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Bonnie Kaye’s Straight Talk: A Collection of Her Best Newsletters About Gay Husbands. Bonnie Kaye
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isbn 9781926585055
Автор произведения Bonnie Kaye
Жанр Секс и семейная психология
Издательство Ingram
PART TWO: LETTERS FROM MY WOMEN
PART ONE BONNIE KAYE’S STRAIGHT TALK
In June of 1999, my first book, now republished as “The Gay Husband Checklist for Women Who Wonder” was published. To help promote the book, I developed my website at www.Gayhusbands.comoffering to help women who suspect or find that they are married to gay men.
Within that year, after receiving so many positive responses to the book, I decided to write a monthly newsletter that I named “Straight Talk.” A dozen years earlier, after the end of my own marriage to a gay man, I started writing a column for a local gay newspaper which was later syndicated for eight other national gay newspapers by that same title discussing how a straight woman views the gay community. The newspaper column lasted approximately a year, and then I decided to stop because it was thwarting my own healing process by being immersed in the gay community week in and week out.
After healing, I was ready once again to help others. I believed that a newsletter addressing the issues that we all face would be valuable. And as my monthly letters from my readers continually say after seven years, the newsletter is their “lifeline.”
Each month, I addressed issues that affect straight wives and girlfriends who find themselves in a situation that is similar to Alice in Wonderland—a world of topsy turvy upside down mirrors where what is real because false and what is false becomes reality. I keep it real—I tell it as I see it—which is the only way I can explain it.
Sometimes my views have been accused of being biased. I’m told that I’m not flexible and that I only see things in black and white. I suppose I’m guilty of that. But guess what? I stand by my views. One thing you can say for me—I am consistent! That is because I refuse to give in to people who want to compromise their lives and happiness. I am not about compromise—I’m about living a happy life free of additional emotional burdens that weigh women down.
My newsletters reveal my heart and soul. They tell of my personal triumphs and defeats. I reveal my personal thoughts and personal weaknesses. I am the first to share what so many of my women feel. I try to give encouragement as they walk through the path of gay husband recovery.
Our women, now over 7,000 worldwide, love to read these newsletters not only because of what I have to say, but equally as much because they learn so much from my readers who write in every month with their experiences. I have included some of those letters in the second part of the book knowing that they will also inspire you. I thank my readers for sharing their innermost thoughts with my other readers.
I hope this book will be your guide in the days, months, and years ahead. This is a book to help you heal and to validate all of your thinking and suffering. I like to always add stories of hope because we need to keep that word HOPE focused in front of us in order to heal.
If you would like to be added to my future newsletters, just drop me a line at [email protected]. I will be happy to add you to help you in your journey.
BONNIE KAYE’S STRAIGHT TALK
P ROFOUND AND R EVEALING W ORDS FROM A G AY E X -H USBAND
I receive several letters each week from men who are struggling to come out to their wives. I respond quickly to these men in hopes that my support and encouragement will give them the courage to be honest with their spouses. I also receive several letters each month from gay men who find my website or see my book who commend me for the work I am doing in helping people understand the complexities of straight/gay marriages.
Two months ago, I received a letter from a man who was about to become an important part of my life. Jay is an attorney in Pennsylvania. He is the first man I have ever met who can write words in a manner that clarified all of my own thoughts and feelings allowing me to conceptualize a key to the problem of straight/gay marriages that I will share with you. Jay’s sensitivity and honesty reflects what most of us would like our husbands or ex-husbands to tell us. Too few of us ever get to hear these words. I asked Jay if I could reprint some of his thoughts because I believe it validates so much of what all of us feel and need to hear. After reading his words, I am sure you will appreciate not only what he says, but also the beauty of how he says it.
Jay’s first communication to me in early February stated:
I am a gay man who was married for 23 years. My ex-wife and I have two children. I am writing to encourage you to continue the important work you are doing. I only wish that in 1996 when I finally began to come out that there had been resources such as yours to support our family through our transition.
I thanked him for his kind words, and his response was this:
I think that both men and women in these circumstances must recognize that there are no winners but there are survivors who create new ways to relate, maintain, support and redefine their family. In the process of ending my marriage, I lost my best friend and the dream we had of growing old together. Slowly, we have worked to continue to parent our children in accordance with the many values that we continue to share. There are many things I would, in retrospect have done and handled differently, but my single largest regret is that I did not deal with the secret of my sexuality while still in my marriage and in the years of counseling before divorce. So to those men who you counsel, I would urge them to give the woman they chose to love and bear children the earliest chance to deal with the truth. They probably will not have a marriage together, but they will at least have a chance of preserving the love that once brought them together with hopes and plans for a lifetime.
More words of insight kept coming as the weeks progressed. I will highlight just a few of these pearls that will lead to my conclusion:
I keep reminding myself of the shame that fueled my own 'denial' and kept me closeted for most of my life, however I also know the damage that secrets do to those who keep them and would like to teach that lesson to my kids as well.
…my kids have always been a priority. I can recall