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would be no him and her again.

      He didn’t know why that should make him scowl. It was what he wanted too.

      No, he wanted to kiss her. He was honest enough to admit that much. But she was right. There was no future for them.

      But now that she was back in Clara Falls, she shouldn’t have to leave in twelve months’ time. Not if she didn’t want to.

      He thought back to Mac—the cheek kisser; Mac of the tattoo parlour. He rolled his shoulders. ‘You’re good with kids.’ Did she plan to have children of her own?

      She turned back. He could tell she was trying to hold back a grin. ‘You sound surprised.’

      ‘Guess I’ve never really thought about it before.’ He paused. ‘You and Mac seem close.’

      Her lips twisted. She all but cocked an eyebrow. ‘We are. He and his wife Bonnie are my best friends.’

      He felt like a transparent fool. He rushed on before she could chide him for getting too personal. ‘What are your plans for when you return to your real life in the city?’

      She blinked and he shrugged, suddenly and strangely self-conscious—like Mel in her attempts to make new friends. ‘You said that returning to run the bookshop was a temporary glitch.’

      ‘It is.’

      She eased back on her hands, shifted so she no longer sat on her knees, so she could stretch the long length of her legs out in front of her. Without thinking, he reached out to swipe the leaves from her trouser legs.

      She stiffened. He pulled his hand back with a muttered, ‘Sorry.’

      ‘Not a problem.’

      Her voice came out all tight and strangled. Oh, yeah, there was a problem all right. The same problem there had always been between them— that heat. But it hadn’t solved things between them eight years ago and it wouldn’t solve anything now.

      He just had to remember not to touch her.

      ‘Your plans?’ he prompted when she didn’t unstiffen.

      ‘Oh, yes.’ She relaxed. She waved to Melly on the slippery dip. She didn’t look at him; she stared out at the view—it was a spectacular view. He didn’t know if her nonchalance was feigned or not, but it helped ease the tenseness inside him a little— enough for him to catch his breath.

      He made himself stare out at the view too. It was spectacular.

      Not as spectacular—

      Don’t go there.

      ‘I mean to open an art gallery.’

      He stared at her. Every muscle in his body tensed up again. ‘An art gallery?’ An ache stretched through him. He ignored it. ‘But don’t you run a tattoo parlour?’

      ‘And a bookshop,’ she reminded him.

      She smiled. Not at him but at something she saw in the middle distance. ‘Mac and I financed the tattoo parlour together, but Mac is the one in charge of its day-today running. I’m more of a…guest artist.’

      The thought made him smile.

      ‘I’m pretty much a silent partner these days.’

      ‘Perhaps that’s what you need at the bookshop— a partner?’

      She swung around. ‘I hadn’t thought of that.’ Then, ‘No.’ She gave a decisive shake of her head. ‘The bookshop is all I have left of my mother.’

      ‘And you don’t want to share?’

      Her eyes became hooded. ‘It’s my responsibility, that’s all.’ She turned back to the view.

      ‘So the art gallery, that would be your real baby?’

      She lifted one shoulder. ‘I guess.’

      ‘Where are planning to set it up?’

      ‘I’d only just started looking for premises when Mum—’

      She broke off. His heart burned in sympathy.

      ‘I found wonderful premises at Bondi Beach.’

      Despite the brightness of her voice, her pain slid in beneath his skin like a splinter of polished hardwood. He wanted to reach for her, only he knew she wouldn’t accept his comfort.

      He clenched his hands. ‘Bondi?’ He tried to match her brightness.

      ‘Yes, but I’m afraid the rent went well beyond my budget.’

      ‘I bet.’ It suddenly occurred to him that the rents in the Blue Mountains weren’t anywhere near as exorbitant as those in the city.

      ‘An art gallery…’ He couldn’t finish the sentence. All the brightness had drained from his voice. He could see her running this hypothetical gallery, could almost taste her enthusiasm and drive. He could see her paintings hanging on the walls. He could—

      ‘Which brings me to another point.’ She turned. Her eyes burned in her face as she fixed him with a glare. ‘You!’

      He stared back. Somewhere in the background he heard Melly’s laughter, registered that she was safe and happy at the moment. ‘Me?’ What had he done?

      She dragged her duffel bag towards her. The bag she’d refused to leave in the car. The one she hadn’t allowed him to carry for her on their walk. She’d treated it as if it contained something precious. He’d thought it must hold her tattooing gear. He blinked when she slapped something down on his knees.

      A sketch pad!

      Bile rose up through him when she pushed a pencil into his hand. ‘Draw, Connor.’

      Panic gripped him.

      She opened the sketch pad. ‘Draw,’ she ordered again.

      She reached over and shook his hand, the one that held the pencil, and he went cold all over.

      ‘No!’

      He tried to rise, but she grabbed hold of his arm and wouldn’t let it go.

      ‘I don’t draw any more,’ he ground out, trying to beat back the darkness that threatened him.

      ‘Nonsense!’

      ‘For pity’s sake, Jaz, I—’

      ‘You’re scared.’

      It was a taunt, a challenge. It made him grit his teeth together in frustration. His fingers around the pencil felt as fat and useless as sausages. ‘I gave it up,’ he ground out.

      ‘Then it’s time you took it back up again.’

      Anger shot through him. ‘You want to see how bad I’ve become, is that what this is about?’ Did she want some kind of sick triumph over him?

      Her eyes travelled across his face. Her chin lifted. ‘If that’s what it takes.’

      Then her eyes became gentle and it was like a punch to the gut. ‘Please?’ she whispered.

      All he could smell was the sweet scent of wattle.

      He gripped the pencil so hard it should’ve snapped. If she wanted him to draw, then he’d draw. Maybe when she saw how ham-fisted he’d become she’d finally leave him in peace. ‘What do you want me to draw?’

      ‘That tree.’ She pointed.

      Connor studied it for a moment—its scale, the dimensions. They settled automatically into his mind. That quick summing up, it was one of the things that made him such a good builder. But he didn’t deceive himself. He had no hope of being a halfway decent artist any more.

      It didn’t mean he wanted Jaz forcing that evidence in front of him. She sat beside him, arms folded, and an air of expectation hung about her. He knew he could shake

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