The poetical works of George MacDonald in two volumes — Volume 1 - George MacDonald

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of Bethlehem.

        And over him shall bend the Mother mild,

        In silken white and coroneted gems.

        Glorious! But wherewithal I see not now—

        The Mammon of unrighteousness is scant;

        Nor know I any nests of money-bees

        That could yield half-contentment to my need.

        Yet will I trust and hope; for never yet

        In journeying through this vale of tears have I

        Projected pomp that did not blaze anon.

      SCENE V.—After midnight. JULIAN seated under a tree by the roadside

        Julian.

        So lies my journey—on into the dark!

        Without my will I find myself alive,

        And must go forward. Is it God that draws

        Magnetic all the souls unto their home,

        Travelling, they know not how, but unto God?

        It matters little what may come to me

        Of outward circumstance, as hunger, thirst,

        Social condition, yea, or love or hate;

        But what shall I be, fifty summers hence?

        My life, my being, all that meaneth me,

        Goes darkling forward into something—what?

        O God, thou knowest. It is not my care.

        If thou wert less than truth, or less than love,

        It were a fearful thing to be and grow

        We know not what. My God, take care of me;

        Pardon and swathe me in an infinite love,

        Pervading and inspiring me, thy child.

        And let thy own design in me work on,

        Unfolding the ideal man in me;

        Which being greater far than I have grown,

        I cannot comprehend. I am thine, not mine.

        One day, completed unto thine intent,

        I shall be able to discourse with thee;

        For thy Idea, gifted with a self,

        Must be of one with the mind where it sprang,

        And fit to talk with thee about thy thoughts.

        Lead me, O Father, holding by thy hand;

        I ask not whither, for it must be on.

        This road will lead me to the hills, I think;

        And there I am in safety and at home.

      SCENE VI.—The Abbot's room. The Abbot and one of the Monks

        Abbot.

        Did she say Julian? Did she say the name?

        Monk.

        She did.

        Abbot.

                   What did she call the lady? What?

        Monk.

        I could not hear.

        Abbot.

                         Nor where she lived?

        Monk.

                                               Nor that.

        She was too wild for leading where I would.

        Abbot.

        So! Send Julian. One thing I need not ask:

        You have kept this matter secret?

        Monk.

                                        Yes, my lord.

        Abbot.

        Well, go and send him hither.

        [Monk goes.]

                                     Said I well,

        That prayer would burgeon into pomp for me?

        That God would hear his own elect who cried?

        Now for a shrine, so glowing in the means

        That it shall draw the eyes by power of light!

        So tender in conceit, that it shall draw

        The heart by very strength of delicateness,

        And move proud thought to worship!

                                            I must act

        With caution now; must win his confidence;

        Question him of the secret enemies

        That fight against his soul; and lead him thus

        To tell me, by degrees, his history.

        So shall I find the truth, and lay foundation

        For future acts, as circumstance requires.

        For if the tale be true that he is rich,

        And if——

      Re-enter Monk in haste and terror.

        Monk.

        He's gone, my lord! His cell is empty.

        Abbot (starting up).

                     What! You are crazy! Gone?

        His cell is empty?

        Monk.

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