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was wandering in Soul-land.

      Heaven's gates are open when the world's are shut. The gates of this world were closing on Bell, and her feet were hesitating at the threshold of Heaven, waiting only for the mystic word to enter!

      Very beautiful Bell was. Her perfect soul could not hide itself in the pale, spiritual face. It was visible in her thought and in her eyes. There was a world of tender meaning in her smile. The Angel of Patience had folded her in its wings, and she was meek, holy. As Mortimer sat by her before the evening lamps were lighted, and watched the curious pictures which the flickering drift-wood painted on the walls, he knew that she could not last till the violets came again. She spoke so gently of death, the bridge which spans the darkness between us and Heaven – so softened its dark, dreadful outlines, that it seemed as beautiful as a path of flowers to the boy and Nanny.

      "Death," said Bell one day, "is a folding of the hands to sleep. How quiet is death! There is no more yearning, no more waiting in the grave. It comes to me pleasantly, the thought that I shall lie under the daisies, God's daisies! and the robins will sing over me in the trees. Everything is so holy in the church-yard – the moss on the walls, the willows, and the long grass that moves in the wind!"

      Poor Nanny tried to hum one of her old ditties about Cloe and her lover; then suddenly she found something interesting at the window. But it would not do. The tears would come, and she knelt down by Bell's side, and Bell's little hand fell like a strip of white moonlight on Nanny's hair.

      "We shall miss you, darling!" sobbed Mortimer.

      "At first, won't you?" and Bell smiled, and who knows what sights she saw in the illumined fire-place? Were they pictures of Heaven, little Bell?

      "What shall I read to you, pet?" asked Mortimer one morning. She had been prattling for an hour in her wise, child-like way, and was more than usually bright.

      "You shall not read to me at all," replied Bell, chirpingly, "but sit at my feet, and I will read to you."

      She took a slip of paper from her work-basket, and her voice ran along the sweetest lines that the sweetest poet ever wrote. They are from Alfred Tennyson's "May Queen."

      "I did not hear the dog howl, mother, or the death-watch beat,

      There came a sweeter token when the night and morning meet;

      But sit beside my bed, mother, and put your hand in mine,

      And Effie on the other side, and I will tell the sign.

      All in the wild March morning I heard the angels call;

      It was when the moon was setting, and the dark was over all;

      The trees began to whisper, and the wind began to roll,

      And in the wild March morning I heard them call my soul.

      For lying broad awake I thought of you and Effie dear;

      I saw you sitting in the house, and I no longer here;

      With all my strength I prayed for both, and so I felt resigned,

      And up the valley came a swell of music on the wind.

      I thought that it was fancy, and I listened in my bed,

      And then did something speak to me – I know not what was said;

      For great delight and shuddering took hold of all my mind,

      And up the valley came again the music on the wind.

      But you were sleeping; and I said, 'It's not for them: its mine,'

      And if it comes three times, I thought, I take it for a sign;

      And once again it came, and close beside the window-bars,

      Then seemed to go right up to Heaven, and die among the stars.

      So now I think my time is near – I trust it is. I know

      The blessed music went that way my soul will have to go;

      And for myself, indeed, I care not if I go to-day,

      But, Effie, you must comfort her when I am past away;

      And say to Robin a kind word, and tell him not to fret —

      There's many worthier than I would make him happy yet; —

      If I had lived – I cannot tell – I might have been his wife;

      But all these things have ceased to be, with my desire of life.

      Oh look! the sun begins to rise, the heavens are in a glow;

      He shines upon a hundred fields, and all of them I know;

      And there I move no longer now, and there his light may shine —

      Wild flowers in the valley for other hands than mine.

      O sweet and strange it seems to me, that ere this day is done,

      The voice that now is speaking may be beyond the sun —

      To lie within the light of God, as I lie upon your breast —

      And the wicked cease from troubling, and the weary are at rest!"

      When Bell had finished reading, she took Mortimer's hand in her own.

      "I shall not die until the violet comes – the beautiful violet, with its clouded bell!"

      March melted into April – the month of tears! Then came blossoming May, and still Bell lingered, like a strain of music so sweet that the echoes will not let it die.

      One morning in June, the sun with noiseless feet came creeping into the room – and Bell was dying. Mortimer was telling her of some sea-side walk, when the unseen angel came between them. Bell's voice went from her, her heart grew chilly, and she knew that it was death. The boy did not notice the change; but when her hand lay cold in his, he looked up with fear. He saw her beautiful eyes looking heavenward, and those smiles which wreathe the lips of the young after death – the sunset of smiles.

      "Bell! Bell! Bell!"

      But she did not hear him.

      The viewless spirits of flowers came through the open window into the quiet room; and the winds, which made the curtains tremble, gently lifted the tresses of the sleeping angel. Then the chiming of village bells came and went in pulses of soft sound. How musical they were that morning! How the robins showered their silvery notes, like rain-drops among the leaves! There was holy life in everything – the lilac-scented atmosphere, the brooks, the grass, and the flowers that lay budding on the bosom of delicious June! And thus it was, in the exquisite spring-time, that the hand of death led little Bell into Soul-land.

      One afternoon, the blinds were turned down: not a ray of light stole through them, only the spicy air. There was something solemn stalking in the entries, and all through the house. It seemed as if there was a corpse in every room.

      The way the chairs were placed, the darkened parlor, the faded flowers on the mantel-piece, and the brooding silence said it – said that Bell was dead!

      Yes! In the little parlor she lay, in her white shroud. Bell? No; it was not Bell. It was only the beautiful robe which her spirit in its flight had cast aside!

      There was a moving of feet to and fro. Gradually, the room became full of forms. The village parson stood among them. His hair had the white touch of age, and his heart knew the chastening hand of God. "Exceeding peace" was written on his meek face. He lifted up his soul on the arms of prayer. He spoke of the dead, whose life had been as pure as a new snow. He spoke cheerfully and tenderly, and sometimes smiled, for his

      "Faith was large in Time,

      And that which shapes it to some perfect end."

      He had drank at the fountain of God's word; his soul had been refreshed, and his were not the lips to preach the doctrine of an endless wail. He knew that there are many

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