LITMIR.BIZ

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      “What’s shaken you out of your nest?” I asked.

      “I don’t know. I’ve not felt the same since that row with Annable. And Lettie said to me, ‘Here, you can’t live as you like — in any way or circumstance. You’re like a bit out of those coloured marble mosaics in the hall, you have to fit in your own set, fit into your own pattern, because you’re put there from the first. But you don’t want to be like a fixed bit of a mosaic — you want to fuse into life, and melt and mix with the rest of folk, to have some things burned out of you —’ She was downright serious.”

      “Well, you need not believe her. When did you see her?”

      “She came down on Wednesday, when I was getting the apples in the morning. She climbed a tree with me, and there was a wind, that was why I was getting all the apples, and it rocked us, me right up at the top, she sitting half-way down holding the basket. I asked her didn’t she think that free kind of life was the best, and that was how she answered me.”

      “You should have contradicted her.”

      “It seemed true. I never thought of it being wrong, in fact.”

      “Come — that sounds bad.”

      “No — I thought she looked down on us — on our way of life. I thought she meant I was like a toad in a hole.”

      “You should have shown her different.”

      “How could I when I could see no different?”

      “It strikes me you’re in love.”

      He laughed at the idea, saying, “No, but it is rotten to find that there isn’t a sine thing you have to be proud of.”

      “This is a new tune for you.”

      He pulled the grass moodily.

      “And when do you think of going?”

      “Oh — I don’t know — I’ve said nothing to Mother. Not yet — at any rate, not till spring.”

      “Not till something has happened,” said I.

      “What?” he asked.

      “Something decisive.”

      “I don’t know what can happen — unless the squire turns us out.”

      “No?” I said.

      He did not speak.

      “You should make things happen,” said I.

      “Don’t make me feel a worse fool, Cyril,” he replied despairingly.

      Gyp whined and jumped, tugging her chain to follow us. The grey blurs among the blackness of the bushes were resting sheep. A chill, dim mist crept along the ground.

      “But, for all that, Cyril,” he said, “to have her laugh at you across the table; to hear her sing as she moved about, before you are washed at night, when the fire’s warm, and you’re tired; to have her sit by you on the hearth-seat, close and soft . . . ”

      “In Spain,” I said. “In Spain.”

      He took no notice, but turned suddenly, laughing.

      “Do you know, when I was stooking up, lifting the sheaves, it felt like having your arm round a girl. It was quite a sudden sensation.”

      “You’d better take care,” said I, “you’ll mesh yourself in the silk of dreams, and then —”

      He laughed, not having heard my words.

      “The time seems to go like lightning — thinking,” he confessed —“I seem to sweep the mornings up in a handful.”

      “Oh Lord!” said I. “Why don’t you scheme for getting what you want, instead of dreaming fulfilments?”

      “Well,” he replied. “If it was a fine dream, wouldn’t you want to go on dreaming?” And with that he finished, and I went home.

      I sat at my window looking out, trying to get things straight. Mist rose, and wreathed round Nethermere, like ghosts meeting and embracing sadly. I thought of the time when my friend should not follow the harrow on our own snug valley side, and when Lettie’s room next mine should be closed to hide its emptiness, not its joy. My heart clung passionately to the hollow which held us all; how could I bear that it should be desolate! I wondered what Lettie would do.

      In the morning I was up early, when daybreak came with a shiver through the woods. I went out, while the moon still shone sickly in the west. The world shrank from the morning. It was then that the last of the summer things died. The wood was dark — and smelt damp and heavy with autumn. On the paths the leaves lay clogged.

      As I came near the farm I heard the yelling of dogs. Running, I reached the Common, and saw the sheep huddled and scattered in groups; something leaped round them. George burst into sight pursuing. Directly, there was the bang, bang of a gun. I picked up a heavy piece of sandstone and ran forward. Three sheep scattered wildly before me. In the dim light I saw their grey shadows move among the gorse bushes. Then a dog leaped, and I flung my stone with all my might. I hit. There came a high-pitched howling yelp of pain; I saw the brute make off, and went after him, dodging the prickly bushes, leaping the trailing brambles. The gunshots rang out again, and I heard the men shouting with excitement. My dog was out of sight, but I followed still, slanting down the hill. In a field ahead I saw someone running. Leaping the low hedge, I pursued, and overtook Emily, who was hurrying as fast as she could through the wet grass. There was another gunshot and great shouting. Emily glanced round, saw me, and started.

      “It’s gone to the quarries,” she panted. We walked on, without saying a word. Skirting the spinney, we followed the brook course, and came at last to the quarry fence. The old excavations were filled now with trees. The steep walls, twenty feet deep in places, were packed with loose stones, and trailed with hanging brambles. We climbed down the steep bank of the brook, and entered the quarries by the bed of the stream. Under the groves of ash and oak a pale primrose still lingered, glimmering wanly beside the hidden water. Emily found a smear of blood on a beautiful trail of yellow convolvulus. We followed the tracks on to the open, where the brook flowed on the hard rock bed, and the stony floor of the quarry was only a tangle of gorse and bramble and honeysuckle.

      “Take a good stone,” said I, and we pressed on, where the grove in the great excavation darkened again, and the brook slid secretly under the arms of the bushes and the hair of the long grass. We beat the cover almost to the road. I thought the brute had escaped, and I pulled a bunch of mountain-ash berries, and stood tapping them against my knee. I was startled by a snarl and a little scream. Running forward, I came upon one of the old, horse-shoe lime-kilns that stood at the head of the quarry. There, in the mouth of one of the kilns, Emily was kneeling on the dog, her hands buried in the hair of its throat, pushing back its head. The little jerks of the brute’s body were the spasms of death; already the eyes were turning inward, and the upper lip was drawn from the teeth by pain.

      “Good Lord, Emily! But he is dead!” I exclaimed.

      “Has he hurt you?” I drew her away. She shuddered violently, and seemed to feel a horror of herself.

      “No — no,” she said, looking at herself, with blood all on her skirt, where she had knelt on the wound which I had given the dog, and pressed the broken rib into the chest. There was a trickle of blood on her arm.

      “Did he bite you?” I asked, anxious.

      “No — oh no — I just peeped in, And he jumped. But he had no strength, and I hit him back with my stone, and I lost my balance, and fell on him.”

      “Let me wash your arm.”

      “Oh!” she exclaimed, “isn’t it horrible! Oh, I think it is so awful.”

      “What?” said I, busy bathing her arm in the cold water of the brook.

      “This — this whole brutal affair.”

      “It

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