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himself, bending down to look for something suddenly important in his bag. His mother looked up, standing the iron on its rest.

      Not yet? she suggested, smiling. David screwed up his eyes and shook his head.

      No Mum, he said, his voice muffled by embarrassment and exasperation. It’s not— I don’t know. I like her, but, I don’t know. It seems a bit soon to be meeting her parents, he said. Dorothy picked up the iron again, pressing it down on to the shirt’s folded cuffs, resting her weight on them a moment.

      I met your father’s parents almost before we started courting, she said. He took me to his house after picking me up from Auntie Julia’s and introduced me to them. It was very formal. I think he just wanted to show me off. They were very nice you know; it was so sad what happened. She put the iron back on the rest and started to fold the shirt, smoothing it out with the back of her hand. Of course, my parents didn’t get to meet him until the wedding, she said. London was a long way from Suffolk in those days. David looked up at her and stopped himself from saying I know this Mum, you’ve told me all this before. I’d only met him a week earlier, she said, at a church-hall dance. Julia made sure I went and she made sure I talked to him as well, not that I needed much encouragement. She stopped, looking down at her hands where they rested on the folded shirt, looking at the ring still on her finger there.

      I miss him David, she said. I really do. Her voice faltered. He stood up and moved awkwardly towards her. They both waited.

      I know, he said. She took a sharp breath, blinking quickly, and held the shirt out towards him.

      Anyway, she said briskly. So. Did you meet this Eleanor at the museum, was she working there when you went up? Or did you, I mean, was it something else? He took the shirt and shook his head, smiling, as if to say that she knew too much already, that he wasn’t going to tell her anything more.

      I don’t know really, he said, I just did. It just happened, he said.

      He went upstairs, and as he carried the folded shirt out of the room she mouthed thank you? behind him, shaking her head and unplugging the iron from the wall.

      It just happened.

      He could have walked straight past. The door might not have been ajar. She might not have been struggling to work the new coffee machine, and so the sudden shriek it made might not have caught his attention the way it did. He might not have had the money to spare, or the confidence to push the door a little wider and ask if she was still serving. He might not have misunderstood the museum layout and missed an entire room of exhibits, and so he might have been rushing to catch his train and not turned and seen her there.

      These things, the way they fall into place. The people we would be if these things were otherwise.

      The coffee machine shrieked, he turned his head, the door was ajar. Behind the gleaming mahogany counter, partly shrouded by a jet of steam, he saw her, frowning, pulling levers, banging her hand against the side of the machine. There didn’t seem to be any customers. Sunlight was pouring into the room through tall sash windows, every surface shining, every spoon and coffee pot glinting, and as the steam cleared he caught his first sight of her face.

      Or it was raining, and the room was dull and grey, and he couldn’t see her properly from the other side of the room – the details slip away, arranged and rearranged over the years.

      She might have turned away at that point. He might have heard footsteps along the corridor behind him, the jangle of a janitor’s keys. The woman who usually worked in the tea room with her might have come bustling out of the kitchen instead of having left half an hour early to get to the post office on time. But none of that happened. He stayed looking at her, and caught the expression on her face: a purse of the lips, a shake of the head, a brief and secret smile. He noticed the way she tucked her hair behind her ear, the small coloured bead necklace she wore, the freckles on her nose, the high arch of her eyebrows. He noticed the open neck and the close fit of her tight white blouse. He caught his breath for a moment, and he didn’t turn away.

      And there were so many ways it could have been different.

      She might not have had the job in the first place. The friend of her mother’s might have mentioned it to someone else first, or her mother might not have thought it suitable. He might not have been able to get the time off work to make the long journey north. Trains could have been missed, or delayed, timetables misread. She might not have changed her scowl to a smile the way she did when she looked up and heard him ask if she was still serving.

      He walked up to the counter and she said what can I get you? Looks like the coffee’s a problem, he said, so I’ll have a tea if that’s alright. And she smiled again, blushing a little, and said aye they got the stupid thing on the cheap, it never works properly, and she went out to the kitchen to use the urn instead. She came back with a pot of tea, and poured out a cup, and glanced quickly up at him before pouring out another cup for herself. He stood across from her, his satchelful of guidebooks and leaflets propped against his feet, sipping from the thin china cup with the saucer in the palm of his hand. She leant across the counter and they talked. And there it was, already, in the way her long thin fingers fiddled with a sugar cube, in the way she held his eye when she spoke, in the way he wanted to reach across and tuck a stray wisp of hair back behind her ear.

      She asked how he liked Aberdeen, and he said he hadn’t had much chance to look around, he’d been in the museum all day. He asked if it was worth a return visit, and she said it was nice enough but she wasn’t planning on hanging around, she was going to get out as soon as she could. I’m going to university, she said, looking him in the eye as she said it, as though challenging him to say she wasn’t. This job’s only while I finish my Highers. Her eyes were wide and pale brown and her eyelashes were so much the same colour that they were almost invisible; he must have stared at them a little too long because she turned away and said would you like a piece of cake? They’ll only throw it out otherwise.

      She asked him what he was doing there and he told her, and she was only the second person who’d ever been interested or taken him seriously when he’d said he wanted to one day open a museum of his own. Will you need a tea room? she asked, her smile softening the edges of her narrow angular face, and her boldness surprised them both into silence for a moment.

      I’m going to be a geologist, she said, restarting the conversation, and he told her he’d never met a geologist before and asked her what they did. We study rocks, she said, laughing, and told him about fissures and seams and glacial deposits. It sounds like it’s boring but it’s not, she said, and he assured her that it didn’t sound boring at all. He noticed the colour of her eyes again, and then he noticed the time.

      He said he had a train to catch. She asked him when he might be there again and neither of them seemed surprised by the question. He said soon, probably, as if it were the most natural thing in the world to make such a long journey for the sake of an afternoon in a museum. She said my name’s Eleanor by the way, Eleanor Campbell, and he told her his. She wrote her address on a paper napkin and he put it in his pocket, and he wrote his telephone number on another napkin and she put it in hers. He told her he’d write, and she said she’d like that, and he picked up his bag and walked away, replaying the conversation over and over again in his head.

      These things, the way they happen. These things, the way they begin.

       Will you write again soon? Isn’t it funny to think we almost never met?

       11 Cigarette holder, tortoiseshell, believed 1940s

      It was only when Julia started smoking again that they realised something was really wrong. Before that, her slips and slides of memory had seemed like absent-mindedness, eccentricity, nothing more. I’ve been a dizzy old bat ever since the war, she said once, looking for her keys, it’s nothing new, and his mother said which war’s that then, the Boer? and they both yelped with laughter while he and Susan rolled their eyes.

      But when she started smoking, it seemed

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