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in your life where you took a courageous (but unpopular) stand that friends or family found unacceptable? If so, describe that event.

II. EPIPHANY

      Introduction to the Season

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      I picked up the phone one autumn long ago, wet from the shower, and the operator’s voice sounded rightly suspicious, almost disbelieving. “I have a collect call for the Reverend Frank McIntosh from Alvin, Simon, or Theodore.”

      I think it was the little word “or” that made me laugh the hardest that afternoon; a choice of chipmunks. Or maybe his playful insistence upon referring to me with the name of his hometown dentist, the “tosh” such a fun-sounding syllable. After my go-ahead to the stunned operator, he chortled with a wonderful South Carolina accent, “Do you know who this eees?”

      Who else could it be? Just prior to entering seminary, I met Bobby at Camp Hope near Clemson on Lake Hartwell. He was a member of a cabin group of mentally challenged campers that summer known as “The Fried Pies.” Bobby’s personality includes what textbooks used to call “idiot savant.” He remembers all sorts of lists and numbers: radio call letters in every South Carolina town; names and situations of extended members of any family he’s ever come to know; and detailed information concerning obscure hobbies like sanitation and the accompanying machines required to keep towns tidy. As a boy, Bobby stood silently for hours on the corner near his house and learned the detailed intricacies of his town’s mechanized street sweeper.

      Bobby still walks with a gait that appears agitated—hands open and parallel, chest-high and shaking in rapid movement; head bobbing up and down—but is mostly an aid in helping his intricate brain retrieve something witty or astonishingly obscure. I always recall portions of Psalm 139 when I’m around Bobby: “For it was you who formed my inward parts; you knit me together in my mother’s womb. I praise you, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made.” Bobby has felt his share of ridicule and stares. But in church every Sunday near his group home, he’s also reminded of his gifts. He helps the men of his congregation prepare breakfast before worship each week; the marvelous leveling effect of food.

      I recall a time when I picked Bobby up from his residential facility and we drove to a nearby Hardee’s, placed our burger order, and settled into a booth. “Okay, Frank McIntosh, I have a question for you.” He let the statement hang in the air for several seconds. “Do you think . . . do you think I’m retarded?” I’m pretty certain I’ve never been asked a question to which I was so eager to reply “no,” but the contortions of his face suggested a recent history. I didn’t answer right away; I asked what he thought about the word and why others felt a need to use it to describe him.

      What followed was a remarkable conversation about our friendship and our differences and his sometimes painful attempts to get other people to understand him. He talked about how it felt when people looked at him strangely when he was at the mall with his friends and why God had chosen to make him this way. And it was like time stood still during our conversation. The nervous shaking of his hands was gone. He looked hard into my eyes and did not turn away. “No, Bobby,” I said, using a word I’d come to despise. “I don’t think you’re retarded.”

      A letter arrived just before the wise men made their annual journey one recent Epiphany. “This is your old friend, Bobby. Do you remember that time when you were naked as the baby Jesus outside the shower and received a phone call from the singing chipmunks?”

      Almost forty years have passed since that call. And yes, Bobby, I do remember. And give God thanks for such an old and gifted friend, so wonderfully made.

      “When King Herod heard this, he was frightened, and all Jerusalem with him” (Matt 2:3).

      In the old silent movies, the director would often employ a device known as an “iris-out.” Beginning as a large circle on the screen revealing a fairly wide panorama of visual information, the diameter of the circle slowly closes upon a small detail that doesn’t seem all that important at the time, but actually serves as a crucial transition into the next scene. A little tidbit I’d never really noticed in a story about stars, night journeys, and lavish Christmas gifts for a new baby is my new “iris-out” for the Epiphany season as the church year moves from manger to the risky ministry of Jesus.

      When the magi visit King Herod that night so long ago, those wise guys ask a question about the whereabouts of a certain child. The text reports that Herod, upon hearing this question, “was frightened.” This strikes me as very strange. I’d understand if his royal highness was alarmed, or maybe even confused, but that’s not his first reaction. King Herod is afraid. Literally quaking in his boots concerning the birth of a small child who (please don’t forget) is still wearing diapers. One of the most powerful men in the world becomes utterly undone by a simple question: Where is the King of the Jews?

      “Now wait a minute,” Herod must have pondered. “I thought that I was King of the Jews”—and this important man of means had indeed been given jurisdiction over this pesky tribe of people by the big boys in Rome. So help me here. What is it about this question posed by the magi (Persian strangers from the East) that would make Herod’s knees knock? “And all Jerusalem with him”! (Matt 2:3). Why is such a powerful guy so utterly spooked by such a pitifully impotent threat who requires burping and a lullaby before a good night’s sleep?

      Kierkegaard may be a tough theological nut to crack at times, but here I understand the man perfectly, because he’s essentially describing me. Do I really need to know any more about Jesus before I set out? Do I not have enough scriptural information about the man to send me on my way? Or is it simply easier to enjoy the perks and allowances of a resident scribe?

      Here is the key to understanding Herod’s fear (and perhaps our own). Jesus is not to be studied and admired from a distance, cozily tucked away in some manger twenty centuries removed, dying eventually on a sad cross. Our Lord’s kingdom is a movement, an arduous and inviting journey; light in the dark of night where even the starry heavens collaborate in spreading the great good news. The entire cosmos delights in this birth.

      Discipleship is always an exercise in exchanging kings, exchanging security, exchanging where we place our trust, our hope, and our gold. Christianity spells the erosion of an old order where we no longer look to earthly rulers for marching orders. Do you see why Herod was afraid? His entire system of governance by control and intimidation was crumbling.

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