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few weeks ago, but now we’ve all seen what Peter is capable of.

      “Tris!” Four calls out. Will and I exchange a look, half surprise and half apprehension. Four pulls away from the railing and walks up to me. Ahead of us, Al and Christina stop running, and Christina slides to the ground. I don’t blame them for staring. There are four of us, and Four is only talking to me.

      “You look different.” His words, normally crisp, are now sluggish.

      “So do you,” I say. And he does—he looks more relaxed, younger. “What are you doing?”

      “Flirting with death,” he replies with a laugh. “Drinking near the chasm. Probably not a good idea.”

      “No, it isn’t.” I’m not sure I like Four this way. There’s something unsettling about it.

      “Didn’t know you had a tattoo,” he says, looking at my collarbone.

      He sips the bottle. His breath smells thick and sharp. Like the factionless man’s breath.

      “Right. The crows,” he says. He glances over his shoulder at his friends, who are carrying on without him, unlike mine. He adds, “I’d ask you to hang out with us, but you’re not supposed to see me this way.”

      I am tempted to ask him why he wants me to hang out with him, but I suspect the answer has something to do with the bottle in his hand.

      “What way?” I ask. “Drunk?”

      “Yeah…well, no.” His voice softens. “Real, I guess.”

      “I’ll pretend I didn’t.”

      “Nice of you.” He puts his lips next to my ear and says, “You look good, Tris.”

      His words surprise me, and my heart leaps. I wish it didn’t, because judging by the way his eyes slide over mine, he has no idea what he’s saying. I laugh. “Do me a favor and stay away from the chasm, okay?”

      “Of course.” He winks at me.

      I can’t help it. I smile. Will clears his throat, but I don’t want to turn away from Four, even when he walks back to his friends.

      Then Al rushes at me like a rolling boulder and throws me over his shoulder. I shriek, my face hot.

      “Come on, little girl,” he says, “I’m taking you to dinner.”

      I rest my elbows on Al’s back and wave at Four as he carries me away.

      “I thought I would rescue you,” Al says as we walk away. He sets me down. “What was that all about?”

      He is trying to sound lighthearted, but he asks the question almost sadly. He still cares too much about me.

      “Yeah, I think we’d all like to know the answer to that question,” says Christina in a singsong voice. “What did he say to you?”

      “Nothing.” I shake my head. “He was drunk. He didn’t even know what he was saying.” I clear my throat. “That’s why I was grinning. It’s…funny to see him that way.”

      “Right,” says Will. “Couldn’t possibly be because—”

      I elbow Will hard in the ribs before he can finish his sentence. He was close enough to hear what Four said to me about looking good. I don’t need him telling everyone about it, especially not Al. I don’t want to make him feel worse.

      At home I used to spend calm, pleasant nights with my family. My mother knit scarves for the neighborhood kids. My father helped Caleb with his homework. There was a fire in the fireplace and peace in my heart, as I was doing exactly what I was supposed to be doing, and everything was quiet.

      I have never been carried around by a large boy, or laughed until my stomach hurt at the dinner table, or listened to the clamor of a hundred people all talking at once. Peace is restrained; this is free.

       CHAPTER TWENTY

      I BREATHE THROUGH my nose. In, out. In.

      “It’s just a simulation, Tris,” Four says quietly.

      He’s wrong. The last simulation bled into my life, waking and sleeping. Nightmares, not just featuring the crows but the feelings I had in the simulation—terror and helplessness, which I suspect is what I am really afraid of. Sudden fits of terror in the shower, at breakfast, on the way here. Nails bitten down so far my nail beds ache. And I am not the only one who feels this way; I can tell.

      Still I nod and close my eyes.

      I am in darkness. The last thing I remember is the metal chair and the needle in my arm. This time there is no field; there are no crows. My heart pounds in anticipation. What monsters will creep from the darkness and steal my rationality? How long will I have to wait for them?

      A blue orb lights up a few feet ahead of me, and then another one, filling the room with light. I am on the Pit floor, next to the chasm, and the initiates stand around me, their arms folded and their faces blank. I search for Christina and find her standing among them. None of them move. Their stillness makes my throat feel tight.

      I see something in front of me—my own faint reflection. I touch it, and my fingers find glass, cool and smooth. I look up. There is a pane above me; I am in a glass box. I press above my head to see if I can force the box open. It doesn’t budge. I am sealed in.

      My heart beats faster. I don’t want to be trapped. Someone taps on the wall in front of me. Four. He points at my feet, smirking.

      A few seconds ago, my feet were dry, but now I stand in half an inch of water, and my socks are soggy. I crouch to see where the water is coming from, but it seems to be coming from nowhere, rising up from the box’s glass bottom. I look up at Four, and he shrugs. He joins the crowd of initiates.

      The water rises fast. It now covers my ankles. I pound against the glass with my fist.

      “Hey!” I say. “Let me out of here!”

      The water slides up my bare calves as it rises, cool and soft. I hit the glass harder.

      “Get me out of here!”

      I stare at Christina. She leans over to Peter, who stands beside her, and whispers something in his ear. They both laugh.

      The water covers my thighs. I pound both fists against the glass. I’m not trying to get their attention anymore; I’m trying to break out. Frantic, I bang against the glass as hard as I can. I step back and throw my shoulder into the wall, once, twice, three times, four times. I hit the wall until my shoulder aches, screaming for help, watching the water rise to my waist, my rib cage, my chest.

      “Help!” I scream. “Please! Please help!”

      I slap the glass. I will die in this tank. I drag my shaking hands through my hair.

      I see Will standing among the initiates, and something tickles at the back of my mind. Something he said. Come on, think. I stop trying to break the glass. It’s hard to breathe, but I have to try. I’ll need as much air as I can get in a few seconds.

      My body rises, weightless in the water. I float closer to the ceiling and tilt my head back as the water covers my chin. Gasping, I press my face to the glass above me, sucking in as much air as I can. Then the water covers me, sealing me into the box.

      Don’t panic. It’s no use—my heart pounds and my thoughts scatter. I thrash in the water, smacking the walls. I kick the glass as hard as I can, but the water slows down my foot. The simulation is all in your head.

      I scream, and water fills my mouth. If it’s in my head, I control it. The water burns my eyes. The initiates’ passive faces stare back at me. They don’t care.

      I scream again and shove the wall with my palm. I hear something. A cracking sound. When I pull my hand away, there is a line in the glass. I

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