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did she feel guilty? Roxane shrugged.

      ‘You told me you were happy to take my name,’ he said, his voice thickening, ‘when we got married.’

      ‘I didn’t mind…it was no big deal.’

      ‘It was to me. A very big deal.’

      Just as reverting to her maiden name had become important for her. She supposed it was symbolic. ‘An ownership thing?’ she accused, trying for mild amusement.

      He controlled his temper, covering it with a hard laugh. ‘If you thought that, then you were too young.’

      Or too stupid, his tone implied. ‘You didn’t think so…then.’

      His reaction was barely noticeable, but Roxane was so attuned to his every tiny movement she saw the stiffening of his muscles, the infinitesimal recoil. She’d pierced the armour of his self-confidence, however minutely.

      The elation she felt disconcerted her. She had never deliberately set out to wound Zito. Of course she’d known he would be upset and angry when she left him, but she’d had no thought of revenge or punishment, only a dire need for self-preservation.

      In her long and probably incoherent farewell letter she had assured him that she didn’t hate him, and he shouldn’t blame himself for what he couldn’t help. She had tried not to hurt him any more than the simple fact of her departure inevitably would.

      Maybe the hurt had gone deeper than she’d expected. He’d had more than twelve months to get over it, but his jabbing little remarks weren’t accidental.

      ‘I’m sorry,’ she said. ‘I suppose it was too much to expect you’d understand.’

      ‘Was there another man?’ he asked abruptly. And looked around again, as if searching for evidence. ‘Have you left him too?’

      Roxane’s temper snapped. ‘Oh, for God’s sake!’ He couldn’t conceive that she’d just wanted to be alone, that she could manage on her own? ‘Another man, after living with you for nearly three years?’

      At her scorching tone he looked arrested, almost confused. She added, ‘And how dare you suggest I was unfaithful?’

      Her anger seemed to give him pause. He shot a look at her from under his brows. ‘For months I tortured myself with the thought…’

      It hadn’t even occurred to Roxane that he would think that. How could he have…? This was further proof that he’d never really known her, never bothered to comprehend her deepest needs. A small ache shifted from somewhere near her heart and lodged in her throat, stifling her voice. ‘You were wrong.’

      A lifting of his shoulder, a tilt of his head, seemed to indicate it was not important. But of course it was. His pride would have suffered, and he had a surfeit of that. If the truth were known, pride was probably the real reason he had refrained from sending someone looking for her, rather than respect for her stated wishes.

      ‘You broke your other marriage vows,’ he said. ‘Why not that one?’

      ‘It’s different!’

      ‘How?’

      The question was unanswerable. ‘Anyway, you were wrong,’ she reiterated.

      He gave her a piercing stare, and nodded as if accepting that. ‘And now?’ he inquired softly.

      ‘Now?’ About to snap a hot rejoinder, Roxane paused, her chin lifting. ‘Now my private life is my own.’

      His eyes narrowed, and she had to resist an instinct to let hers skitter away.

      A shrill burring made her jump, and she said foolishly, ‘That’s my phone.’

      Careful not to rise too hurriedly this time, she went to the hallway to lift the receiver. ‘Yes?’

      Zito stood regarding her through the open door while she tried to give her attention to the caller. ‘Yes, Leon.’

      Wrenching her gaze from Zito’s inimical stare, at the corner of her eye she saw him swing round and disappear from her line of sight.

      ‘Saturday?’ Roxane forced herself to concentrate. ‘Yes, it is short notice. Wait while I get my diary.’

      She dug it from the bag she’d left by the phone. ‘You do mean Saturday next week? What kind of party? If it’s black tie formal…’

      Leon assured her it wasn’t. An impromptu welcome home, he said, for a son returning from overseas with his new fiancée. ‘A family affair. About a hundred guests.’

      ‘Just an intimate little gathering?’ Roxane felt sorry for the unknown young woman. ‘So the relatives get to cast their eyes over the bride-to-be?’

      ‘It could lead to more introductions. These people are some of Auckland’s best-known socialites. I hope you’re free to supervise as well as make the arrangements?’

      Roxane’s own social life was low-key and intermittent. ‘I’ll be there on the night,’ she promised.

      ‘I know I can rely on you.’

      Silly to feel a glow of satisfaction at the banal words, but when she returned to the little sitting room after hanging up, her lips were curved in pleasure.

      Zito was standing at the long old-fashioned window. He faced her as she paused inside the door, and his eyes didn’t match his casual tone when he spoke. ‘Boyfriend?’

      She didn’t have a boyfriend, but the suggestion made her hesitate before answering. ‘Business.’

      ‘Business?’ he repeated sceptically. ‘At this time of night?’

      ‘It’s not that late.’ She checked her watch. Just after nine.

      Zito brushed that aside. ‘Saturday night—a party? An intimate party. Did you really need to consult your diary, or was that just to keep him on his toes?’

      ‘You’re being absurd.’

      He came away from the window. His eyes were obsidian, glowing with a dark fire, his high cheekbones outlined with dusky colour under his natural tan. ‘Absurd, am I?’

      ‘Yes!’

      Maybe it was the fierce contempt in her tone that stopped him, just a few feet from her. Certainly it was the first time she’d ever stood up to him like this.

      ‘So who is this bride-to-be?’ he shot at her. ‘You? Because if so, you’ve forgotten a small detail, haven’t you?’

      Roxane was so astonished she laughed.

      And saw again, with a surge of strange triumph, that she’d unsettled him. She had never seen Zito wrongfooted so many times in the space of—what? Half an hour?

      It was a peculiarly heady sensation.

      Tempted to let him retain his hasty assumptions, she decided that would be unnecessarily childish. Crisply, she informed him, ‘That was my boss. We organise and cater events, mostly for corporates and big business, but he was asking me to make the arrangements for a private welcome home and engagement party for a client’s son.’

      Zito stared at her as if trying to decide whether she was telling the truth, then he sank abruptly onto the nearby couch and bowed his head, his fingers combing through the black strands, and muttered something she couldn’t catch.

      After a small hesitation Roxane sat in one of the armchairs facing him. Knees and ankles pressed together, she folded her hands in her lap. Capable hands, the nails allowed to grow just over the tips, and glossed with clear satin polish. Ringless hands. Hastily she covered the left one with her right.

      When she looked up Zito was leaning against the couch cushions, looking disgruntled, his long legs sprawled in front of him. ‘I’ve been stupid tonight,’ he said unexpectedly. ‘Clumsy and stupid.’

      Startled

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