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seemed right for all of us.

      “We don’t want you to play with us at all,” said Archie.

      “Yes, we do,” said Beatrice.

      “He drops his aitches like anything.”

      “No, ‘e doesn’t,” said I, in the heat of the moment.

      “There you go!” he cried. “E, he says. E! E! E!”

      He pointed a finger at me. He had struck to the heart of my shame. I made the only possible reply by a rush at him. “Hello!” he cried, at my blackavised attack. He dropped back into an attitude that had some style in it, parried my blow, got back at my cheek, and laughed with surprise and relief at his own success. Whereupon I became a thing of murderous rage. He could box as well or better than I — he had yet to realise I knew anything of that at all — but I had fought once or twice to a finish with bare fists. I was used to inflicting and enduring savage hurting, and I doubt if he had ever fought. I hadn’t fought ten seconds before I felt this softness in him, realised all that quality of modern upper-class England that never goes to the quick, that hedges about rules and those petty points of honour that are the ultimate comminution of honour, that claims credit for things demonstrably half done. He seemed to think that first hit of his and one or two others were going to matter, that I ought to give in when presently my lip bled and dripped blood upon my clothes. So before we had been at it a minute he had ceased to be aggressive except in momentary spurts, and I was knocking him about almost as I wanted to do; and demanding breathlessly and fiercely, after our school manner, whether he had had enough, not knowing that by his high code and his soft training it was equally impossible for him to either buck-up and beat me, or give in.

      I have a very distinct impression of Beatrice dancing about us during the affair in a state of unladylike appreciation, but I was too preoccupied to hear much of what she was saying. But she certainly backed us both, and I am inclined to think now — it may be the disillusionment of my ripened years — whichever she thought was winning.

      Then young Garvell, giving way before my slogging, stumbled and fell over a big flint, and I, still following the tradition of my class and school, promptly flung myself on him to finish him. We were busy with each other on the ground when we became aware of a dreadful interruption.

      “Shut up, you FOOL!” said Archie.

      “Oh, Lady Drew!” I heard Beatrice cry. “They’re fighting! They’re fighting something awful!”

      I looked over my shoulder. Archie’s wish to get up became irresistible, and my resolve to go on with him vanished altogether.

      I became aware of the two old ladies, presences of black and purple silk and fur and shining dark things; they had walked up through the Warren, while the horses took the hill easily, and so had come upon us. Beatrice had gone to them at once with an air of taking refuge, and stood beside and a little behind them. We both rose dejectedly. The two old ladies were evidently quite dreadfully shocked, and peering at us with their poor old eyes; and never had I seen such a tremblement in Lady Drew’s lorgnettes.

      “You’ve never been fighting? ” said Lady Drew.

      “You have been fighting.”

      “It wasn’t proper fighting,” snapped Archie, with accusing eyes on me.

      “It’s Mrs. Ponderevo’s George!” said Miss Somerville, so adding a conviction for ingratitude to my evident sacrilege.

      “How could he Dare?” cried Lady Drew, becoming very awful.

      “He broke the rules” said Archie, sobbing for breath. “I slipped, and — he hit me while I was down. He knelt on me.”

      “How could you Dare?” said Lady Drew.

      I produced an experienced handkerchief rolled up into a tight ball, and wiped the blood from my chin, but I offered no explanation of my daring. Among other things that prevented that, I was too short of breath.

      “He didn’t fight fair,” sobbed Archie.

      Beatrice, from behind the old ladies, regarded me intently and without hostility. I am inclined to think the modification of my face through the damage to my lip interested her. It became dimly apparent to my confused intelligence that I must not say these two had been playing with me. That would not be after the rules of their game. I resolved in this difficult situation upon a sulky silence, and to take whatever consequences might follow.

      IX

      The powers of justice in Bladesover made an extraordinary mess of my case.

      I have regretfully to admit that the Honourable Beatrice Normandy did, at the age of ten, betray me, abandon me, and lie most abominably about me. She was, as a matter of fact, panic-stricken about me, conscience stricken too; she bolted from the very thought of my being her affianced lover and so forth, from the faintest memory of kissing; she was indeed altogether disgraceful and human in her betrayal. She and her halfbrother lied in perfect concord, and I was presented as a wanton assailant of my social betters. They were waiting about in the Warren, when I came up and spoke to them, etc.

      On the whole, I now perceive Lady Drew’s decisions were, in the light of the evidence, reasonable and merciful.

      They were conveyed to me by my mother, who was, I really believe, even more shocked by the grossness of my social insubordination than Lady Drew. She dilated on her ladyship’s kindnesses to me, on the effrontery and wickedness of my procedure, and so came at last to the terms of my penance. “You must go up to young Mr. Garvell, and beg his pardon.”

      “I won’t beg his pardon,” I said, speaking for the first time.

      My mother paused, incredulous.

      I folded my arms on her tablecloth, and delivered my wicked little ultimatum. “I won’t beg his pardon nohow,” I said. “See?”

      “Then you will have to go off to your uncle Frapp at Chatham.”

      “I don’t care where I have to go or what I have to do, I won’t beg his pardon,” I said.

      And I didn’t.

      After that I was one against the world. Perhaps in my mother’s heart there lurked some pity for me, but she did not show it. She took the side of the young gentleman; she tried hard, she tried very hard, to make me say I was sorry I had struck him. Sorry!

      I couldn’t explain.

      So I went into exile in the dogcart to Redwood station, with Jukes the coachman, coldly silent, driving me, and all my personal belongings in a small American cloth portmanteau behind.

      I felt I had much to embitter me; the game had and the beginnings of fairness by any standards I knew…. But the thing that embittered me most was that the Honourable Beatrice Normandy should have repudiated and fled from me as though I was some sort of leper, and not even have taken a chance or so, to give me a goodbye. She might have done that anyhow! Supposing I had told on her! But the son of a servant counts as a servant. She had forgotten and now remembered.

      I solaced myself with some extraordinary dream of coming back to Bladesover, stern, powerful, after the fashion of Coriolanus. I do not recall the details, but I have no doubt I displayed great magnanimity…

      Well, anyhow I never said I was sorry for pounding young Garvell, and I am not sorry to this day.

      CHAPTER THE SECOND

       OF MY LAUNCH INTO THE WORLD AND THE LAST I SAW OF BLADESOVER

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      When I was thus banished from Bladesover House, as it was then thought

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