Allegiant - Вероника Рот

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flare of anger sets me off. I say, “Don’t forget that I barely know you, Evelyn.”

      She winces at the reminder. “Then let me tell you that I will never resort to simulations to get my way. Death would be better.”

      It’s possible that death is what she will use—killing people would certainly keep them quiet, stifle their revolution before it begins. Whoever the Allegiant are, they need to be warned, and quickly.

      “I can find out who they are,” I say.

      “I’m sure that you can. Why else would I have told you about them?”

      There are plenty of reasons she would tell me. To test me. To catch me. To feed me false information. I know what my mother is—she is someone for whom the end of a thing justifies the means of getting there, the same as my father, and the same, sometimes, as me.

      “I’ll do it, then. I’ll find them.”

      I rise, and her fingers, brittle as branches, close around my arm. “Thank you.”

      I force myself to look at her. Her eyes are close above her nose, which is hooked at the end, like my own. Her skin is a middling color, darker than mine. For a moment I see her in Abnegation gray, her thick hair bound back with a dozen pins, sitting across the dinner table from me. I see her crouched in front of me, fixing my mismatched shirt buttons before I go to school, and standing at the window, watching the uniform street for my father’s car, her hands clasped—no, clenched, her tan knuckles white with tension. We were united in fear then, and now that she isn’t afraid anymore, part of me wants to see what it would be like to unite with her in strength.

      I feel an ache, like I betrayed her, the woman who used to be my only ally, and I turn away before I can take it all back and apologize.

      I leave Erudite headquarters amid a crowd of people, my eyes confused, hunting for faction colors automatically when there are none left. I am wearing a gray shirt, blue jeans, black shoes—new clothes, but beneath them, my Dauntless tattoos. It is impossible to erase my choices. Especially these.

       TRIS

      I SET MY watch alarm for ten o’clock and fall asleep right away, without even shifting to a comfortable position. A few hours later the beeps don’t wake me, but the frustrated shout of someone across the room does. I turn off the alarm, run my fingers through my hair, and half walk, half jog to one of the emergency staircases. The exit at the bottom will let me out in the alley, where I probably won’t be stopped.

      Once I’m outside, the cool air wakes me up. I pull my sleeves down over my fingers to keep them warm. Summer is finally ending. There are a few people milling around the entrance to Erudite headquarters, but none of them notices me creeping across Michigan Avenue. There are some advantages to being small.

      I see Tobias standing in the middle of the lawn, wearing mixed faction colors—a gray T-shirt, blue jeans, and a black sweatshirt with a hood, representing all the factions my aptitude test told me I was qualified for. A backpack rests against his feet.

      “How did I do?” I say when I’m close enough for him to hear me.

      “Very well,” he says. “Evelyn still hates you, but Christina and Cara have been released without questioning.”

      “Good.” I smile.

      He pinches the front of my shirt, right over my stomach, and tugs me toward him, kissing me softly.

      “Come on,” he says as he pulls away. “I have a plan for this evening.”

      “Oh, really?”

      “Yes, well, I realized that we’ve never been on an actual date.”

      “Chaos and destruction do tend to take away a person’s dating possibilities.”

      “I would like to experience this ‘date’ phenomenon.” He walks backward, toward the mammoth metal structure at the other end of the lawn, and I follow him. “Before you, I only went on group dates, and they were usually a disaster. They always ended up with Zeke making out with whatever girl he intended to make out with, and me sitting in awkward silence with some girl that I had somehow offended in some way early on.”

      “You’re not very nice,” I say, grinning.

      “You’re one to talk.”

      “Hey, I could be nice if I tried.”

      “Hmm.” He taps his chin. “Say something nice, then.”

      “You’re very good-looking.”

      He smiles, his teeth a flash in the dark. “I like this ‘nice’ thing.”

      We reach the end of the lawn. The metal structure is larger and stranger up close than it was from far away. It’s really a stage, and arcing above it are massive metal plates that curl in different directions, like an exploded aluminum can. We walk around one of the plates on the right side to the back of the stage, which rises at an angle from the ground. There, metal beams support the plates from behind. Tobias secures his backpack on his shoulders and grabs one of the beams. Climbing.

      “This feels familiar,” I say. One of the first things we did together was scale the Ferris wheel, but that time it was me, not him, who compelled us to climb higher.

      I push up my sleeves and follow him. My shoulder is still sore from the bullet wound, but it is mostly healed. Still, I bear most of my weight with my left arm and try to push with my feet whenever possible. I look down at the tangle of bars beneath me and beyond them, the ground, and laugh.

      Tobias climbs to a spot where two metal plates meet in a V, leaving enough room for two people to sit. He scoots back, wedging himself between the two plates, and reaches for my waist to help me when I get close enough. I don’t really need the help, but I don’t say so—I am too busy enjoying his hands on me.

      He takes a blanket out of his backpack and covers us with it, then produces two plastic cups.

      “Would you like a clear head or a fuzzy one?” he says, peering into the bag.

      “Um . . .” I tilt my head. “Clear. I think we have some things to talk about, right?”

      “Yes.”

      He takes out a small bottle with clear, bubbling liquid in it, and as he twists open the cap, says, “I stole it from the Erudite kitchens. Apparently it’s delicious.”

      He pours some in each cup, and I take a sip. Whatever it is, it’s sweet as syrup and lemon-flavored and makes me cringe a little. My second sip is better.

      “Things to talk about,” he says.

      “Right.”

      “Well . . .” Tobias frowns into his cup. “Okay, so I understand why you worked with Marcus, and why you felt like you couldn’t tell me. But . . .”

      “But you’re angry,” I say. “Because I lied to you. On several occasions.”

      He nods, not looking at me. “It’s not even the Marcus thing. It’s further back than that. I don’t know if you can understand what it was like to wake up alone, and know that you had gone”—to your death, is what I suspect he wants to say, but he can’t even say the words—“to Erudite headquarters.”

      “No, I probably can’t.” I take another sip, turning the sugary drink over in my mouth before swallowing. “Listen, I . . . I used to think about giving my life for things, but I didn’t understand what ‘giving your life’ really was until it was right there, about to be taken from me.”

      I look up at him, and finally, he looks back at me.

      “I know now,” I say. “I know I want to live. I know I want to be honest with you. But . . . but I can’t

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