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without the slightest encouragement. To Juliet Crandall, he was a mystery, no more. A puzzle with its pieces jumbled. She probably hadn’t thought of him even once as a getting-involved, kissing-and-seducing, making-love-and-babies-and-a-future-with kind of man.

      She probably never would.

      * * *

      Juliet stood in the doorway, watching as Martin walked into the night. He moved quickly, silently—stealthily, she thought—into the shadows, disappearing from sight.

      Was he a criminal? Was that why he moved like that, why he’d been able to sneak up on her in the kitchen tonight? Did that explain how he’d been able to take a few seconds’ look at her door and yard and find the weaknesses from a security standpoint?

      She closed and locked the door, then went into the dining room. By the time she settled in her chair, the computer was up and running. There was a batch of E-mails awaiting her. She scanned the list, but didn’t open any messages.

      What did she really know about these people? What did it say about her that her only friends were virtual strangers, hiding behind screen names and identities that were as likely fabricated as truthful? They’d told her their names, marital status, occupations, but online, it was easy to be something you weren’t. Heavens, they thought she was interesting, and online, she was. Her fingers never tripped over words the way her tongue did in a real-life conversation. If she embarrassed herself—as she’d done in the kitchen—no one was there to see it. As far as they were concerned, she was friendly, outgoing, competent and fun.

      Geez, maybe they were scam artists, stalkers, rapists and killers.

      But more likely they were just average people, a little lonely and a little lost. Like her. Like Martin.

      Exiting the mailbox, she called up her favorite search engine and typed in one word. Her search was far too general, giving her every site listed that contained the word amnesia. There were more than twelve million hits. Rather than try to narrow it, she began sorting through them one by one, occasionally stopping to link to another site. By midnight her eyes were gritty, her back was aching, and she’d increased her knowledge of amnesia a hundredfold. But she hadn’t learned anything that could help Martin.

      Did it matter? Now that he knew how little she could do, he would probably keep his distance. She sincerely wished she could help—she wouldn’t mind his gratitude at all—but she wasn’t a miracle worker. She had to have something to work with.

      Still, she couldn’t help feeling as if she’d somehow let him down.

      She would do what she could—send out a missing persons bulletin again and search as many places as she could think of—and that would be the end of it. It was just as well. She didn’t want any man simply because he was grateful for what she’d done for him. If he couldn’t appreciate her for herself, it was his loss. Wasn’t that what her parents had always told her?

      But they’d been wrong. It was her loss, too. Living alone, being alone, seeing other women her age with husbands and children and having no opportunity for her own family in sight—those were her losses, and she lived with them every day.

      Clicking the mouse, she backed out of the sites she had accessed, thought for a moment about reading her mail, then shut down. She turned off the lights as she made her way to the bedroom.

      It was a nice size, with room for the furniture that had been her grandparents’ and a thickly padded chaise that was her favorite place to curl up on a sleepless night. It was a pretty room, too, painted pale peach on two walls and deep coral on the others. The linens were a coral-and-teal floral, the curtains at the window frilly coral, the slipcover on the chaise frilly teal. There were ruffled pillows on the bed and the chaise, and lacy crocheted doilies—gifts from Grandma—everywhere.

      It was a woman’s room, she acknowledged as she undid the buttons on her dress. Everywhere she looked, she saw ruffles and frills. Only a man secure in his masculinity could lie in that bed or stretch out on the chaise without being totally overwhelmed.

      Martin came to mind.

      Her fingers stopped on the buttons as she turned to face the mirror, to see what he had seen when he’d first arrived. The fabric gapped to her waist—not a lot, not immodestly, but enough. The material was soft and pretty, like an impressionist watercolor, and the skin that showed was pale. Tentatively she touched herself, just one fingertip at the point of the vee, drawing it slowly along exposed skin to her waist. Closing her eyes, she did it again, only this time, in her mind, the hand was dark, the fingertip callused, the touch incredibly sexual. It was enough to make her shiver, then flush.

      She wasn’t so terribly needy that she had to fantasize over a man who clearly held little interest in her as a woman. It hadn’t been so long since she’d had sex. It had lasted the weekend—the entire weekend—and had been the best sex she’d ever experienced, and it had been only…

      Only twenty months ago. She scowled. She was needy enough to fantasize about Martin Smith. But it was only fair. He was so well suited for feminine fantasies.

      Giving herself a shake, she finished undressing and got ready for bed. She was lucky enough to be a sound sleeper, and she slept through the night, awakening in plenty of time for breakfast before work. The job at the library was okay, but she liked her three days at the police department better. The clerk who worked in the office, Mariellen, required constant supervision, but Juliet liked everyone else and she liked the work.

      She was only a few blocks from the house when she spied a familiar figure ahead. Martin didn’t have a driver’s license, according to Tracey at the library. He didn’t have any official documents at all. There must be some provision for obtaining them when you truly had no idea who you were, but maybe he wasn’t interested. Maybe he couldn’t face becoming Martin Smith officially. Maybe he feared that would somehow rob him of the man he really was.

      As she drove the half block that separated them, she debated, then pulled to the curb. “Can I give you a ride?”

      When he turned her way, he looked exhausted. His eyes were bloodshot, his features fixed in a scowl. “I’m not going anywhere.”

      A curious answer. “Then how about a ride home?”

      After a moment’s hesitation, he climbed in beside her. He was so tall and broad-shouldered that immediately the car seemed to shrink by half.

      “Tough night?”

      He tilted his head back and closed his eyes. “Yeah. I couldn’t sleep.”

      She wondered how hard he had tried. His jaw was unshaven, his hair disheveled as if he—or someone—had combed it with his—or her?—fingers, and he still wore the same snug jeans and emerald shirt he’d worn to her house last night. She could see the pop stains on the lower leg.

      She had assumed, when he’d said good-night, that he was going home. Now she wondered. Not that it was any of her business.

      Realizing that they weren’t moving, he looked at her. “What are you waiting for?”

      “I don’t know where you live.”

      He gave her the address, only five blocks in the opposite direction. She made a U-turn and tried very hard to think of something to say, anything at all to break the silence that pricked at her and didn’t seem to bother him in the least. Before she came up with a single, simple, asinine comment—nice day, for God’s sake—she was pulling into his driveway.

      The house was old and lovely, three stories, big enough for a family or two or three. She looked at it, then him. “You live here?” Brilliant, Juliet. He told you he did, didn’t he?

      “Back there.” He gestured toward the back, and she saw the detached garage with an apartment overhead. “Thanks for the ride.”

      That was it—no goodbye, no mention of last night, no small talk, nothing personal at all. Thanks for the ride.

      “You’re pathetic, Juliet,” she berated herself as she backed into the street

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