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coming around the side of the house. She glanced over at the car and winced. “So much for Mom’s roses.”

      “I’m sorry,” Ben whispered.

      Mia laughed and handed Ben a glass of water. “Not as sorry as you’re gonna be when your uncle gets here.”

      * * *

      JEREMIAH STARED AT REESE’S sports car covered in slaughtered rosebushes and wished he had one clue about how to handle this. One single clue. A hint. He wished he could have a five-minute conversation with his sister for some guidance, because he was totally in the dark. He tried to think of what his own father would have done in this situation, a tactic that usually helped him in whatever parenting dilemma he was facing. But Jeremiah had never caused the kind of trouble Ben seemed drawn to.

      So he stared at those rosebushes, the yellow clapboard house with the—thank God—cement foundation, and waited for the answers to come to him.

      “The house is fine,” Jack said, and Jeremiah nodded as if that was the much-needed answer to a question. But the truth was he didn’t care about the house right now. He cared about the sullen, wild-eyed nine-year-old ball of anger to his left.

      What about Ben? he wanted to ask. Is he fine? Will he ever be fine again? Will any of us?

      Reese started up his car and slowly pulled it away from the house. Everyone breathed a sigh of relief as if they’d all been expecting the house to fall apart. The back of the car looked like an accordion. A broken and very, very expensive accordion.

      “You,” Jeremiah said through his teeth, unable to even look at his nephew, “will be working at the ranch until you’ve paid off repairs to that car. In fact, I think you’re grounded until you’re about thirty and if you even—”

      Lucy cleared her throat and he glanced sideways at her, infuriated at her interruption.

      “About that,” she said. “What if he works off the repairs here?”

      Ben looked up at that and his hope was palpable.

      “Don’t get excited, buddy,” he muttered. “There’s no way you’re working here.”

      “Wait, Jeremiah, hear me out.” She stepped toward him, the long dark locks of hair that had fallen from the messy knot on top of her head reaching out toward him on the breeze. The lines of weariness around her eyes didn’t make her any less pretty and he felt like a jackass even noticing that.

      “Ben, go wait for me in the truck.” Like a criminal out on parole, the boy took off for the truck and Jeremiah watched him go, gathering up what was left of his composure. When he felt as if he could speak like an adult he turned back to Lucy and held up his hand. “The kid is in some kind of crisis,” he said. “And he doesn’t need to be coddled. He needs to understand he’s done something wrong—”

      “I’m not arguing with you, Jeremiah,” she said. “But…look, something isn’t working between you and Ben. It’s obvious.”

      Jeremiah felt his ears get hot. She was right. So painfully right.

      “You’re not sticking around, why would you want to have Ben here?”

      “Mom and I are staying at least three more weeks. And I’m just…I’m just offering you a chance to try something new with him. Something different. So, you know, you don’t have to always be the bad guy.”

      “And you’re going to be the bad guy?”

      Lucy bristled at his sarcasm and took a step back.

      “I’m just trying to help.”

      “Yeah, and I appreciate it, but this is family stuff. And we’ll handle it.”

      Reese approached, looking like death warmed over in last night’s clothes. “I think I’m going to have to get the car fixed here. There’s no way I can drive it back to Fort Worth.”

      Jeremiah swore and kept on swearing.

      “Come on, man,” Reese said, his smile bright despite the black circles under his eyes. “It’s not that bad.”

      “It is,” he said, honest because he couldn’t pretend anymore. “Because it takes time to fix this.” Just saying that made him feel better, made him feel like he was pulling this family away from rock bottom. First, he had to get Reese off his damn couch. Life would be easier without this living reminder of the old days drinking beer and snoring in his living room.

      And then, maybe, it would be time to break the family code of silence. Get Ben some help.

      * * *

      WALTER STARED AT the bright noon sky out the window of his bedroom and contemplated the long walk to the bathroom. Hard on a good day, impossible with the cast on his foot.

      He rolled as best he could to the side of his bed looking for an empty bottle. Or a coffee cup. Anything. But Sandra’s presence in this house was all too obvious these days.

      Clutter didn’t stand a chance against Sandra.

      He pressed fists to his eyes. And neither do I.

      A month ago he’d been so excited to have Sandra back in his house. Like righting a terrible wrong in the world, bringing Sandra back to the Rocky M was his best effort at repairing the mess he’d made years ago when A.J. died, his best friend, foreman and Sandra’s husband.

      All with the benefit of being able to see her every day. Being near her again—Sandra of the warm heart and the joyful laugh. Sandra, whom he’d always loved. Deeply. Secretly.

      Yeah, and how did that work out for you?

      “You are a sorry man, Walter. I thought I could come back here and feel nothing, but I have twenty-five years of living in these walls and if I’d had my way I would have died here and been buried right beside my husband, and you robbed me of that.”

      That’s what she’d said two weeks ago, shattering all those delusions that he was doing Sandra a favor bringing her back here.

      Her fury with him, rooted in disappointment, went deep. And he had no idea what it would take to change it. If he even could.

      Damn, where was a bottle when he needed one? For being the room of a degenerate alcoholic, his room sure was devoid of the evidence.

      No choice but to do this on his own.

      Taking a deep breath, he swung his body up over the side of the bed and reached out to grab the crutch beside the bedside table. Carefully, holding his breath against the pain, he pushed himself up on his good leg and hopped slightly to get his balance.

      Moving slowly, he made his way to the bathroom and—feeling pretty damn good—kicked the door shut behind him.

      Once done, he washed his hands and hobbled back to the bedroom. Only to stumble at the sight of Sandra standing at the foot of his bed.

      She wore black slacks and a bright red shirt, her long dark hair back in a ponytail that made her look like a girl. So bright, so lovely, he couldn’t look directly at her.

      He fell against the doorjamb, banging his knee, and then winced when his hurt foot hit the door. Sandra started toward him as if to help, as if to touch him, and he waved her off. Breathing through the pain, he made his way past her to the chair in the small window alcove. A chair he’d never in his life sat in. Why in the world, he often wondered, did you need a chair in a bedroom? But now he was grateful for it.

      Sitting on his bed—the bed he’d shared with his wife—seemed an utterly wrong thing to do in front of Sandra.

      “You haven’t touched your eggs.” She pointed to the plate of eggs long gone cold, sitting on the bedside table.

      “I’m not hungry,” he panted, rubbing his knee, wishing he could reach his ankle.

      “You want some painkillers?”

      He

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