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restaurant, almost empty on our arrival, fills up, mostly with groups of women, some of whom look over and smile. After a while I start to grow self-conscious, losing the drift of the conversation and beginning to see myself in the way I imagine these women see me: as an embattled single father bringing up three boys on his own, beautifully. When I occasionally catch one of their admiring glances, I try to acknowledge it wearing a modest, vaguely embarrassed expression that says, ‘Yes, it has been a struggle, but it’s been worth it. These kids mean everything to me.’

      ‘Why don’t you just shut up?’ the youngest says to the oldest.

      ‘Why don’t you just fuck off?’ the oldest says to the youngest.

      ‘Can we have the bill?’ I say to the passing waiter.

      When we get home, the book club is still in session in the kitchen. We creep into the sitting room and I shut the door quietly behind us.

      ‘It was a good dinner,’ I say softly. ‘We’ve expanded our repertoire to include starters four and seven, and I learned a lot about the many different ways a person can hurt himself skateboarding off a roof.’

      ‘Whatever,’ the youngest says, kicking off his shoes so they hit the window blinds and then diving face first into the sofa. The middle one picks up the TV remote and points it at the screen. As the tail end of Police, Camera, Action! comes blaring into the room, he starts playing keepy-uppy with a dirty tennis ball. The oldest one is already sprawled on the other sofa with his laptop open under his chin like a sun reflector. Seizing the opportunity to check my email, I pull my phone from my pocket and turn my back to the noise.

      At this point the door swings open. I glance up from my phone and see my wife, and behind her a group of rather elegant women in long coats, peering in. My wife gestures with one upturned palm, in the manner of a museum curator.

      ‘Typical,’ she says. ‘Any time of day or night, if you open this door, this is the scene that greets you.’

      I start to say something in protest, but then I see myself as the six smiling women framed in the door see me, and I decide to go with it.

      One fine autumn day I elect to take my children to the grand opening of London’s new mega-mall, because it is half-term and we need an activity, and because the mega-mall happens to be very near our house, which has not heretofore been very near anything. In fact, it is now our closest retail experience, our local forty-three-acre shop, and I want them to be familiar with it so that in future I can ask them to nip out and get me some Louis Vuitton luggage.

      We are worried, however, that we might be underdressed for the occasion. Our shoes are muddy. The middle one is wearing a hoodie, which for all I know might disqualify him from entry. The youngest is sporting a huge cut above his blackened eye, the result of running into a friend while celebrating a goal with his shirt pulled over his head. We ditch the hoodie, change coats, wipe food from each other’s faces.

      As we walk along the road I try to set the mega-mall opening day in some sort of wider historical context, because we should really be going to a museum or something in half-term.

      ‘This entire area was the site of the 1908 Franco-British Exhibition, the centrepiece of which was the dazzling White City,’ I say, lowering my voice as we pass other pedestrians in case my facts are wrong.

      ‘Is that why the Tube station is called White City?’ the middle one asks, pointing.

      ‘Yes,’ I say. ‘That is exactly why. They also held the 1908 Olympics here.’

      ‘Dad,’ the youngest says, ‘remember on Family Guy, Stewie was like—’

      ‘I’m talking. The last remaining exhibition halls were demolished to build the giant mall,’ I say, ‘a temple to capitalism.’ As we pass the new Tube station I see the mayor of London, Boris Johnson, chatting to reporters. ‘Look,’ I say. ‘There is the mayor of London, Boris Johnson.’ The older two crane their necks appreciatively.

      We enter the mega-mall just as Dannii Minogue opens the new branch of Next, and become caught up in the whirling vortex of the crowd trying to get a look at her. We ride escalators while consulting a map we were handed at the door. Eventually we end up on a balcony towering over the atrium. Three storeys below, flashbulbs are popping at the foot of a stage.

      ‘The man now shaking hands with Boris Johnson,’ I say, ‘is Philip Green, the owner of the Arcadia group.’

      ‘Who’s that one?’ the oldest asks.

      ‘That,’ I say, ‘is Sir Stuart Rose, chairman of Marks and Spencer.’

      ‘Ah,’ he says. My children seem oddly intrigued by the proximity of fashion industry bigwigs.

      ‘And that man, unless I’m mistaken, runs the—’

      ‘Bye,’ the youngest says suddenly, turning on his heel.

      ‘Where are you going?’

      ‘Anywhere,’ he says, ‘but here.’ His sullen expression and cut eye make him look like someone in search of trouble.

      ‘You can’t wander around a giant mall by yourself,’ I say. He stalks off defiantly to lean against a pillar twenty yards away, where I can just see him being quizzed by a succession of security guards.

      The other two insist on waiting for the ribbon cutting. I begin to feel I have overplayed the historical significance of what is essentially the opening of a bunch of shops. People pile in around and behind us. Half an hour later, an orchestra starts playing. Boris Johnson makes a speech, but we can’t make out the words, only the familiar harrumphing cadences. Finally I pull them away.

      ‘This is a mall,’ I say. ‘Let’s shop.’ As we approach the youngest and his pillar, I can see that he is being questioned by yet another security guard. He answers, but the guard puts his hand to his ear, unable to hear anything above Leona Lewis singing below.

      The boy leans towards the cupped ear. ‘CELEBRATING A GOAL!’ he shouts.

      I once made an incredibly realistic giant pencil, which my oldest son wielded as part of a Book Week costume, in the guise of a fictional character called the Number Devil.

      Honestly, this pencil was amazing – it could have come straight from the props department of The Borrowers. I kept it around for years because I was so proud of it, and also because it was the perfect length for batting the TV aerial back into position whenever strong winds pushed it out of alignment, a dangerous chore that required me to clamber out of a third-storey window and up onto the flat roof at the back of the house. Getting back inside was even trickier – some dangling was required – and I usually spent at least ten minutes sitting on the edge of the roof contemplating unwanted outcomes before I got cold enough to go for it. It was during one of these periods of reflection that I realized what a macabre detail the giant pencil would add to reports of my death. It would probably be enough to upgrade my obituary to the status of quirky page four news item. After that I started using an old mop handle, and the pencil got thrown away.

      The point is, I am good at making things. I approach creative tasks with a fussy precision you don’t find in many eight-year-olds; above all I am proficient at damping down the childlike enthusiasm that causes children to be so rubbish at making things. For this reason I can sometimes be a difficult collaborator. Trust me – you don’t want my help with your science project. You want me to do it for you.

      Towards the end of the Easter holidays my wife starts finishing every statement with the words ‘because I have done everything and you have done nothing’. I am left trying to recall even a brief period in the last fortnight when I had the opportunity to do nothing, but I’m too knackered to think.

      It is the night before school starts.

      ‘You are helping them with their eggs tonight,’ says my wife. ‘Because I have done everything and you have done nothing.’ I know she is referring to the younger boys’ Easter egg competition entries. The older of the two has already decorated an egg with the flags of

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