A Hidden Life and Other Poems - George MacDonald

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have seen nothing clearly; felt no thrill

      Of pure emotion, save in dreams, wild dreams;

      And, sometimes, when I looked right up to thee.

      I have been proud of knowledge, when the flame

      Of Truth, high Truth, but flickered in my soul.

      Only at times, in lonely midnight hours,

      When in my soul the stars came forth, and brought

      New heights of silence, quelling all my sea,

      Have I beheld clear truth, apart from form,

      And known myself a living lonely thought,

      Isled in the hyaline of Truth alway.

      I have not reaped earth's harvest, O my God;

      Have gathered but a few poor wayside flowers,

      Harebells, red poppies, closing pimpernels—

      All which thou hast invented, beautiful God,

      To gather by the way, for comforting.

      Have I aimed proudly, therefore aimed too low,

      Striving for something visible in my thought,

      And not the unseen thing hid far in thine?

      Make me content to be a primrose-flower

      Among thy nations; that the fair truth, hid

      In the sweet primrose, enter into me,

      And I rejoice, an individual soul,

      Reflecting thee; as truly then divine,

      As if I towered the angel of the sun.

      All in the night, the glowing worm hath given

      Me keener joy than a whole heaven of stars:

      Thou camest in the worm more near me then.

      Nor do I think, were I that green delight,

      I'd change to be the shadowy evening star.

      Ah, make me, Father, anything thou wilt,

      So be thou will it; I am safe with thee.

      I laugh exulting. Make me something, God;

      Clear, sunny, veritable purity

      Of high existence, in itself content,

      And in the things that are besides itself,

      And seeking for no measures. I have found

      The good of earth, if I have found this death.

      Now I am ready; take me when thou wilt."

      He laid the letter in his desk, with seal

      And superscription. When his sister came,

      He said, "You'll find a note there—afterwards—.

      Take it yourself to the town, and let it go.

      But do not see the name, my sister true—

      I'll tell you all about it, when you come."

      And as the eve, through paler, darker shades,

      Insensibly declines, and is no more,

      The lordly day once more a memory,

      So died he. In the hush of noon he died.

      Through the low valley-fog he brake and climbed.

      The sun shone on—why should he not shine on?

      The summer noises rose o'er all the land.

      The love of God lay warm on hill and plain.

      'Tis well to die in summer.

                                 When the breath,

      After a long still pause, returned no more,

      The old man sank upon his knees, and said:

      "Father, I thank thee; it is over now;

      And thou hast helped him well through this sore time.

      So one by one we all come back to thee,

      All sons and brothers, thanking thee who didst

      Put of thy fatherhood in our poor hearts,

      That, having children, we might guess thy love.

      And at the last, find all loves one in thee."

      And then he rose, and comforted the maid,

      Who in her brother lost the pride of life,

      Weeping as all her heaven were full of rain.

      When that which was so like him—so unlike—

      Lay in the churchyard, and the green turf soon

      Would grow together, healing up the wounds

      Of the old Earth who took her share again,

      The sister went to do his last request.

      Then found she, with his other papers, this,—

      A farewell song, in lowland Scottish tongue:—

              Greetna, father, that I'm gaein'.

                For fu' weel ye ken the gaet.

              I' the winter, corn ye're sawin'—

                I' the hairst, again ye hae't.

              I'm gaein' hame to see my mither—

                She'll be weel acquant or this,

              Sair we'll muse at ane anither,

                'Tween the auld word an' new kiss.

              Love, I'm doubtin', will be scanty

                Roun' ye baith, when I'm awa';

              But the kirk has happin' plenty

                Close aside me, for you twa.

              An' aboon, there's room for mony—

                'Twas na made for ane or twa;

              But it grew for a' an' ony

                Countin' love the best ava'.

              Here, aneath, I ca' ye father:

                Auld names we'll nor tyne nor spare;

              A' my sonship I maun gather,

                For the Son is King up there.

              Greetna, father, that I'm gaein';

                For ye ken fu' weel the gaet:

              Here, in winter, cast yer sawin'—

                There, in hairst, again ye hae't.

      What of the lady? Little more I know.

      Not even if, when she had read the lines,

      She rose in haste, and to her chamber went,

      And shut the door; nor if, when she came forth,

      A dawn of holier purpose shone across

      The sadness of her brow; unto herself

      Convicted; though the great world, knowing all,

      Might call her pure as day—yea, truth itself.

      Of these things I know nothing—only know

      That on a warm autumnal afternoon,

      When half-length shadows fell from mossy stones,

      Darkening the green upon the grassy graves,

      While

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