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an unwonted cheerfulness pervaded her spirit throughout the day. Change of scene – and that to untravelled eyes – conjoined with the sensation of freedom from supervision, revived the sparkle of a warm young nature ready enough to take advantage of any adventitious restoratives. Point-blank grief tends rather to seal up happiness for a time than to produce that attrition which results from griefs of anticipation that move onward with the days: these may be said to furrow away the capacity for pleasure.

      Her expectations from the advertisement began to be extravagant. A thriving family, who had always sadly needed her, was already definitely pictured in her fancy, which, in its exuberance, led her on to picturing its individual members, their possible peculiarities, virtues, and vices, and obliterated for a time the recollection that she would be separated from her brother.

      Thus musing, as she waited for his return in the evening, her eyes fell on her left hand. The contemplation of her own left fourth finger by symbol-loving girlhood of this age is, it seems, very frequently, if not always, followed by a peculiar train of romantic ideas. Cytherea’s thoughts, still playing about her future, became directed into this romantic groove. She leant back in her chair, and taking hold of the fourth finger, which had attracted her attention, she lifted it with the tips of the others, and looked at the smooth and tapering member for a long time.

      She whispered idly, ‘I wonder who and what he will be?

      ‘If he’s a gentleman of fashion, he will take my finger so, just with the tips of his own, and with some fluttering of the heart, and the least trembling of his lip, slip the ring so lightly on that I shall hardly know it is there – looking delightfully into my eyes all the time.

      ‘If he’s a bold, dashing soldier, I expect he will proudly turn round, take the ring as if it equalled her Majesty’s crown in value, and desperately set it on my finger thus. He will fix his eyes unflinchingly upon what he is doing – just as if he stood in battle before the enemy (though, in reality, very fond of me, of course), and blush as much as I shall.

      ‘If he’s a sailor, he will take my finger and the ring in this way, and deck it out with a housewifely touch and a tenderness of expression about his mouth, as sailors do: kiss it, perhaps, with a simple air, as if we were children playing an idle game, and not at the very height of observation and envy by a great crowd saying, “Ah! they are happy now!”

      ‘If he should be rather a poor man – noble-minded and affectionate, but still poor – ’

      Owen’s footsteps rapidly ascending the stairs, interrupted this fancy-free meditation. Reproaching herself, even angry with herself for allowing her mind to stray upon such subjects in the face of their present desperate condition, she rose to meet him, and make tea.

      Cytherea’s interest to know how her brother had been received at Mr. Gradfield’s broke forth into words at once. Almost before they had sat down to table, she began cross-examining him in the regular sisterly way.

      ‘Well, Owen, how has it been with you to-day? What is the place like – do you think you will like Mr. Gradfield?’

      ‘O yes. But he has not been there to-day; I have only had the head draughtsman with me.’

      Young women have a habit, not noticeable in men, of putting on at a moment’s notice the drama of whosoever’s life they choose. Cytherea’s interest was transferred from Mr. Gradfield to his representative.

      ‘What sort of a man is he?’

      ‘He seems a very nice fellow indeed; though of course I can hardly tell to a certainty as yet. But I think he’s a very worthy fellow; there’s no nonsense in him, and though he is not a public school man he has read widely, and has a sharp appreciation of what’s good in books and art. In fact, his knowledge isn’t nearly so exclusive as most professional men’s.’

      ‘That’s a great deal to say of an architect, for of all professional men they are, as a rule, the most professional.’

      ‘Yes; perhaps they are. This man is rather of a melancholy turn of mind, I think.’

      ‘Has the managing clerk any family?’ she mildly asked, after a while, pouring out some more tea.

      ‘Family; no!’

      ‘Well, dear Owen, how should I know?’

      ‘Why, of course he isn’t married. But there happened to be a conversation about women going on in the office, and I heard him say what he should wish his wife to be like.’

      ‘What would he wish his wife to be like?’ she said, with great apparent lack of interest.

      ‘O, he says she must be girlish and artless: yet he would be loth to do without a dash of womanly subtlety, ‘tis so piquant. Yes, he said, that must be in her; she must have womanly cleverness. “And yet I should like her to blush if only a cock-sparrow were to look at her hard,” he said, “which brings me back to the girl again: and so I flit backwards and forwards. I must have what comes, I suppose,” he said, “and whatever she may be, thank God she’s no worse. However, if he might give a final hint to Providence,” he said, “a child among pleasures, and a woman among pains was the rough outline of his requirement.”’

      ‘Did he say that? What a musing creature he must be.’

      ‘He did, indeed.’

      3. FROM THE TWELFTH TO THE FIFTEENTH OF JULY

      As is well known, ideas are so elastic in a human brain, that they have no constant measure which may be called their actual bulk. Any important idea may be compressed to a molecule by an unwonted crowding of others; and any small idea will expand to whatever length and breadth of vacuum the mind may be able to make over to it. Cytherea’s world was tolerably vacant at this time, and the young architectural designer’s image became very pervasive. The next evening this subject was again renewed.

      ‘His name is Springrove,’ said Owen, in reply to her. ‘He is a thorough artist, but a man of rather humble origin, it seems, who has made himself so far. I think he is the son of a farmer, or something of the kind.’

      ‘Well, he’s none the worse for that, I suppose.’

      ‘None the worse. As we come down the hill, we shall be continually meeting people going up.’ But Owen had felt that Springrove was a little the worse nevertheless.

      ‘Of course he’s rather old by this time.’

      ‘O no. He’s about six-and-twenty – not more.’

      ‘Ah, I see… What is he like, Owen?’

      ‘I can’t exactly tell you his appearance: ‘tis always such a difficult thing to do.’

      ‘A man you would describe as short? Most men are those we should describe as short, I fancy.’

      ‘I should call him, I think, of the middle height; but as I only see him sitting in the office, of course I am not certain about his form and figure.’

      ‘I wish you were, then.’

      ‘Perhaps you do. But I am not, you see.’

      ‘Of course not, you are always so provoking. Owen, I saw a man in the street to-day whom I fancied was he – and yet, I don’t see how it could be, either. He had light brown hair, a snub nose, very round face, and a peculiar habit of reducing his eyes to straight lines when he looked narrowly at anything.’

      ‘O no. That was not he, Cytherea.’

      ‘Not a bit like him in all probability.’

      ‘Not a bit. He has dark hair – almost a Grecian nose, regular teeth, and an intellectual face, as nearly as I can recall to mind.’

      ‘Ah, there now, Owen, you have described him! But I suppose he’s not generally called pleasing, or – ’

      ‘Handsome?’

      ‘I scarcely meant that. But since you have said it, is he handsome?’

      ‘Rather.’

      ‘His tout ensemble is striking?’

      ‘Yes – O no, no – I forgot:

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