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She won’t. I’m not telling you a sad story, I’m not fishing for sympathy. That’s just the way it is.”

      “Not anymore,” Bennett said. “We don’t have to talk about this now. But eventually we’re going to have to figure out how to get you caught up in school. Because you’re going to have options. I know you’re not used to that. But I’m going to make sure you have them.”

      Dallas didn’t say anything after that. He occupied himself by studying the case full of pastries, and Bennett did the same. At this point in the day eating healthy seemed overrated. He needed something that paired nicely with the emotional turmoil that came with discovering you had a secret son.

      He had no idea what the hell that was, but he imagined it contained a lot of butter.

      “Good morning.” Kelly, the usual morning shift worker at Sugar Cup, who never gave any indication that she felt like the morning was good at all, addressed Bennett and Dallas. “What can I get for you?”

      “Coffee for me,” Bennett said. “And a cinnamon roll.”

      He turned to Dallas and waited. “You’re just going to buy me something?” he asked.

      “Yes,” Bennett said.

      “A mocha. And a chocolate doughnut.”

      “Okay.” Kelly gave them the total, and Bennett handed her his card.

      They walked over to the part of the counter where the drinks came out, waited for a few moments and then were presented with their pastries and drinks.

      While they waited in line he shot a text to Kaylee to check if she was in the clinic today and if she’d mind if Dallas hung out in the break room, in case he didn’t want to drive around with Bennett all day while he saw to his appointments.

      She shot back an affirmative text. “Let’s sit for a minute,” Bennett said, gesturing to the tables. They took their breakfast over to a table by the wall. “I have a couple of scheduled appointments today. I have to go out to some of the ranches and vaccinate some baby animals. Horses, mostly. But if you want to you can hang out at the clinic.”

      “What clinic?” Dallas asked around a mouthful of doughnut.

      “Valley Veterinary. That’s the name of the practice I run with Kaylee, the woman you met last night.”

      “Yeah, I remember the one other person besides you I was introduced to yesterday.”

      Bennett pressed on as if Dallas hadn’t spoken. “I do a lot of work outside of town. My truck has all my equipment, so it’s easy to travel around. If you want the chance to see some of the area, we can do that. Otherwise, there’s a break room at the clinic. If you want to hang out there Kaylee will be around if you have an emergency.”

      “An emergency? Like blood or fire?”

      “Is that...a serious concern?”

      Dallas shrugged, which was clearly a favored gesture of his. “Maybe. I’m a problem after all.”

      “The kind that sets things on fire?” he asked. “No judgment, but I feel like I should know that.”

      “I haven’t set anything on fire.”

      “Okay. Good.”

      “All right.”

      “All right to which?” Bennett leaned back in his chair.

      “I guess I’ll go sit in the break room. Not really interested in driving around. We just drove all the way here yesterday from Portland.”

      “Right.” Bennett couldn’t decide if he was relieved or disappointed that his kid was opting to not spend the day with him. But they’d only been together for about a half hour this morning and Bennett already felt...taxed. Full of emotion he didn’t know how to sort through and weighted down by the idea he had to be something he didn’t know how to be for this kid. “Okay. And then after that we’re going to go over to my brother’s place. Well, it’s actually my brother’s and my other brother’s and my sister’s place.”

      Dallas looked stunned by that. “You have all that family?”

      “Yeah,” Bennett said. “And they don’t know about you either. Since I didn’t know about you. But they’re your uncles. And your aunt. I’m going to have to call your grandfather.”

      His dad was going to have something to say about being a grandfather.

      “I have...a grandfather?”

      “Yeah, and he’s married. Not to my mom. My mom is dead. But he remarried a great lady a couple of years ago. They’re down in New Mexico with her family right now. But you’ll meet her. Then, for holidays and things like that. He’ll probably want to make a trip up to meet you.”

      Dallas looked surprised by that. “They would?”

      “Of course. You’re family.”

      “That’s never mattered before. My mom never talked to her family. I don’t even know where they are. I just know they aren’t here anymore. She told me that much.”

      “That’s true. Her parents moved away after she left. She left home when she was sixteen.”

      Dallas nodded. “I know that much. She didn’t want to be trapped in a small town anymore. She said she hated it here.” He took another bite of doughnut. “She wanted to go somewhere more exciting.”

      “I didn’t know she hated it here,” Bennett said.

      “That’s what she told me. But I don’t know how much of anything she said is true. And it’s not because I trust you,” he clarified quickly. “It’s just because she’s a liar. She always has been. At least, as far back as I can remember. Because that’s how addicts are. She’s not the only addict I know. Every guy she ever dated was one. They’re all liars.”

      A sobering thought occurred to him then. “Are you... Do you have any problems with that? I mean, addiction stuff.”

      “Hell, no,” Dallas said, taking another bite of doughnut. “I mean, I drink. Not all the time. But I have. I’ve had some weed. But I’m not messing with meth and shit. I get why it’s tempting. Because it makes you forget. But then you forget everything. Including where the hell you left your kid. I just don’t want that. I don’t want to forget who I am. I mean, who I am isn’t anything all that impressive. And it’s not like I have much of anything. But I’m not going to be a meth zombie.”

      Bennett swallowed hard. “She wasn’t always like that.”

      “Yeah. She wasn’t like that until me, I guess.”

      “I don’t know,” Bennett said. “I figured that I screwed up her life.”

      “Yeah, she thought you did too. I mean, you definitely got your share of the blame. But I was part of it. When she would get mad and scream and stuff, she blamed both of us.”

      “I’m sorry,” Bennett said. “I’m sorry she treated you like that. And I have to believe that in the beginning that isn’t what she wanted. For some reason, she didn’t want to be here with me. Probably because I wanted to marry her. And if she really did hate it here, if she really did want to get out, she probably figured she was going to have to do it without me. She probably thought that her only hope of escaping this life, and being a rancher’s wife, or at least having to share custody with me, was to leave without telling me. Making me think that she lost the baby. I have to believe that she did it for what she thought was a better life. It’s just that she probably got into the other things that come with finding freedom. And she was too young to have that kind of responsibility.”

      “Yeah, maybe.” Dallas shifted in his seat, looking a little uncomfortable. “Either way, I’ve seen too much of it to want it,” Dallas said. “There’s not much mystery in drug use. She would have given it to me if I wanted it. I didn’t want

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