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      “Not questions, really. I just wanted to let you know that nothing’s going to change. In case you’re concerned about that. I know that’s important to Morrie.” He leaned over the railing, tossed a fish to the tarpons below, then looked back at her. “Morrie emphasized that he wants you to feel secure here at the bar. He really cares about you.”

      “Morrie’s great.” She settled her arms against the railing, stared down at the gathering tarpons. The water glittered in the growing day. “He’s been like a father to me. But you’re buying the bar, so I understand it’s up to you what you do with it.”

      A thread of nervousness wound through her words, but like her fear of water, she’d learned to live with the new uncertainty since Morrie had put the bar up for sale. With no past, and the future unknowable, living day to day was all she could handle.

      The fact was, no matter how much Morrie felt like a father to her, she wasn’t his family. His family was in New Mexico, and that’s where Morrie wanted to be.

      “I like the Shark and Fin just the way it is,” Roman said. “And the people, too. I just wanted you to know. I won’t be asking you to move out of the apartment, and I’m not planning to change any of the staffing.”

      “You’ll need a place to live,” she pointed out.

      “I’m fine at the White Seas for now. I’ll figure out the rest of it as I go.”

      Apparently he had unlimited funds if he could stay at the White Seas indefinitely. It was one of the most expensive resorts in the Keys simply because it was so secluded on sleepy little Thunder Key. There was limited potential for any farther development on the island due to the environmental restrictions preserving most of the remaining natural areas on the Key.

      Roman dug into the bucket and tossed another handful of fish to the tarpons. The pelicans near the pier had taken note and a couple dove toward them.

      Leah took a handful and a white pelican ate straight from her fingers. Roman fed another, and half the bucket was gone in minutes.

      She laughed as one pelican nipped her fingers greedily, and she looked up at Roman. He was grinning back at her.

      “I like it when you laugh,” he said. “You don’t laugh enough.”

      That sobered her instantly. “Why do you want to buy a bar in the Keys?” Dammit, she hadn’t meant to ask him that.

      He had a way of just looking at her and sending her completely off balance.

      “I honeymooned here with my wife.”

      It was the last thing she’d expected him to say.

      “Here? On Thunder Key?”

      “At the White Seas. Two years ago.”

      The pain in his eyes just about killed her. The urge to touch him grew almost unbearable. There was something about him that just pulled her against her will.

      If he’d only been married two years ago, his wife had to have died fairly recently. And now he’d come back. It was hard for her to imagine how it must feel for him to be here. Painful, to say the least.

      “I would think this is the last place you’d want to be,” she said. Hide. That’s what pain made her want to do. But Roman wasn’t hiding. He’d come right here, to the very place that must hurt him the most. “I feel like an idiot. I was trying to set you up with Marian and I thought you were interested in me. I had no idea your loss had been so…recent. It must be difficult for you to be back here.”

      He leaned against the railing. “This is the only place I want to be,” he said. The wind picked up, almost carrying his words away. She had to move closer to hear him. The salty air mingled with the musky male scent of him.

      “I’m truly sorry for your loss,” she said. What would that be like, to care so deeply—and then to lose that person? She wondered if she would ever know. If she had known in the past. It was one of the things that frightened her, to think there might be someone, somewhere, who missed her. It was one of the reasons she couldn’t bring herself to date. What if she had a husband? Children? She didn’t even know if she was free. But she had convinced herself that if she had a family, she would know. Somehow. Wouldn’t she?

      Most of the time the questions were just too awful to contemplate.

      “I was a bastard,” he said, surprising her again. The sharp darkness of his eyes pierced her as he cut his gaze to her again. “I wasn’t a good husband during our marriage, and then it was too late. I lost her. Don’t feel sorry for me. Everything that happened was my own fault.”

      He dug in the bucket again, tossed another handful of fish at the tarpons.

      “Wow, not hard on yourself or anything, are you?” she said. “And you said I put myself down. I think you’ve got me beat.”

      “I believe in a person taking responsibility for his actions. Especially when the person was wrong.”

      “That’s admirable, but still… It takes two people to make a marriage. You can’t blame yourself entirely.”

      “She did,” he said.

      Leah didn’t know what to say to that. “I think if you can admit you made some mistakes, that says a lot about you. You don’t strike me as a bastard.” Nope, not at all. He was being so damn nice, she felt the shield around her peeling back with every second she spent with him. And that was bad.

      Very bad.

      She had nothing to offer a man like Roman Bradshaw. No past, no future, barely a present. There were solid reasons she’d made up her mind not to get involved in a relationship, and just because Roman was hellaciously good-looking and nice to boot didn’t change any of it. Discovering he was a sensitive guy didn’t mean he wasn’t dangerous.

      She needed to get things back on more solid footing. Something she could handle. “Morrie told me to give you whatever access you need. If you want to look at the books today, I can make them available to you. I’ve been keeping the books and managing the bar myself since Morrie’s been gone, so I can fill you in on most of the business details and any questions you might have.”

      “Great.” He threw out some more fish and neither of them said anything for a time.

      The pier grew more crowded as day tourists arrived, making their way from other islands to sample the small Key’s quieter attractions.

      “Do you still dive?” Roman asked when the bucket finally emptied.

      Still? Her expression must have revealed her confusion.

      “I thought you said you enjoyed diving,” he explained.

      “No, no, I didn’t. I don’t dive. I have a phobia about the water, actually.”

      He watched her for a strange beat. She was very aware of how close he stood to her, of the strangers walking past, of the sun hitting his strong arms and the warm scent of him pulling her and pushing her away all at once.

      “You live on an island that’s two miles wide and you’re afraid of the water?”

      “Yep. Well, I don’t mind looking at it. I just—I don’t go into it.”

      “Do you know why you’re afraid?”

      She shook her head. He picked up the bucket and they began walking back toward the marina.

      “I believe in facing your fears,” he said. “Headon.”

      “You don’t want to see me have a panic attack,” she told him. “It’s not a pretty sight.”

      He stopped short.

      “You have panic attacks?” Concern etched a new line across his forehead.

      “I’m making a great impression on my potential new boss, aren’t I? I’m freaked out about dating, I’m

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