LITMIR.BIZ

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in the study until he was too tired to work any longer. If he’d made it into the sitting room so he could be with Lucy, he’d had the laptop so he could carry on working until he fell into bed.

      He must have been mad taking on the course, but it was nearly done now, this one last assignment the finish of it. That, and the exam he had to sit in a fortnight. Lord knows when he’d find time to revise for that. Lucy was taking the kids away to her parents for half term to give him some time to concentrate, but he knew it wouldn’t be enough, not if he was at work all day. And there was still this blasted assignment to knock on the head.

      Refilling his mug, he took his coffee back into the study, shut the door and had another go at making sense of that overly wordy and meaningless paper.

      Or maybe he should just ignore it and press on without referring to it. Then he could finish the assignment off this morning, and tonight he could take Lucy out and try and make it up to her.

      Good idea.

      ∗ ∗ ∗

      ‘Don’t cook for us, I’m taking you out for dinner.’

      Lucy looked at him as if he was mad. ‘Have you got a babysitter?’

      ‘Not yet.’

      ‘Well, good luck with that. Anyway, I don’t want to go out for dinner.’

      He stared at her, stunned. He’d bust a gut finishing off the assignment so he could spare the time, and now this? ‘Why ever not? You like going out for dinner.’

      ‘Not when we’re hardly speaking! It’s not my idea of fun to sit opposite you while you’re lost in thought on some stupid assignment or other for a course you’ve taken on without consulting me—’

      ‘Well, what do you want to do?’

      ‘I don’t want to do anything! I want you to talk to me! I want you to share decisions, not just steam ahead and do your own thing and leave us all behind! I want you to put the kids to bed, read them a story, give me a hug, bring me a cup of tea. I don’t need extravagant gestures, Andy, I just need you back.’

      He sighed shortly, ramming his hand through his hair. ‘I haven’t gone anywhere, Lucy. I’m doing this for all of us.’

      ‘Are you? Well, it doesn’t feel like it. It feels like you’re just shutting us out, as if we don’t matter as much as your blasted career—’

      ‘That’s unfair.’

      ‘No, it isn’t! You’re unfair. Neglecting your children is unfair. When did you last put Lottie to bed?’

      He swallowed hard and turned away. ‘Luce, it’s been chaos—’

      ‘Don’t give me excuses!’

      ‘It’s not an excuse, it’s a reason,’ he said tautly. ‘Anyway, I’m around tomorrow. We’ll do something then, all of us.’

      ‘Are you sure? You aren’t going to find something else to do?’

      ‘No! I’m here. All day. I promise.’

      ‘And I’m supposed to believe that?’

      ‘Oh, for God’s sake, I haven’t got time for this. I’ve got work to do—’

      ‘Of course you have. You always have work to do, and it’s always more important than us. I don’t know what the hell’s wrong with you.’

      This time she was the one who walked off. She shouldered past him, went into the utility room, shut the door firmly and started to tackle the ironing while Lottie was napping.

      His phone rang just before eleven that night, while he was printing off the hated assignment. HR? Really?

      Really.

      ‘Oh, you’re kidding, Steve! Not again.’

      ‘Sorry, Andy. There isn’t anyone else. James isn’t back in the country until tomorrow, or I’d ask him. It’s just one of those things. I’ll sort a new locum first thing on Monday, I promise.’

      He gave a heavy sigh and surrendered. ‘All right—but this is the last time, Steve. And you owe me, with bells on.’

      He hung up, and sat there for a while wondering how on earth he was going to tell Lucy. She’d skin him alive.

      And deservedly so.

      He swore softly but succinctly under his breath, stacked the papers together, clipped them into a binder and put the assignment into an envelope without even glancing at it. It was too late to worry. It had to be there on Monday, and it was already too late to post it. He’d email it, but the hard copy would have to be couriered.

      He’d do that on Monday morning, but now he was working all day tomorrow there was no time for any meaningful read-through before he sent it on its way. He’d only find some howler and, frankly, at this moment in time it seemed insignificant compared to telling Lucy that yet again he wasn’t going to be there for any quality time with her and the kids.

      It was not a conversation he was looking forward to.

      She was asleep by the time he went upstairs, and he got into bed beside her and contemplated pulling her into his arms and making love to her.

      Probably not a good idea. He didn’t have the energy to do her justice and he had to be at work in seven hours. Cursing Steve and the sick locum and life in general, he shut his eyes, covered them with his arm and crashed into sleep.

      The alarm on his phone woke him long before he was ready for it, and he silenced it and got straight out of bed before he could fall asleep again. Hell, he was tired. He stumbled into the bathroom, turned on the shower and got in without waiting for it to heat up.

      The cold shocked him awake, and he soaped himself fast, towelled his body briskly and then ran the razor over his jaw. His hand was trembling again, he noticed, and he nicked himself.

      Damn. It was the last thing he needed. He dried his face, leaving a bright streak of blood on the towel, and pressed a scrap of tissue over the cut to stem the bleeding while he cleaned his teeth.

      He went back into the bedroom, leaving the bathroom door open so he could see to get his clothes out without putting on the bedroom light. He didn’t want to disturb Lucy—because he was hoping to sneak out without waking her? Probably, but it was too late for that, apparently.

      ‘Andy?’ she murmured, her voice soft with sleep. ‘Are you OK?’

      Was he? Frankly, he had no idea. He pulled clothes out of the cupboard and started putting them on, and she propped herself up on one elbow and stared at him.

      ‘What are you doing, Andy? It’s Sunday morning. We don’t need to get up yet.’

      ‘I have to work. Steve rang last night, and I promised to do another shift—’

      ‘No! Why?’ She shoved herself up in the bed, dishevelled and sleepy and so beautiful she made his heart ache, her eyes filled with recrimination and disappointment. ‘Andy, you promised me! Why on earth did you agree? We don’t need the money, but we need you. The kids need you. I need you.’

      ‘And the hospital needs me—’

      ‘So put it first. Again. As always. Go on, go ahead—if that’s more important to you than us.’

      ‘Of course it’s not more important!’

      ‘Then don’t go!’

      ‘I have to! There’s nobody to cover the department.’

      ‘So they’ll have to shut it.’

      ‘They can’t. They can’t close the ED, Lucy, you’re being totally unreasonable.’

      ‘Well, you know what you can do, then. Go, by all means, but don’t bother coming home tonight, or any other night, because

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