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the service, so you and Dad can have sherry with the vicar and discuss your committee work with a clear conscience.’

      ‘Sweet of you, darling.’ Jessica straightened her hat in front of the hall mirror as her husband sounded the car horn outside. ‘Don’t let Helen sleep too late. Her eyes get puffy when she does. She wouldn’t thank you for that, not with that lovely man of hers around.’

      Bess didn’t want to be reminded. She still felt bewildered and desperately guilty over what had happened last night.

      According to her mother, Vaccari had gone walking. Bess hoped he’d disappear into a hole in the ground.

      As soon as the heavy front door closed behind Jessica, Bess thrust all thoughts of Helen’s man out of her head, went into the airy sitting room and lit the fire. Although the Old Rectory was centrally heated the early spring day was chilly, and a real fire was always cheerful. When Tom arrived they could have coffee in here and discuss her new job opportunity in comfort and peace.

      She had meant to tell him about it last night. But when she’d returned after her encounter with the disgraceful Italian he and Helen had been having one of their vitriolic spats. They’d both looked as if they could slaughter each other.

      The way she must have been looking, with burning cheeks and her hair all over the place, must have been the final straw, because Tom hadn’t exchanged more than half a dozen words with her during the remainder of the evening, and every last one of them had been grumpy.

      Watching the fire take hold, she heaved an exasperated sigh. She and Tom never fell out; everyone said how compatible they were. But he had seen the Italian sweep her onto the dance-floor; he had seen how she’d looked when she’d eventually returned. Had he guessed what had been happening? If he could have seen the way she’d responded to that devil’s kiss he would have been disgusted. Ashamed of her. And she wouldn’t have blamed him.

      Thoroughly ashamed of herself, and not quite knowing how it had happened, she went to the kitchen. Lunch for six. Roast beef and all the trimmings with apple pie to follow. A suitable penance, she reflected as she covered her serviceable grey skirt and neat cream blouse with one of Jessica’s aprons, since cooking was one of her least favourite occupations.

      Half an hour later, making pastry, she could happily have hurled the rolling pin at Luke Vaccari’s head when he sauntered through the door. Instead, she controlled herself and said in tones of deceptive docility, ‘Helen’s not up yet. Why don’t you go and wake her?’

      She wasn’t going to stoop to her sister’s level and bring up the subject of puffy eyes. And if he did as she’d suggested he’d be doing everyone a favour. He was looking throat-clenchingly virile this morning, in a soft black sweatshirt topping wickedly tight-fitting stone-coloured jeans. So Helen would welcome him into her bedroom with open arms. And his subsequent absence would mean that she and Tom could mend fences in peace and discuss her job offer.

      ‘Let her sleep. She works hard enough.’ Annoyingly, he refused the bait. He took a slice of prepared apple and crunched it between perfect white teeth. ‘Something smells good. Beef? Is this what you’re best at—finding your way to a man’s heart through his stomach? Is this how you snared Tom?’

      He’d said it as if she were incapable of finding a man any other way. And the derisory gleam in his eyes as they wandered over her small, neat person was a back-up statement if ever she’d seen one.

      She slapped the pastry topping over the apples and trimmed it with rough, savage sweeps of the knife, a betraying flare of colour on her face as she snapped out, ‘Did no one ever teach you manners? If you’re as rude to Helen as you are to me it’s a wonder she lets you anywhere near her!’

      ‘I thought the dulcet tones were a put-on.’ His smile was all sinister satisfaction. ‘The antagonism’s still all there.’ He moved closer. ‘What about the fear?’ And closer still, until she was backed against the table, her eyes spitting green fire. His face was all menacing hard lines until he suddenly smiled. ‘It’s there. No need to repeat last night’s lesson.’ And then his tone altered, became gentler, softer. ‘I behave impeccable around Helen. She doesn’t need a bomb under her. But you do.’

      Bess didn’t know what he meant. He talked in riddles and she wouldn’t give him the satisfaction of asking for answers.

      All she wanted was for him to go away. She hated it when he was in the same room, hated it more when he was this close.

      She had no way of understanding the untypical violence of her reaction to him but she did know that he robbed her of self-control. He had a shattering effect on her, and before she fully knew what she was doing she was pummelling his chest with floury hands, her head spinning as she ground out, ‘Just leave me alone—you’re insufferable!’

      ‘Yes, I know.’ He captured both her hands, making no real effort, his lazy eyes laughing into hers as he perched on the edge of the table, drawing her between his parted thighs. ‘Fun, isn’t it?’

      Fun? Being forcefully held in such a wickedly intimate position was not her idea of fun. Frustration glared from her eyes as he disregarded her squirming efforts to pull away, his mouth curling with silky amusement as he chided, ‘You haven’t felt this fired up for years. If ever. Admit it. Be honest for once; say what you feel, not what you think other people expect you to feel.’

      ‘I don’t know what you’re talking about,’ she denied, regretting her inability to iron the quaver out of her voice. ‘Why don’t you back off and leave me alone? You’re Helen’s guest, not mine. I don’t know what you’re trying to do—what you want,’ she finished desperately.

      ‘I don’t want anything I’m not entitled to try to take,’ he countered enigmatically, his hard thighs tightening on either side of her taut, slender body. ‘I’d be doing you a favour if I forgot my manners and took before I was offered.’

      Heat was building up inside her. She couldn’t cope with it. Or him. And if Tom were to walk in now—or Helen—what would they think, seeing them like this?

      Panic and guilt pushed her heart up into her throat and forced out a frenzied whimper, and he slid his hands behind her shoulderblades, the pressure inescapable as he pulled her body into his.

      ‘Relax, Bess.’ His voice was unforgivably soothing, the touch of his hands, the imprisoning, sexy strength of his thighs making her unthinkingly respond to his gentling command as easily as if he’d touched a control button. ‘I’m trying to open your eyes a little, that’s all. I’m not aiming to hurt you, ravage you on the kitchen floor. Because, so far as any of us know, we only have one life to live. I hate waste, and you’re wasting yours.’

      ‘You know nothing about me,’ she objected, and wondered why her voice was so submissive, why her head was burrowing into the drugging warmth of his impressive shoulders, why the thought of Tom’s imminent arrival meant nothing to her now.

      And she felt her entire body lose every scrap of resistance as his lean hand cradled her head as if he liked the way it felt against his body, and he contradicted softly, ‘I knew all about you before I saw you. More from what Helen left out than from what she said. She’s a beautiful, vital woman and as far as she’s concerned you’re not merely her pale shadow, you barely exist. And she’s made sure that’s the way everyone else sees you too. Am I right?’

      Bess didn’t answer. She couldn’t. He had made her mind spin off into orbit. This wonderful, shocking intimacy had blanked out her brain, leaving only sensation.

      ‘It’s a criminal waste,’ he continued in the same husky, hypnotic voice, as if he had expected no reply, not even the smallest effort at self-defence. ‘You have far more potential than you realise, or have been allowed to realise. Tom’s a nice enough guy, but he’s not for you. You deserve more than the safe predictability of life with him. Go out and look for what you’ve never had. Break away—find the passion and drama of living—find yourself.’

      The sudden surge of emotion that stormed through her was too intense to be borne

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