Скачать книгу

do your soul more good to give to the heathen than to me.’

      ‘It would do my bride’s peace of mind more good to know that you are comfortable.’

      ‘Her peace of mind would be better assured through prayer. Do you pray, Lord Langford?’

      ‘I—’ Then he remembered Elizabeth.

      And Edwin.

      ‘I have of late,’ he said.

      But even as he finished the sentence, he saw Mrs Crawford’s face change. Her gaze altered, becoming vague.

      She stepped back from him, her expression confused.

      ‘Who are you?’ Her tone was high and wavering whereas seconds earlier it had been firm and strong.

      ‘Mrs Crawford?’ He softened his voice.

      ‘Where’s Molly? I lost my doll. I want it. I want it back.’

      ‘Your doll?’

      ‘Molly will find it. Or Sarah. I feel stronger when she is around.’

      ‘Sarah or Molly?’

      ‘I don’t know,’ she said, the taut shoulders drooping. Sebastian shifted his weight uncertainly. He realised now why Sarah had said that Mrs Crawford would need a companion. He saw also that her acceptance was moot—she would soon be in no position to refuse.

      ‘Are you good at finding things?’ Mrs Crawford asked, her voice tremulous like that of an overtired child.

      ‘I—’ He thought again of Edwin. ‘I pray to God I am.’

      * * *

      Sarah sat within her bedchamber.

      Her betrothed—her mind stumbled over the word—had come and gone. She’d heard his footsteps in the front hall. She’d heard the door open and close. She’d heard the clip-clop of horses’ hooves.

      Permission granted, she presumed.

      This thing, this marriage, was gathering momentum, moving and surging with the unstoppable power of an ocean’s wave. They would be married Monday. She would marry a man she did not even know on Monday.

      On Monday—the day repeated in her mind as though the idea would be less bizarre on a different day, a Tuesday or a Wednesday perhaps. Five days from now. One hundred and twenty hours.

      Her fingers tightened about the locket her mother had given her. She opened it, touching the dry strands of her sister’s hair she had treasured for so long.

      It would be worth it. If she could find Charlotte, it would be worth it. Her sister, Charlotte, who had always been there, so much more motherly than the laughing, glamorous woman who had birthed them. She could not...must not fail her—not when this opportunity was within her grasp. Besides, countless women married for convenience or money or a title or because their parents told them to. She was no different.

      Her solitude ended when Mrs Crawford appeared. She stood within the doorway, her body rigid and her fingers tightly clasped about the wooden frame as though needing its support.

      ‘Lord Langford has asked for your hand in marriage. You have agreed to this?’

      Sarah nodded.

      ‘Then there is little more to be said. Apprise me of the arrangements and I will, of course, pray for you.’ Mrs Crawford turned as if to go.

      ‘Um—’

      Mrs Crawford paused, her hand dropping to the doorknob. ‘Yes?’

      Doubts and questions weighed on Sarah like the oppressive mugginess of a thundery day. The region under her breastbone ached with that familiar pain, that suppressed longing for affection.

      ‘I’ll miss you,’ she said softly.

      ‘Then you must look to the Lord for comfort.’

      And that was it. The conversation was finished before it had begun.

      Sarah watched as her guardian turned and left, her progress marked by the brisk click of her footsteps. The ache deepened. She could not blame her. Sarah’s arrival at the Crawfords’ residence must have represented the older woman’s worst nightmare. While Sarah and her mother remained in London, Mrs Crawford could ignore her husband’s infidelity. She could pretend the tiny house in one of London’s dubious neighbourhoods did not exist.

      But then her mother had died. The house had been emptied and Mr Crawford had transported her here.

      She shivered, remembering that chilly reception. Bending, Sarah pulled out an ancient hatbox from under the wooden bed frame. She lifted the lid, inhaling its familiar musty mix of perfume and ink.

      Charlotte’s letters.

      She knew them by heart. She knew every ink blot and loop of her sister’s childish hand. She should. She’d devoured them, reading and rereading them a hundred times a day. Sometimes she’d even placed them under her pillow, slipping her hand underneath to feel the edges against her fingers and hear their rustle, taking comfort in the knowledge that her sister had held them, folded them, mailed them.

      A tangible reassurance that someone loved her.

      Конец ознакомительного фрагмента.

      Текст предоставлен ООО «ЛитРес».

      Прочитайте эту книгу целиком, купив полную легальную версию на ЛитРес.

      Безопасно оплатить книгу можно банковской картой Visa, MasterCard, Maestro, со счета мобильного телефона, с платежного терминала, в салоне МТС или Связной, через PayPal, WebMoney, Яндекс.Деньги, QIWI Кошелек, бонусными картами или другим удобным Вам способом.

/9j/4AAQSkZJRgABAgEBLAEsAAD/4Rt/RXhpZgAASUkqAAgAAAAPAAABAwABAAAARgMAAAEBAwAB AAAAfAUAAAIBAwADAAAAwgAAAAMBAwABAAAABQAAAAYBAwABAAAAAgAAABIBAwABAAAAAQAAABUB AwABAAAAAwAAABoBBQABAAAAyAAAABsBBQABAAAA0AAAABwBAwABAAAAAQAAACgBAwABAAAAAgAA ADEBAgAcAAAA2AAAADIBAgAUAAAA9AAAADsBAgATAAAACAEAAGmHBAABAAAAHAEAAEgBAAAIAAgA CADAxi0AECcAAMDGLQAQJwAAQWRvYmUgUGhvdG9zaG9wIENTMyBXaW5kb3dzADIwMTY6MTA6MjUg MDc6MzU6MDUASGlzdG9yaWNhbCBSb21hbmNlAAADAAGgAwABAAAA//8AAAKgBAABAAAATAYAAAOg BAABAAAAjAoAAAAAAAAAAAYAAwEDAAEAAAAGAAAAGgEFAAEAAACWAQAAGwEFAAEAAACeAQAAKAED AAEAAAACAAAAAQIEAAEAAACmAQAAAgIEAAEAAADRGQAAAAAAAEgAAAABAAAASAAAAAEAAAD/2P/g ABBKRklGAAECAABIAEgAAP/tAAxBZG9iZV9DTQAC/+4ADkFkb2JlAGSAAAAAAf/bAIQADAgICAkI DAkJDBELCgsRFQ8MDA8VGBMTFRMTGBEMDAwMDAwRDAwMDAwMDAwMDAwMDAwMDAwMDAwMDAwMDAwM DAENCwsNDg0QDg4QFA4ODhQUDg4ODhQRDAwMDAwREQwMDAwMDBEMDAwMDAwMDAwMDAwMDAwMDAwM DAwMDAwMDAwM/8AAEQgAoABgAwEiAAIRAQMRAf/dAAQABv/EAT8AAAEFAQEBAQEBAAAAAAAAAAMA AQIEBQYHCAkKCwEAAQUBAQEBAQEAAAAAAAAAAQACAwQFBgcICQoLEAABBAEDAgQCBQcGCAUDDDMB AAIRAwQhEjEFQVFhEyJxgTIGFJGhsUIjJBVSwWIzNHKC0UMHJZJT8OHxY3M1FqKygyZEk1RkRcKj dDYX0lXiZfKzhMPTdePzRieUpIW0lcTU5PSltcXV5fVWZnaGlqa2xtbm9jdHV2d3h5ent8fX5/cR AAICAQIEBAMEBQYHBwYFNQEAAhEDITESBEFRYXEiEwUygZEUobFCI8FS0fAzJGLhcoKSQ1MVY3M0 8SUGFqKygwcmNcLSRJNUoxdkRVU2dGXi8rOEw9N14/NGlKSFtJXE1OT0pbXF1eX1VmZ2hpamtsbW 5vYnN0dXZ3eHl6e3x//aAAwDAQACEQMRAD8An9fcWx+XgNqa6x9zbSGDWNlm1zv5Ldv03Ln7+nvp qc6xsQw6gg6kfyV2fWskWdWspuPp0YtLaxc4Sxj8kWWVXW/nP/Tuq/RN/wAHXZkf4DesnNoYLzRd UQ6tjK8loGvP6TKOz2frX6PZdXv307LvU9Sy/wBNY+YGGEIyiZaAmv8AWfrI8P8Agza+XHLLOcoy EdTHX+p+rl/0F+pUW42Q2utoByKKH1vMucyR7wGt/lu9qrZ9WNh9Zy7sl36rRusdAIdueNtNTW/6 b1/5X0Fq9HoPWsfpORlEv9AvosPHqDHuFNLnf2PprA+uNrbutZdWpGJc6sNGoIa1o9R//Ce5UIRn PJKBPpgZCZ8pen/Gi6XHEYoGvVKIKs362X5gIrprxcb1TY2nc6wyS502PeW7tvqP+ixSobi52M+y q0MsY1zrK36GCWue5nLn+1v7q5lrXbnEw1p+i8nR38ncUmZ12O+aLHMc4EFzSQYIggbVboMJe4wW AdSxWA+3cOOP3nf9Ut3pde6qojlt4mP6zG/99XE9M662n0LrcgZDmPZLXtLTHFjfUYx21jGf4X9J veu46G+q3GD6nh7TYDoZiXbtqhz3xxIGlfivxiokeK2Vj7aDIjbfmATwA4bv++p7I2

Скачать книгу