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Jadie’s florid display. Despite Arkie’s assurance that Jadie had been properly examined by doctors and the problem seemed to be purely psychological, I remained skeptical, because, plain and simple, Jadie looked deformed.

      One morning not long after Arkie and I had talked, I found myself watching Jadie as she went about her work. “Jadie?” I called. “Come over here, please.”

      Turning from the bookshelf, Jadie hobbled over.

      I turned her around to face away from me and asked her to bend over and touch her ankles. This she cautiously did and, lifting her shirt, I studied the outline of her shoulders to reassure myself there was no evidence of scoliosis. Then I asked her to stand and turn around to face me. Doing so, she tilted her head to one side to see me better.

      Very gently, I put one hand on her collar bone and the other in the middle of her back. “Let’s see you stand up a little straighter.” Carefully, I urged her upright.

      I felt very unsure of myself in doing this and the uncertainty must have come through my hands, because I quickly met resistance. Reluctant to push harder in case I might do damage, I stopped and lowered my hands. “These muscles here,” I said, indicating her lower back, “can you relax them?” Gently, I massaged along her spine with my fingertips, but it was like touching clothed stone. The more I touched her, the tenser she became. At last I dropped my hand.

      “Does it hurt you when I push like that?”

      “I don’t want to.”

      “But does it hurt?”

      “No.”

      “So, will you show me that you can stand up straight?”

      She shook her head.

      “If I take my hands right away and don’t touch you, can you straighten up?”

      “No.”

      “Why? Does it hurt?”

      “No.”

      “Well, why then?”

      “Because I need to bend over.”

      “Why?”

      “Because I need to.”

      “But why?

      “To keep my insides from falling out.”

       Chapter Four

      The following week, I made an appointment to see Jadie’s parents, and since they lived so near the school, I offered to come over to their house to see them. They readily accepted, as their youngest daughter, Sapphire, was only a few months old.

      The house was small and in the style of those built between the wars. Everything about it was ramshackle. Paint peeled from the window frames. The latticework around the front porch was broken. Large patches of grass in the front yard were worn away, leaving a battered tricycle mired in the mud. But when Mr. Ekdahl opened the door to greet me, I was led into a large room, warm and neat.

      They were a wholly undistinguished-looking couple. Jadie’s mother was small and drab, with mousy hair and badly chapped hands. She’d made a clear effort to appear attractive, apparent in the eye makeup and styled hair, but they had an aging effect. I knew she was probably near my age, but she had the aura of an older generation. Jadie’s father had pale Scandinavian features. Thin almost to the point of gauntness, he looked worn out, like the winter-beaten buffalo grass slowly disintegrating in the prairie wind.

      Jadie’s five-year-old sister, Amber, was there, too, and I was struck by the fact that this was one of those odd cases where the children were much more attractive than one would have been led to believe, seeing the parents. Amber was quite unlike Jadie in some ways. Her hair was fair and much less curly than Jadie’s, making her look more rumpled than ratty. Although her eyes were blue, they were a cloudy gray-blue, not the pure color Jadie’s were, but Amber, too, had the long, dark lashes, giving her the same look of infant sensuality. She remained in the room with us, a naked doll in her arms, and watched me guardedly. Jadie, however, made herself scarce. I heard the familiar sound of her shuffle in an adjacent room, and Mrs. Ekdahl said something about her minding the baby. Whatever, Jadie never even appeared to say hi.

      Jadie’s parents were clearly ill at ease with me. They got me seated in a big chair, a cup of coffee in my hand, and then they just stared. I explained a bit about who I was and talked about my own background and my work with children like Jadie, in hopes this would break the ice some. I said how glad I was to have her in my class, how gentle and cooperative she was, and what good academic work she was doing. They sat together on a long brown vinyl couch, which had decorative stitching in the shape of a horse’s head on the back, and said nothing.

      After ten minutes of this, it occurred to me that whatever else might be contributing to Jadie’s problems, a certain amount might simply be a familial trait. I endeavored to make conversation and ended up talking to myself, as no one else ever spoke. Mother, father, and daughter all sat motionless and mute, managing not even so much as a nod in my direction. Finally, I gave up and fell silent myself. Nothing happened. For three or four minutes, we all just sat.

      “You can make that chair go back,” Mrs. Ekdahl finally said.

      “Pardon?” I asked.

      “That chair, that one you’re sitting in. It’s a recliner. If you want to get yourself more comfortable, you just lean back some more and it lays out real nice.”

      “Oh. Thank you. I’m quite comfortable now, though.”

      “Do you want some more coffee?”

      “No, thank you. I’m fine.”

      “You sure? No trouble. We got the pot on and it makes ten cups. We only just been drinking it, so there’s plenty more.”

      There was pathos in all of this, and it left me feeling more uncomfortable and out of place than ever. “I’m fine,” I said, “but thanks. What I want to talk about … Jadie …”

      They looked at me.

      “What do you think about Jadie’s problems with speaking at school?”

      “Nothing,” the mother replied, her voice soft.

      “Nothing?”

      “Don’t see it’s a problem. Leastways, it isn’t one for us. She talks fine at home. Sometimes she won’t shut up.”

      “Oh? Can you tell me about such times?”

      “She gets silly,” the father offered.

      “In what way?”

      He shrugged. “Just silly. Jumping around. Her and Amber.” He smiled at the younger girl, who ducked her head.

      “Does Jadie talk then?”

      “Yeah, all the time. Shouts. Says silly things.”

      “What do you do then?” I asked.

      “Tell her to stop. Tell her you don’t go jumping on the couch, ’cause she’s going to rip it. She’s already ripped it here, see?” He pointed to a place patched with what looked like duct tape.

      “And tell her to stop talking dirty,” Mrs. Ekdahl added. “She does, sometimes. Shouts these filthy words and then Amber hears them.”

      From my experience with Jadie in the classroom, I was finding all this very difficult to imagine.

      “She picks them words up at school. From the big boys on the playground. And then, if she really wants to get you mad, she says ’em, ’cause she knows we don’t talk like that in this house,” Mrs. Ekdahl said.

      “And does she usually stop when you tell her to?” I asked.

      “Sometimes,” Mr. Ekdahl said. “Sometimes

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