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the ocean a few blocks away. I was surprised that the scent elicited not only the discomfort I’d expected, but also a longing, as though a tiny piece of me was still able to remember the good times I’d had down the shore in spite of all that had been taken from my family there.

      The waitress stopped by my table again on her way to another. “Can I get you a roll or something to munch on while you wait, hon?” she asked. It felt so strange to be called “hon” by someone half my age. Better, though, than ma’am.

      “No, thanks.” I smiled at her. “I’m fine.”

      It was warm in the restaurant, or at least I was warm. I had on cropped black pants and a sleeveless red top cut high on my shoulders, but I noticed other women in the restaurant were pulling on their sweaters. I didn’t even bother carrying a sweater since menopause hit me a year ago.

      I’d taken a table at the front of the restaurant so I would be able to see Ethan when he walked in. I wasn’t sure I’d recognize him. Through the window, I studied the men walking by, searching for lanky academic types. I watched people entering and leaving the little shops on the other side of the street. A young man stood directly across the street from me, rubbing lotion on a woman’s back. I watched the two of them until a pack of bicyclers sped by, blocking my view.

      I looked at my watch. Twenty minutes late. Maybe he wasn’t going to show up. He certainly had not welcomed my call.

      “I’m sorry Abby disturbed you with this,” he’d said, once I’d identified myself. He had a soft voice, exactly the sort of voice I would have imagined him having, and he did not sound irritated or angry. Just tired.

      “She had to.” I was on the phone in my office, staring at the words Chapter Four on my computer screen. The rest of the page was still blank. “She was right to,” I said. “And she and I agreed that the situation needed looking into.”

      He was quiet. “I’m not sure that I agree,” he said finally.

      “We’re talking about a serious injustice,” I said. “A man served time in prison for something he didn’t do. And we’re talking about my sister.” Along with the old sense of loss I felt at the mention of Isabel came the suddenly realization of my insensitivity. “I’m sorry, Ethan,” I said quickly. “I didn’t even offer you condolences. I’m very sorry. I know what it’s like to lose a sibling.”

      I heard him sigh. “Thanks,” he said. “Ned…I don’t know what happened to him. He had some sort of breakdown in his late teens and early twenties. He became…I don’t know how to describe it. He was just existing. Not really living.”

      Don’t you think that suggests he was carrying a guilty secret? I wanted to ask but decided against it. This wasn’t the time.

      “How bad was it?” I asked. “Was he able to work?”

      “Oh, yeah,” Ethan said. “He wasn’t that bad off. He spent time in Vietnam, which didn’t help his condition, and he was eventually discharged for a sleep problem. Then he got his degree in accounting and worked for a plumbing company, doing their books. He never got married. He dated a little, but never anything serious.”

      “Abby said…or rather, implied, that he had a drinking problem.”

      “Yes, he did,” Ethan said, “but he wasn’t a sloppy drunk. It didn’t get in the way of his work or anything. Just kept him numb. We tried to get him help, but he would never admit to having a problem. You can’t change someone who doesn’t want to change.”

      I had many more questions but felt anxious about asking them over the phone. I was afraid if I probed too deeply, he would hang up on me.

      “Can we meet?” I asked. “I’d like to talk to you in person about this. About the letter.”

      There was a silence so deep and long I had to ask him if he was still on the line.

      “I’m here,” he replied in that soft, soft voice. “And yes, I’ll meet you. Where are you living?”

      “Westfield,” I said. “How about you?”

      “On the canal,” he said, and I doubted that he knew how those three words stopped my breath. “We winterized the summer house years ago,” he added.

      “Do you live there with…”I wasn’t sure who else might be living in the Chapman’s old house with him. His parents? His wife?

      “Alone,” he said. “My wife and Abby used to live here, too, but I was divorced five years ago and Abby’s out on her own now, of course. She has a daughter. My granddaughter. Did she tell you that?” There was pride in his voice. I could hear the smile.

      “No,” I said. “That’s wonderful.”

      “Do you want to come here?”

      “No,” I said, nearly choking on the word in my rush to get it out. There was no way I was going to Bay Head Shores. “Maybe we could meet halfway.”

      “Well,” he said. “I have to be in Spring Lake Friday. If you want to meet me there for lunch, we can do that.”

      It was more than halfway, but that was all right. I needed to see him face-to-face to persuade him to take Ned’s letter to the police.

      A man carrying a soft-sided briefcase walked through the door of the restaurant and I looked up expectantly, but the red hair and glasses were missing and I gazed out the window again.

      “Julie?” I turned to see the man standing next to my table.

      “Ethan?” I queried back.

      He nodded, his smile subdued, and held out his hand. “Sorry I’m late,” he said. “I got stuck in beach traffic.”

      “That’s okay.” I shook his hand, and he sat down across from me.

      “I would never have recognized you,” I said, then wondered if that sounded rude. The truth was, age had done him many favors. His red hair was now a gray-tinged auburn, thin at his temples. He wore no glasses. The freckled skin of his youth had weathered into something kinder and he’d put on weight in the form of muscle. He was wearing a cobalt-blue short-sleeved shirt and his arms were lean and tight. The nerdiness from his childhood was gone. Completely. “You look great,” I added.

      “And you look wonderful,” he said. “I would have recognized you anywhere. But of course, your face used to be all over our house on the back of your books.”

      “Used to be?” I asked.

      “We both read them, but my wife got custody of the books,” he said. He glanced down at my bare ring finger. “You’re married, right?” he asked. “I recall something like ‘the author lives with her husband in New Jersey’ or something like that from one of your book jackets.”

      The waitress appeared at our table, pad at the ready. “How’re you two doing?” she asked.

      I looked up at her sunburned face. “He hasn’t had a chance to look at the menu,” I said.

      Ethan handed the waitress his unopened menu. “Just a burger, medium well,” he said. “And lemonade, please.”

      I ordered the shrimp salad, then returned my attention to Ethan. “I’m divorced,” I said. “Two years.”

      “Children?”

      “A daughter. Shannon. She’s seventeen. She just graduated high school.”

      “College plans?”

      “The Oberlin Conservatory of Music,” I said. “She’s a cellist.”

      He looked impressed. “Wow,” he said.

      “What kind of work do you do?” I asked, then held up my hand. “Wait. Let me guess,” I said. “You teach marine biology.”

      He laughed. “I’m

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