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that veil was removed by his surrender of the passion, the execution of the landscape on canvas was impossible. Yet so sweet was this drawback to his working powers that he could not wish it away.

      Yet it was strange that the girl should be attractive to a man of his limitations, since her alluring qualities were not aggressively apparent. A delicate oval face, exquisitely moulded, with a transparent colourless skin, and mystical eyes of larkspur blue, were scarcely what his blunt perceptions approved of as absolute beauty. Slim and dainty and fragile in shape and stature, her unusual looks suggested a cloistered nun given to visions or some peaked elfin creature of moonlight and mist. She might have been akin to the fairies she spoke about, and even in the strong daylight she was a creature of dreams ethereal and evanescent. Hardwick was much too phlegmatic a man to analyse shadows. A Celt would have comprehended the hidden charm which drew him on; the Saxon could only wonder what there was in the girl to impress him.

      "You are not my ideal of beauty, you know, Miss Enistor," he said in such a puzzled way as to rob the speech of premeditated rudeness; "yet there is something about you which makes me adore you!"

      The girl flushed and shrugged her shoulders again. "What a flamboyant word is 'adored'!"

      "It is the only word I can use," said Hardwick stoutly. "The Venus of Milo, Brynhild in the Volsung poem, Jael who slew Sisera, Rubens' robust nymphs: these were the types which appealed to me—until I met you."

      "How complimentary to my small commonplace looks! What caused you to change your mind, Mr. Hardwick?"

      "Something you possess, which is not apparent."

      "You talk in riddles. What attracts any one must be apparent."

      "Well, that is uncertain. I am not a deep thinker, you know. But there is such a thing as glamour."

      "There is. But you are not the man to comprehend the meaning of the word."

      "I admit that: all the same I feel its influence—in you!"

      "I don't know what you mean," said the girl indifferently.

      "Nor do I. Yet the feeling is here," and he touched his heart. "If I could only shape that feeling into words,"—he hesitated and blushed.

      "Well?"

      "I might be able to tell you much—Alice."

      "Why do you use my Christian name?"

      "Why not? We are man and woman on a hillside, and not over-civilised beings in a drawing-room. You are Alice: I am Julian. It is quite simple."

      "But too intimate," she objected, "you have known me only six months."

      "Do you reckon knowledge by Time?"

      "You have no knowledge: you confessed as much lately."

      Hardwick looked at her earnestly. "I have this much, that I know how deeply I love you, my dear!" and he took her hand gently between his palms.

      Alice let it lie there undisturbed, but did not return his pressure. For a few moments she looked straightly at the sunset. "I am sorry to hear you say that," was her calm remark when she did decide to speak.

      "Why?"

      "Because I can never love you!"

      "Love can create love," urged Julian, again pressing her hand and again receiving no answering caress.

      "Not between you and me. You may be fire, but I am not tow to catch alight." The flush had disappeared from her face, leaving it pure and white and calm to such a degree that the man dropped her hand. It was like holding a piece of ice, and he felt chilled by the aloofness of touch and look. "But you are a woman," he said roughly in his vexation, "you must know what love means."

      "I don't: really I don't." Alice hugged her knees and stared with the sublime quietness of an Egyptian statue at his perturbed countenance. As he did not answer, she continued to speak in a deliberate way, which showed that his proposal had not touched her heart in the least. "My mother died when I was born, and I had Dame Trevel in the village yonder as my foster-mother until I was ten years of age. Then my father sent me to a Hampstead boarding school for eleven years. I returned only twelve months ago to live at Tremore"—she nodded towards a long low grey house, which basked on a neighbouring hilltop like a sullen reptile in the sunshine.

      "But your father——?"

      "My father," interrupted the girl in a melancholy tone, "has no love for any one but himself. At times I think he hates me for causing the death of my mother by being born."

      "Surely not."

      "Well, you have seen my father. I leave you to judge."

      Hardwick was puzzled how to reply. "He is not a man who shows his feelings, you know," he said delicately.

      "I don't think he has any feelings to show," replied Alice indifferently. "I am used to his neglect, and so have schooled myself to be quietly agreeable without expecting any demonstrations of affection."

      Hardwick nodded. "I have noticed, when dining at Tremore, that you are more like well-bred acquaintances than father and daughter. Perhaps," he added in a dreamy tone, "that is what first made me fall in love with you."

      "I see," said Miss Enistor ironically, "you have come across the line of Shakespeare which says that pity is akin to love."

      "I have never read Shakespeare's plays," admitted Mr. Hardwick simply. "I'm not a clever chap, you know. But you looked so forlorn in that dismal house, and seemed so starving for kind words and actions, that I wanted to take you away with me and make you happier. Yes," the artist quite brightened at his own perspicuity, "that is what drew me to you—a desire to give you a really good time."

      Alice looked at him gravely, but with a suspicion of a smile on her pale lips. "Do you know, Julian, that I believe you to be a good man." The artist blushed again: he had the trick of blushing on occasions, which showed him to possess still the modesty of boyhood. "Oh, I say," he murmured almost inaudibly; then to cover his confusion added: "You call me Julian."

      "Yes," Alice nodded her head in a stately way. "Henceforth let us be the greatest of friends."

      "Lovers," he urged, "true honest lovers."

      "No, Julian. We would be neither true nor honest as lovers. Our marriage would not be one of those made in heaven."

      "Are any marriages made in heaven?" he asked somewhat cynically.

      She looked at him in surprise. "Of course. When one soul meets another soul capable of blending with it, that is a heavenly marriage."

      "Well then," he cried impetuously, "my soul and your soul?"

      Alice shook her head. "We don't strike the same note: we are not in harmony, Julian. As friends we can esteem one another, but as lovers, as man and wife, you would end in boring me as I should finally bore you."

      "One would think you were fifty to hear you talk so," said Hardwick crossly.

      "Do you reckon knowledge by Time?" she asked, harking back to the phrase he had used earlier in the conversation.

      He had no reply ready. "Still it is odd to hear a girl of twenty-one talk as you do, Alice."

      "You are speaking of my new suit of clothes. I am as old as the world."

      "Oh, that is the queer stuff your father talks. He believes in reincarnation, doesn't he?"

      "He does, and so do I."

      "I wonder that you can. A sensible girl like you——"

      "My dear Julian, you speak without knowledge," she interrupted placidly.

      "That can't be knowledge which can't be proved."

      "I think you must be a reincarnation of Nicodemus," retorted Miss Enistor.

      "That is no answer."

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