeated. “As in operating outside the normal rules and regulations?”

      She inclined her head. “You have connections. As well as a background as a detective.”

      Also something he had heard before.

      He tensed. “Which means I could do what...in your view?”

      She shrugged, the ends of her silky hair brushing her shoulders. “Ask around. Maybe do a clandestine background check...”

      Dan’s gut tightened.

      There were times in his life when he kept waiting for the other shoe to drop. This was one of them. “That’s not allowed, Kelly.”

      She met his level gaze with an indignant one of her own. “Maybe not in an official capacity as a sheriff’s deputy,” she theorized.

      “In any capacity,” he corrected sternly, stepping nearer. The fragrance of her hair and skin sent his senses into overdrive. “Unless I want to file a report and go through official procedure.” He paused to let his words sink in. “In which case I’d be duty bound to report anything the least bit suspect that I found.”

      Kelly’s face suddenly reflected the concern he felt. Color flushed her cheeks. “Let’s forget it,” Kelly interjected quickly, looking sorry she’d ever started down this path. And while that comforted him, he was still worried that she’d been all too willing to bypass ethics. And worse, had wanted him to do so, too.

      A long silence fell.

      Her worry returned.

      He waited until she looked at him. “As I mentioned the other day, if you are this concerned, why don’t you just talk to a social worker?”

      She scoffed. “Who, if approached, would be forced to open up an official investigation?”

      He edged closer, taking in the agitated gleam in her amber eyes and the stormy set of her luscious lips. “And I wouldn’t be?”

      Calmly, he corrected her mistaken view of Laramie County Department of Child and Family Services. “You can trust social services here, Kelly.”

      “No.” She rubbed the toe of her sneaker across the oak floor beneath them. “You can’t.” She bit her lip and glared at him mutinously. “You can’t trust them anywhere.”

      Okay, so she was ticked off at him. “How do you know?” he challenged.

      She released a short, bitter laugh. “Because I spent years in and out of the system.”

      He paused. “You were a foster child?”

      A brief, terse nod. “Off and on, my entire childhood.”

      She stalked out of the kitchen. He followed, keeping a respectful distance. “What happened?”

      She spun around, shoving her hands into the pockets of her knee-length shorts. “It’s a long story.”

      And obviously a very painful one.

      He put a consoling arm about her shoulders. When she didn’t continue, he prodded gently, “If you want me to understand where you’re coming from, never mind help you, you’re going to have to tell me a little more.”

      She stepped back slightly, so they were no longer touching, and ran her hands through her hair. “My mom was a registered nurse who suffered from cyclical depression. She also developed an addiction to prescription medicines.”

      Regret pinched the corners of her mouth.

      Swallowing, she shook her head, recalling, “So, whenever things spiraled out of control, she would end up in the hospital, or rehab, and I would end up in the system.”

      No wonder she mistrusted DCFS. “That must have been really tough on you.”

      “It was.” Moisture glimmered in her eyes. “My mom always got better when she underwent treatment, but then she would have to prove that she could take care of me again. And that would take weeks and months of both of us living under the microscope.” Kelly sighed. “And then by the time I was finally allowed to be back with her, the stress of maintaining her sobriety would send her spiraling again.” Kelly compressed her lips miserably. “I’d have to hide it and pretend nothing was wrong. I knew if I didn’t I’d be taken away from her again. And it was awful.”

      Dan pushed aside the need to pull her into his arms and asked gently instead, “Where is she now?”

      “She died of an accidental overdose five years ago.”

      This time he did reach for her. “I’m sorry, Kelly.”

      Standing stiff as a board in his arms, Kelly nodded.

      He let her go, stepped back. “Do any of your coworkers know this?”

      “No.”

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