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be the third Keswick wife to wear it, Mal.’ He had smiled in that special, very loving way of his as he slipped it on my finger. And in the next few days, every time I looked at it, the old prayer-book words sprang into my mind: With this ring I thee wed, with my body I thee worship.

      Twelve weeks after our first dinner date, Andrew Keswick and I were married at St Bartholomew’s Church on Park Avenue. The only person who was not entirely overjoyed by this sudden union was my mother. Liking Andrew very much though she did, and approving of him, she was, nonetheless, filled with disappointment about the extreme hastiness of the nuptials. ‘Everyone is going to think it’s a shotgun wedding,’ she kept muttering, throwing me piercing glances as she had rushed to have the invitations engraved and hurriedly planned a reception to be held at the Pierre Hotel on Fifth Avenue.

      My glaring eyes and stern, obstinate mouth must have warned her off, warned her not to ask if I was pregnant – which I wasn’t, by the way. But my mother deems me impractical, has for years characterized me as an artistic dreamer, a lover of poetry, books, music and painting, with my head forever in the clouds.

      Some of what she says is true. Yet I am also much more practical than she could ever imagine; my feet have always been firmly planted on the ground, despite what she thinks. The reason for the quickness of the marriage was simply because we wanted to be together, to live together, and we saw no reason to wait, to drag out a long engagement.

      Not all brides enjoy their weddings. I loved mine. I was euphoric throughout the church ceremony and the reception. After all, it was the most important day of my life; but, furthermore, I had also managed to outwit my mother and get my own way in everything. No mean feat, I might add, when it came to social situations.

      By my own choice, and with Andrew’s acquiescence, the affair was tiny. Both of our mothers were present, of course, as well as a few relatives and friends of Andrew’s and mine. Andrew’s father was dead. Mine wasn’t, although my mother behaved as though he were, inasmuch as he had left her some years before and gone to live in the Middle East. In consequence of this, she thought of him as being non-existent.

      But exist he did for me, and very much so. We corresponded on a regular basis and we spent as much time together as we could, whenever he came to the States. And he flew to New York to give me, his only daughter, away.

      Much to my astonishment, my mother was pleased he had made this paternal gesture. And so was I, although I had expected nothing less. The thought of getting married without him by my side as I walked down the aisle had appalled me. Once Andrew and I became engaged, I had called him in Saudi Arabia, where he was at the time, to tell him my good news. He had been overjoyed for me.

      Even though my mother barely spoke to my father the entire time he was in Manhattan, she at least behaved in a civilized manner when they were together in public. But, not unnaturally, he departed as soon as it was decent to do so, once the reception at the Pierre was drawing to a close. My father, an archaeologist, seems to prefer the past to the present, so he had rushed back to his current dig.

      He had fled my mother permanently some years before, when I was eighteen to be exact. I had gone off to Cambridge, Massachusetts, and my new life at Radcliffe College, and it was as though there was no longer a good reason for him to stay in the relationship, which had become extremely difficult for him to sustain. That they never divorced I always found odd; it was something of a mystery to me, given the circumstances.

      We left the wedding reception together, he and I and my bridegroom, and rode out to Kennedy Airport in one of the grand stretch limousines my mother had hired for the wedding.

      Just before we headed in different directions to catch our planes to different parts of the world, he hugged me tightly, and, as we said our goodbyes, he whispered against my hair, ‘I’m glad you did it your way, Mal, had the kind of wedding you wanted, not the big, splashy bash your mother would have preferred. You’re a maverick like me. But then that’s not half bad, is it? Always be yourself, Mal, always be true to yourself.’

      It had pleased me that he’d said that, about being a maverick like he was. We had been very close since my childhood, an emotional fact that I suspect has been a constant irritant to my mother. I don’t believe she has ever understood my father, not ever in their entire life together. Sometimes I’ve wondered why they married in the first place; they are such opposites, come from worlds that are completely different. My father is from an intellectual family of academics and writers, my mother from a family of affluent real-estate developers of some social standing, and they have never shared the same interests.

      Yet something must have attracted Edward Jordan to Jessica Sloane and vice versa, and they must have been in love, or thought they were, for marry they did in 1953. They brought me into the world in May 1955, and they stayed together until 1973, struggling through twenty years of bickering and quarrelling, punctuated by stony silences that lasted for months on end. And there were long absences on the part of my father, who was always off to the Middle East or South America, seeking the remains of ancient civilizations lost in the mists of antiquity.

      My father aside, my mother has never understood me, either. She is not remotely conscious of what I’m about, what makes me tick. But then my mother, charming and sweet though she can be, has not been blessed with very much insight into people.

      I love my mother and I know she loves me. But for years now, ever since I was a teenager, I’ve found her rather trying to be with. Unquestionably, there is a certain shallowness to her, and this is something which dismays me. She is forever concerned with her social standing, her social life, and her appearance. Not much else interests her, really. Her days revolve around her dressmaker, hair and manicure appointments, and the luncheons, dinners and cocktail parties to which she has been invited.

      To me it seems such an empty, meaningless life for any woman to lead, especially in this day and age. I am more like my father, inasmuch as I’m somewhat introspective and serious-minded; I’m concerned, just as he is, about this planet we inhabit, and all that is happening on it and to it.

      In many ways, the man I married greatly resembles my father in character. Like Daddy, Andrew cares, and he is honourable, strong, straightforward and dependable. True blue is the way I categorize them both.

      Andrew is my first love, my only love. There will never be anyone else for me. We will be with each other for the rest of our lives, he and I. This is the one great constant in my life, one which sustains me. Our children will grow up, leave us to strike out on their own as adults, have families of their own one day. But Andrew and I will go on into our twilight years together, and this knowledge comforts me.

      Suddenly, I felt the warmth of the sun on my face as its rays came filtering through the branches of the big apple tree, and I pushed myself up from the wrought-iron seat where I sat. Realizing that the day must now begin, I walked back to the house.

      It was Friday the first of July, and I had no time to waste today. I had planned a special weekend for Andrew, Jamie and Lissa, and my mother-in-law who was visiting us from England, as she did every year. Monday the fourth of July was to be our big summer celebration.

Two

      As I approached the house I could not help thinking how beautiful it looked this morning, gleaming white in the bright sunlight set against a backdrop of mixed green foliage under a sky of periwinkle blue.

      Andrew and I fell in love with Indian Meadows the minute we set eyes on it, although it wasn’t called Indian Meadows then. It didn’t have a name at all.

      Once we had bought it, the first thing I did was to christen it with a bottle of good French champagne, much to Andrew’s amusement. Jamie and Lissa, on the other hand, were baffled by my actions, not understanding at all until I explained about ships and how they were christened in exactly the same way. ‘And so why not a house,’ I had said, and they had laughed gleefully, tickled by the whole idea of it. So much so, they had wanted their own bottle of Veuve Clicquot to break against the drainpipe, as I had done, but Andrew put a stop to that

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